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2023.03.29 04:40 skylamarie97 25(F) Looking for Artsy Friends!!

hello there my name is Skyla, I am 25 years old. I am a college graduate with a degree in religious studies. I am originally from a rural area in Tennessee, and moved to New York City to get my shit together.
It should be noted that I am a cult survivor and I was held against my will by my parents for almost a decade. Because of these experiences I do have some weird quirks and mannerisms. Like for example I find it fun to go to grocery stores to look around and buy different new foods to make me happy, because my parents never wanted to spend money on me and wouldn’t allow me to keep the diet I wanted. Along with this, I love doing activities that are considered childish (e.g. wearing brightly colored clothes, playing webkinz regularly and watching children’s tv) because I was never allowed to express myself freely growing up so I just have an extremely delayed adolescents.
When it comes to what I like I am more on the eccentric side of things. My definition of fun is going to houses of worship to socialize and interact with the worshipers there along with that i love going to shows in small venues and finding new music through this avenue. I love to play old computer games, and webkinz regularly. I love buying children's art projects and doing them to de-stress. I am also autistic/have ADHD and should mention that what my special interests, which are: religion, old/dead languages, kidcore and y2k aesthetics, old internet, ancient near east, late 19th century-early 20th century Europe,astrology,supernatural stuff, early modern Eastern European Jewish culture and history, and pop punk music are just a scratch on the surface of some of my special interests. I also love to film tiktoks and am trying just for the hell of it to become an content creatoinfluencer that focuses on talking about religion and documenting my life while wearing extremely bright rainbow aesthetics. Along with this I write in my free time too; mostly academic material with other informative literature too, along with personal essays and pieces. It should be noted politically, I am a leftist, a communist to be exact. Lately tho I have been getting into trying to make my own art. I am learning how to use Blender and saving up to buy an iPad so I can learn how to use Procreate to start seeing art in the world that I want to see. Along with all of this, I love to cook and figure out new foods I like to eat!! my favorite food to cook though is pasta along with breakfast foods, halal plates, and wraps.
Lookwise i am 5'8 midsize. I mostly dress extremely feminine, wearing lots of dresses and I love to play in makeup too. Along with that I cover my head for modesty,religious reasons.
Doesn't matter the background when it comes to who I want to talk to just please don't be a big meanie xoxo
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2023.03.29 04:40 miller527 Commute home today

I take the train downtown 3 days a week. Most days it’s uneventful but I have had negative interactions with the homeless population which is undoubtedly echoed by other transit users quite a bit.
Today however I watched a man, clearly experiencing homelessness and struggling with some form of substance abuse, clean up an immense amount of trash. He walked up and down the platform and collected everything loose on the ground, dropping it into a nearby bin.
I spent the rest of my commute home self-reflecting, when was the last time I made this city a cleaner space for fellow Calgarians?
This shouldn’t detract from other people negative safety experiences. Just thought I should share a positive moment that reminded me everyone is human and worthy of empathy.
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2023.03.29 04:38 Nervous_Composer3587 AITA for not seating my brother and his ex wife together at my wedding?

Throwaway. My (25F) wedding is in a month and I sent out the prospective seating chart to my bridal party which includes my bridesmaids and my immediate family. The bride and groom’s parties are seated at the front at long tables for both the ceremony and reception. It makes things easier since there are a lot of moving parts. The rest of the guests are seated at small circular tables.
My brother Noah (28M) was upset that his ex wife Flora (31F) wasn’t seated with him like the other spouses.
They got divorced two years ago after Noah said that Flora was an emotionless mannequin who had no time or energy for him. Our family was stunned because Flora always seemed loving though her calmness is sometimes a little too stoic. I think his friends are to blame. My mom loved Flora. About a year ago, Flora had a car accident where she passed out behind the wheel and drove into a tree in her backyard. It turns out she had a disease that affected her heart and her body. It was a miracle that she was even able to function as long as she did. She looked fine if a bit underweight but she was close to death.
Noah and our mom threw themselves into helping Flora. He drives her everywhere, makes all her specialized meals, does the chores, makes the doctors appointments. He really stepped up. They recently got remarried so Flora can be on his health insurance rather than hers, although it’s just a marriage on paper. My mom’s still upset about that.
I made sure that the venue was aware of Flora’s needs, so she’s seated close to an exit for fresh air, has the right dietary food, and a person there to help her if need be. Flora hasn’t asked for anything. Noah, however, says that he needs to be seated next to her to take care of her needs. I’ve already taken care of Flora’s needs and I don’t want gossip on why they’re sitting together when they’re divorced on my wedding day, so I told him no. He threw a fit and said neither of them would come to the wedding. My mother is begging me to reconsider but she wants them to get back together. AITA?
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2023.03.29 04:38 skylamarie97 25 (f) Looking for Artsy Friends!!

hello there my name is Skyla, I am 25 years old. I am a college graduate with a degree in religious studies. I am originally from a rural area in Tennessee, and moved to New York City to get my shit together.
It should be noted that I am a cult survivor and I was held against my will by my parents for almost a decade. Because of these experiences I do have some weird quirks and mannerisms. Like for example I find it fun to go to grocery stores to look around and buy different new foods to make me happy, because my parents never wanted to spend money on me and wouldn’t allow me to keep the diet I wanted. Along with this, I love doing activities that are considered childish (e.g. wearing brightly colored clothes, playing webkinz regularly and watching children’s tv) because I was never allowed to express myself freely growing up so I just have an extremely delayed adolescents.
When it comes to what I like I am more on the eccentric side of things. My definition of fun is going to houses of worship to socialize and interact with the worshipers there along with that i love going to shows in small venues and finding new music through this avenue. I love to play old computer games, and webkinz regularly. I love buying children's art projects and doing them to de-stress. I am also autistic/have ADHD and should mention that what my special interests, which are: religion, old/dead languages, kidcore and y2k aesthetics, old internet, ancient near east, late 19th century-early 20th century Europe,astrology,supernatural stuff, early modern Eastern European Jewish culture and history, and pop punk music are just a scratch on the surface of some of my special interests. I also love to film tiktoks and am trying just for the hell of it to become an content creatoinfluencer that focuses on talking about religion and documenting my life while wearing extremely bright rainbow aesthetics. Along with this I write in my free time too; mostly academic material with other informative literature too, along with personal essays and pieces. It should be noted politically, I am a leftist, a communist to be exact. Lately tho I have been getting into trying to make my own art. I am learning how to use Blender and saving up to buy an iPad so I can learn how to use Procreate to start seeing art in the world that I want to see. Along with all of this, I love to cook and figure out new foods I like to eat!! my favorite food to cook though is pasta along with breakfast foods, halal plates, and wraps.
Lookwise i am 5'8 midsize. I mostly dress extremely feminine, wearing lots of dresses and I love to play in makeup too. Along with that I cover my head for modesty,religious reasons.
Doesn't matter the background when it comes to who I want to talk to just please don't be a big meanie xoxo
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2023.03.29 04:37 qaz126 [F4F] A Blooming Romance in a New Cafe

Good evening, I am looking for a long-term partner to create a new story with! The prompt I have in mind revolves around a new café opening in a walkable, downtown area of a small city. The story would revolve around the owner of business and the new female employee she has hired to help work it. Besides the business, the central driver would be the romance that develops between the two as they try to navigate the ins and outs of the new store.
This probably falls more towards the slice of life category. However, I would like to throw in a few challenges they have to overcome along the way. Opening a new business isn’t easy! I would also like for their relationship to have real development and feel like a natural progression. No quick trips down lover’s lane. I’d also love to hear your ideas on what we can do!
I am male myself but have written F before with no issues from my partners. That said I am always open to feedback! I prefer to write 3rd person, past tense on Discord and am in the EST time zone. I’m not a big stickler where you’re from as along as you don’t mind. I’ve had a few partners in Europe with no issues. Also, I’m happily taken so no OOC funny business. Though I don’t mind friendly OOC chats and love to make new friends!
Usually, I max out a discord message on more narration heavy replies, but bring it down for dialogue or scenes where a lot is going on so the other person has an opportunity to react. That’s more of a heads up and not a requirement though. As long it makes sense and the story is progressing you won’t catch me counting words. I really enjoy fluffy romances with plenty of adorable moments and am fine keeping it at that level with the option to include or exclude anything beyond.
That’s probably enough for now but I’m sure there will be more to figure out. If you made it through, please tell me about the OC you’d like to write. A little about them, why they took the job, etc. Thank you so much for your time!
(If this is still up, I’m still looking!)
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2023.03.29 04:37 ryanb055 Back issues reviewed by physiotherapist on behalf of neurosurgeon

Hi everyone, I posted a while back, but it seems like my post was deleted (at least I can’t find it). A lot of people here were suggesting spinal fusion for my spine (given the above report). I’m in ontario, Canada, and in the small city I’m in their are 4 neurosurgeons, the wait list to see one is 6 months. I’ve always been a weightlifter, have a very physically demanding job (which I’m taking a break from), been very active, etc. Now if I lift 40 pounds the wrong way I’m done with a flair up for 3-20+days that just needs constant TENS, heat, and stretching.
Anyway I saw a physiotherapist who assesses clients for surgery on behalf of the neurosurgeons in my city and she told me I should take a lot of IBUPROFEN, stretch, and come in to get shots if I need it. She told me they don’t do artificial disk replacement there, so that wasn’t an option (she said I could look into that somewhere else). She told me the reason surgery isn’t her recommendation is because they can’t tell what’s causing the pain conclusively, so they’re not doing it. She basically said with the stuff that’s wrong she’s not sure what’s causing the pain and therefor, I should get a desk job that allows me to stretch every 20 minutes.
Does this sound right? Toronto is the hub for medical issues in ontario, is a second opinion a good idea? If what she says is right, that’s fine, but I was kind of hoping for surgery with how often I’m in pain, and how terrible the pain is during flair ups. Honestly I’d just like to feel ok. Is having to stretch non stop every day and never lift anything over 30-40lbs again my life now? I’m a 33year old male, and having a hard time accepting her decision. Not the validity of it, just that it really sucks! Wondering if I should get a second opinion, or just accept this as it’s a sound conclusion?
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2023.03.29 04:36 TriTonyv7 Finishing the Adventure - Avenged : Cold Duel

Previous
Everyone looked where Frisk pointed. It was Alyx !
Alyx : It seems that Reaper sacrificed himself for nothing…
Tony : First of all, his name is Gabriel Reyes ! Second, it’s okay. Thanks to him, Bethany did the Purification earlier than expected.
Alyx : … Honestly… I don’t even know why you started this in the first place. You destroyed our complex TWO TIMES. This little b**** caused a riot for the second time.
Mary : HEY !!! DON’T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT !
Alyx : CLOSE YOUR MOUTH ! I’m talking ! And… Not only Bethany destroyed our complex… SHE ALSO CAUSED A GENOCIDE IN OUR ENTIRE CREW ! We lost practically everything !
Keinss : You know that Karma always gets you ? If you didn’t steal the Dark Amethyst, maybe none of this would ever happened ?
Alyx : Possibly… But I just have something to ask… You think you are above consequences… Don’t you ?
Tony : If you have a good look, you would know that it was because of my HATE that Fina is here. Otherwise, she would still have her friends… AND HER WORLD !
Fina : …
She started to cry because Tony basically told the truth.
Tony : Hey… Don’t cry. At least you are still here. Even though it wasn’t happy after what happened to you…
Fina : No… *snif* It’s fine. Thanks Tony.
Alyx : Grr… Why you are forgiven easily ?! Did you see all the mistakes that you’ve made in your adventure ?!
Tony : At least, unlike you, I’m learning from my mistakes. And I try to protect those who has suffered long enough.
Alyx : You know what ?
She bring out her sword and she pointed right at Tony.
Alyx : I think it’s time to reveal the truth !
??? : Stop there, Alyx !
She turned back to see that Dmitri arrived. And of course, she was surprised about his arrival.
Alyx : D-Dad ?!
This single word did react literally everyone in shock. Dmitri approached her daughter calmly.
Dmitri : Let me take care of this one, okay ?
Alyx : But Dmitri… Tony is really strong. Remember that he destroyed the Airship ?!
Henry : First, it was me, not Tony. And second, we almost died due to him !
Dmitri : So I have more reasons to attack you.
Alyx : Dmitri… Don’t…
Dmitri : I’ll take care of this ! GET OUT !
Alyx turned her face in sadness. She didn’t want to abandon her father because Tony was basically younger and stronger than him.
Alyx : Just… Be careful, okay ?
Dmitri : I will. Now get out !
The Ice Queen immediately leaved the aftermath and trapped Bethany, Tony and Amina into the magical arena.
Amina : Oh no !
Keinss : Dammit ! Looks like you have to fight him without us, Tony.
Dmitri : Hehe… I know that Amina is practically useless in fighting and Bethany doesn’t have anything to protect herself. Simply because I can take you to your Abandoned Form with this stone.
The Warden activated the stone to affect the Trio. But strangely, only Bethany did get affected.
Dmitri : Well… I didn’t expected this…
Tony : Are you stupid ? I can’t get into this form because I don’t have HATE anymore and Amina… IT’S A DEFENSE MECHANISM, YOU IMBECILE !
Ruby : Hey, your language, Guardian !
Dmitri : Alright… *summons his pistol* I hope God is with you. Because I won’t give you Mercy…
SOUL BATTLE START !
Dmitri : You did knew that you had a chance to stop. But unfortunately, you didn’t… And now, you have to pay the price for your consequences, Tony VJ…
Dmitri armed himself with his gun and a lance and pointing it towards the trio.
Dmitri : I’ve said that I’ll stay on my morals on my members. But for you, I’ll make an exception, Guardian.
*Dmitri is looking through you…
The Soul Battle is resembling to the Papyrus fight in REVENGE : The Unseen Ending. (The first version actually.)
Dialogue :
- You know ? Maybe in an another timeline, we did became friends.
- With your own powers, you could have benefit the Wall in it’s entirety.
- Remember the Dark Amethyst ? Well… When I discovered this gem, I knew what to do with it.
- The Government couldn’t resist to our attacks according to the plans. And even the Toppat Airship had zero chance against it !
- It could have ended well… Until you came.
- And I don’t count Mary, Bethany and Amina too. A woman that managed to pass her trauma is impressive. More if she did get along with it.
- A girl that managed to lure towards a deadly trap that I’ve caused myself due to you…
- And an artificial experiment that did get feelings towards Henry and did everything to hide him from me and my complex.
- Even Henry himself… This man is probably the embodiment of Luck itself.
- You imagine what would happen if I had the same Luck as him ? I would be INVINCIBLE.
- Also… Henry does most of the job. Ellie does help but not as much.
- And Charles is not that talented. Seriously. How his ‘Greatest Plan’ is supposed to work ? It’s just a kamekaze attack.
- His own sister, Sarah… Clearly abandoned due to a simple mistake.
At the 13th Attack however, his weapon seems to loosen in resistance and starts to break.
- All of those people. That suffered in their own way.
- Heh. I don’t even know if it’s your fault or not.
- After all, this has gone for long enough…
And at the last attack, Dmitri’s lance did break and lost completely it’s HP. Dealing 1582 Damage. The barrier disappeared and the Warden, fell.
Dmitri : Even with that… It’s not enough ?!
Bethany : You’ve lost ! Give up, Warden !
Alina : You are also alone ! And as the daughter of the person that protects the city, you are under arrest !
However… Dmitri started to laugh.
Monika : HEY ! WHAT’S SO FUNNY ?!
Dmitri : You think I’m done yet ? Well… Try to catch me.
And then, he run away, which surprised everyone.
Henry : He… Left ?!
Charles : GUYS ! CATCH HIM ! DON’T LET HIM CAUSING MORE HARM !
And the entire team pursued the Warden into the city. To arrive into an unfinished place.
Next
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2023.03.29 04:36 qaz126 [F4F] A Blooming Romance in a New Cafe

Good evening, I am looking for a long-term partner to create a new story with! The prompt I have in mind revolves around a new café opening in a walkable, downtown area of a small city. The story would revolve around the owner of business and the new female employee she has hired to help work it. Besides the business, the central driver would be the romance that develops between the two as they try to navigate the ins and outs of the new store.
This probably falls more towards the slice of life category. However, I would like to throw in a few challenges they have to overcome along the way. Opening a new business isn’t easy! I would also like for their relationship to have real development and feel like a natural progression. No quick trips down lover’s lane. I’d also love to hear your ideas on what we can do!
I am male myself but have written F before with no issues from my partners. That said I am always open to feedback! I prefer to write 3rd person, past tense on Discord and am in the EST time zone. I’m not a big stickler where you’re from as along as you don’t mind. I’ve had a few partners in Europe with no issues. Also, I’m happily taken so no OOC funny business. Though I don’t mind friendly OOC chats and love to make new friends!
Usually, I max out a discord message on more narration heavy replies, but bring it down for dialogue or scenes where a lot is going on so the other person has an opportunity to react. That’s more of a heads up and not a requirement though. As long it makes sense and the story is progressing you won’t catch me counting words. I really enjoy fluffy romances with plenty of adorable moments and am fine keeping it at that level with the option to include or exclude anything beyond.
That’s probably enough for now but I’m sure there will be more to figure out. If you made it through, please tell me about the OC you’d like to write. A little about them, why they took the job, etc. Thank you so much for your time!
(If this is still up, I’m still looking!)
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2023.03.29 04:35 btxsimsenku Got catcalled today on a stroll in my neighbourhood

I decided to go on walks with a friend usually after dinner at around 9:30-10:30 ish. My neighbourhood is very residential and has always been very safe (hence i live here with family despite expensive property rates), recently though I noticed a “trend” among guys my age 15~18 in my city, of cat calling and than recording them, some guys in my school reposted there friends doing it so that’s when I noticed it.
Today on my daily stroll, a group of guys on fast motor bikes came riding next to us, one, twice, thrice. So we realised something was fishy and changed routes but were shortly followed, than the guys proceeded to go faster and REALLY near us, i genuinely thought I would be hit by there bikes. Than they started to whistle and some of them were like saying really vulgar stuff, but our house was still really far so we took refuge at another friends house who was nearby and than her dad dropped us.
One of the guys I was able to recognise was my elder cousin brothers friend and my sources told me HE INFORMED them of my path. I don’t know if I was being recorded too but I still had to tell my dad in case they made a tiktok. Anyways, no more strolls or walking in my neighbourhood for me.
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2023.03.29 04:35 InsideTheTeamRoomm 100% P/T, in my late 20’s and don’t know how to continue

Good evening brothers and sisters,
I am 28 years old and 100% P/T for a slew of issues including 100% mental health. I live in Florida in an expensive ass city, (not Miami) and my VA disability barely keeps my head above water. Idk maybe I’m ranting, maybe I’m being a pussy, who knows. But for those in a similar position, what keeps you going daily? I have a bachelors degree already, I have no kids, no wife, nothing. I’m dating a lot because I want to have a family eventually and I know no one’s going to want to be with me unless I have my fucking shit together. I also don’t just want to skate by in life, could I live off the VA alone? Sure. Would my pockets be super tight, abso-fucking-lutely. I’ve only had the 100% for a few months and I’m still learning how to navigate it all. How do I tell a woman I’m super interested in that I’m NOT just sitting on my ass all day, I’m going to medical appts, therapy etc. How do I navigate her asking how I don’t work and still afford to live? I want to thrive in this life. How do you all navigate life being so young and having this blessing that came at a forever cost?
Thank you all and godbless you!
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2023.03.29 04:34 TheRealMSol What’s the point, God?

I guess it’s because I’ve been a terrible person. But it seems to me I see terrible people doing terrible things all the time, and they get rewarded for it. No, I didn’t know how to handle the spiraling alcoholism, and yes, I did things I regret and hate myself for. So for that I get a life sentence??
I watched the woman I married spiral into severe alcoholism that was tearing my home apart. I yelled, I ignored, I strayed, I detached… because I didn’t know what to do. Finally, she got help. I had a “second chance” dangled in front of me. She got clean, she seemed like her old self. I drove her to outpatient meetings 2-3x a week. I found out she’d been cheating on me the whole time. When I confronted her, she doubled down, said she was in love and not with me. She wouldn’t break it off. Saw the texts calling me “fatso” and twisting my parenting to paint me as some jerk (if I let my kid stay up a bit to watch part of a game with me, I was “keeping her up past bedtime because I was too lazy watching sports”). She relapsed. I gave up, filed for divorce. I got the kid, the house, the dog. She gets a little money. Fair trade.
But I’m left with the indignity of being cheated on, being the fifth wheel at social events, arriving alone to parties, no one to leave with or recap the night. No one to relive memories with. The last 10 years of my life, all the good memories that managed to outweigh the bad, are forever tainted. I’m the “divorced guy.” My ex is a punchline among family and friends. They think it helps. They say I’m better off. I should celebrate. I don’t feel like popping champagne, ok? My life is irrevocably tainted, 25% of it has been a lie. I’m now middle aged, a full time single parent, and alone. Not if that is going to change except for the part where I go from older to just old.
I tried dating. I met a woman. Fellow single parent. Absolutely stunning. We had a lot in common. Great chemistry. Good conversation, good in bed. Two months I thought, wow lucky me. Then, poof, she was done. No sign, no warning. Just “wasn’t ready for a committed relationship.” Ghosted me after so probably just some excuse.
Six months ago I met another woman. The first time I saw her I stopped dead in my tracks. Her eyes. Something about her eyes. Our relationship was professional, not through OLD or anything like that. And then we got to talking. We have everything in common! We’re so compatible it’s scary. Everything about her just seems like everything I’d always looked for. I know you shouldn’t idealize someone, but she’s as close to ideal as anyone I’ve met in a long long time. I should ask her out, no? No, she’s married. Officially “engaged” but told a few close friends (me included) that they went to city hall and just didn’t want the fuss. Family doesn’t know just yet. We text all the time. Play online word games, talk business, talk daily life. She’s probably the closest thing to a healthy relationship I’ve ever had. And she’s off limits. Never mind though, but I’m sure she wouldn’t be interested and would friend zone me in a heartbeat, secret husband or not.
Why would God, or the universe, or whatever, do that? Why do I deserve this? To have everything ripped away, and then have “what could’ve been” dangled in front of me, just to torment me further. What’s the point of that? Why is there nothing for me but sadness and unfulfilled possibilities? Knowing I won’t meet someone else like this? Knowing I won’t have anyone to share the golden years and look back with? Knowing my life is basically a slow crawl towards a lonely, bitter end? What the fuck???
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2023.03.29 04:33 Storms_Wrath The Human Artificial Hivemind Part 343: Who Watches the Elders?

First Previous Wiki
"We should get ready," Kawtyahtnakal said. "They're coming soon."
His honor guard was already well-prepared for all of this, with numerous rehearsals of the event. But now was the final stretch, said more in case the Truth Speakers or Regulators needed to get ready. Some of the Patriarchs and, of course, Eyahtni was here as well, wearing armor denoting their ranks or family names and statuses.
Kawtyahtnakal stood, proudly puffing out his chest as the great doors to the throne room swung open.
On the other side, a hard light hologram of Hive Emperor Calanii, Hive Empress Ashnav'viinir, and a host of diplomats and public officials walked. Their shoes echoed loudly in the halls like heralds of the coming prosperity. Already, both the Vinarii Empire and the Hive Union were in a golden age. The business industry was expanding, and public health and consumer spending were up. New shipyards, spaceports, mines, orbital stations, luxury resorts, and technology were rapidly coming online. And that was in spite of the increasingly unpopular war on Galshaskir, which wasn't bearing any fruit.
It was likely that Kawtyahtnakal would set up a shield dome over the planet, one that was self-perpetuating and continuous. That way, he didn't have to send anyone else to die.
The Alliance had sent some soldiers and even more robotic machines, but its assistance had been sporadic compared to the entire planetary front. Kawtyahtnakal sensed that Calanii would also discuss the war with him when they got the chance.
"Greetings, Nest Overlord Kawtyahtnakal. I thank you for your hospitality, and your willingness to accept my request for a meeting."
"You are quite welcome, Hive Emperor Calanii. I am glad to have received it."
Now that the rehearsed theatrics were done, it was time to get to the meat of the discussion. An array of servants and cooks brought in food suitable for both Vinarii and Cawlarian consumption, laced with nutrients and tastes that each found appealing in their own way. Calanii, Eyahtni, and Kawtyahtnakal quickly established a shielded conversation area. A hologram formed around them, blocking their faces and bodies from the view of the others who had come for the meeting. They would have their own discussions while the most important one occurred.
"So. Are you here to discuss the war?"
"Yes. I have machines that would be helpful in alleviating your struggle. In particular, I have a set of sensors that could potentially locate Galshaskir."
"That is good to hear. What will that cost?"
"Only a favor, later on. That favor will not be extreme, like handing over territory or people."
"We will need more of a discussion on that favor," Kawtyahtnakal said. "May I know the nature of it?"
"I would request that you intervene with a group of pirates that is interfering with the border trade. They don't seem to be natural, and are likely based in and supported by an enemy nation."
Kawtyahtnakal nodded. "The Imperium?"
"Our sources are too dubious to confirm whether it's them or another nation posing as them. But it is someone, and somewhat likely to be the Imperium."
"Haven't you normalized relations with them?"
"I did when I came into power. They hated Ashnad'darii and disliked you. I think that they are worried about our continued moves toward cooperation. And they happen to share a direct border with me, though not with you."
"Have you talked to the Eternal Emperor recently?"
"I haven't directly talked to him at all, actually. He hasn't officially discussed matters of importance with the Vinarii Empire ever since our rise to power."
Calanii's antennae bent forward.
"He's building up his fleet, actually."
"He won't attack you with the mutual defense treaty in place. We've still got a massive military, and so do you. In fact, you're modernizing it," Kawtyahtnakal pointed out.
"Yes. But he is likely backed by others, to be so belligerent. And this comes to the third point. He is being aggressive, but support for a war is low. Not zero, but low. I can't declare on him."
"Do you need to?" Eyahtni asked. "Has there been anything that would serve as a casus belli?"
"No. Just increasing anti-Vinarii rhetoric. They killed a small refugee group, only about 30 thousand Vinarii or so. That's too small to declare war. They do not violate our borders officially, and their spy ships seem content to watch without interference."
"How exactly do you wish for me to alleviate this?"
"I want you to express public solidarity with me more often. Open more pacts and corporate collaborations. More sister cities, joint military operations. That sort of thing."
"If that is the favor, than it is acceptable," Kawtyahtnakal said, looking over to Eyahtni. Both of them already planned on doing this, though a little slower than Calanii likely wanted. It was something that would benefit them, with increased experience for their forces as well as better techniques and strategies.
"Yes, it is acceptable," Eyahtni asked. "What of other agreements?"
"We wish to open research agreements with your institutions for their latest advancements."
"That will take some doing, but I don't see why not," Kawtyahtnakal replied. Calanii looked relieved at that.
"And another thing. I would request that your Alliance tone down the anti-Sprilnav actions. It is bringing undue attention to this section of the galaxy. I'm sure you've noticed the number of searches related to your species in foreign data statistics going up. And that your spies are noticing increased chatter in your border states, and the wider galaxy as a whole. If not that, then surely you must have had an increase in contacts recently."
Kawtyahtnakal had noticed that as well. They seemed to have reached a peak recently, likely due to the birth of Edu'frec and also the publicized killing of the Elder that had bombed the Alliance recently. Kawtyahtnakal admired the hasty decision to kill the Sprilnav doing it before it got worse. Because he knew, as did many dead civilizations in the galaxy, that it definitely would have escalated.
To be honest, he'd wanted to establish relations with Edu'frec, and Eyahtni had already petitioned the Alliance for an official meeting. But with the justification that 'he's a child' and 'he doesn't understand diplomacy yet,' they had refused. Of course, both of them knew that it wasn't the Alliance that was actually refusing, but Phoebe. Her security around Edu'frec was surpassed by only a few individuals in the Alliance. And it was the equivalent of what regional governors that controlled multiple systems got in the Union.
"We have noticed, yes," Eyahtni said.
"And has the Alliance given any indication of their preference?"
"No. It does appear that it was both a matter of vengeance as well as prevention."
"The Sprilnav are moving massive fleets in their systems," pointed out Calanii.
"Yes. But they remain in their systems. If the Sprilnav decided to come for us, the whole galaxy couldn't stop them. The ships in their fleets are each the equivalent of battlecruisers and outnumber every civilian and military ship in the galaxy combined. And their Elder ships are so tough that the amount of force needed to crack them even a bit is only possible with the strongest dreadnaught cannons or with planet crackers."
"The Alliance's force projection capabilities are growing at an alarming rate."
"It is not alarming for us, since we are allies. You could always move for reconciliation."
"We don't know how the rest of the galaxy, and especially the Imperium, would take it."
"Well then, that is your risk," Kawtyahtnakal said. "But the longer you wait, the more favorable the terms will get for the Alliance."
"I'm not so sure. They're absorbing population at a high rate, which should start causing huge cultural friction between their constituent races. There's more Wisselen in the Alliance than Breyyanik or wanderers. And if their supposed plans of invading the Guulin are true, then that problem will worsen until they crack under the weight of culture war and political upheaval."
"Phoebe and the hivemind curb much of that. The Alliance's culture specifically preaches understanding and forgiveness for past wrongs. Most of their Wisselen citizens have jobs now, and those that don't are not only surviving, but actually living in houses and with access to free food and water."
"That shouldn't be possible."
"It is, because the elites of the Alliance have manufactured the cycle to benefit everyone, which makes them richer in the process. Money flows from governments into their economy, which goes into circulation, and makes it stronger. Most issues like inflation impact far less severely when food and housing are free."
"You seem to admire them," Calanii observed.
"I do. To go from their humble beginnings to an ascending superpower of the galaxy is no small feat. The Sprilnav don't even enforce their immigration controls on them. They use their advantages to the fullest, whether it's having an entire species linked to a non-predatory and sapient hivemind, to having not one but now two psychic AIs. I admire the resolve of the leaders who represent their people, and their desire to make the galaxy a better place, as best they can."
"They plan to invade a neighbor and have killed a Sprilnav Elder."
"If you killed an Elder, your people would have a year-long party," Eyahtni pointed out. "And they plan to capture and free the slaves of the United Legions, which is driven heavily by the cultural and political influence of the second largest species in their nation, the Guulin. What galactic power do you know that would have granted independence to a people they had annexed, just to make them more equal?"
Calanii sighed. "I suppose that they are the moral side to take."
"Yes, perhaps that is true."
"I'm glad that you see it."
"Do you think they would be willing to help with the Imperium?"
"You should ask them. But the Imperium doesn't have slaves, and doesn't heavily oppress its people, mostly because its propaganda is baked so deeply into its population. So it's a maybe. They won't help you invade, most likely, unless you are attacked. And by attacked, I mean their ships bombing a planet, not shooting at a police vessel."
"I see. Have you also detected the readings from their psychic amplifier bases?"
"We have. However, the Alliance is using the psychic energy predominantly to build shipyards, grow the orbital ring around Mercury, and to expand their production of rare alloys."
"It's incredible how powerful they are, for such a small nation."
"Not really. With Phoebe and the hivemind, they should be more so. Plus the individual known as Equisa should have knowledge that they could use. Though that big gun Phoebe built is certainly up to par with some of our own weapons."
"True. It does cause quite the stir in psychic energy when fired."
The Nest Overlord knew that he was talking about the small amount of psychic energy that all lasers dragged along. It enabled them to be visible to certain sensors even when they missed and when they were high-energy enough to also glow in all directions. Without psychic energy, the lasers would always be invisible in space.
"Yes."
"Well, with that out of the way, I would like to congratulate you on your 86th year of service."
"Thank you. Overlord Day's next week, though."
"I'm aware."
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"Equisa, it's very good to see you again." Meihala smiled as Equisa hugged her. The relatively thin human woman smirked, saying, "Joshua's in the kitchen, making that beef lasagna that we like."
"Mmm. Yes, we do."
"I'll be right in. Don't you wor-"
A message flashed across her vision.
*Elder Equisa. Your presence is requested.\*
She quickly tapped back a response inside her implants.
*Not yet.\*
*Then we will come to you.\*
"Hang on, I need-"
A hologram appeared next to Equisa, of an older Sprilnav man. Wrinkles were visible over his whole body and most prevalent near his joints and face. His jaws hung slightly agape, a common symptom of not just old age but old design. He was likely one of those Elders who had been alive before most galaxies had been born.
Eyes older than stars looked at her and Meihala.
"Equisa. What is... this?"
"You tasked me to investigate the humans and to provide information pertinent to the cause of the psychic pulse. I did so, and you did not reassign me."
A second Sprilnav appeared next to him. Both of them appeared to be male, though with Sprilnav this old, Equisa could never be sure with her eyes alone. But her implants did the identifications for her, confirming her thoughts.
"Ah, so my suspicions were correct. I can smell it on you."
"Smell what?" Joshua asked, entering the room. His eyes widened upon seeing the three Elders. "Oh, uh, what's your names?"
"Refined Elder Rho and Refined Elder Sai." Elder Sai looked at the human with a confused look. "Equisa, why are you mingling with these... beings?"
"Please don't be racist if that's your thing. We're people. Humans, specifically. I'm Joshua, and this is Meihala." He pointed to himself and then to her. Equisa felt like she was swimming in awkwardness.
"Well then. We have questions for your mate."
"She is an acquaintance," Meihala said.
"Mates and friends are different things. You have mated with this Elder, therefore you are... no, both of you have. Equisa, you didn't have any information about this preference in your file."
"It's not a preference; it's just... something new, alright? Yes, I'm in a relationship. But the operation is over, so there's no need for me to do anything." Equisa tried to move away, but Rho just smiled.
"Don't worry. You're not in trouble. Your body is your own, and your words are true. However, this is about the death of a Secondary Galaxy Elder. There has been expressed displeasure at your actions from the Elders of the Secondary Galaxy."
Equisa was surprised that they were saying all of this in front of the humans.
"Why-?"
"We in the Primary Galaxy had a vote, and in that vote we moved to allow knowledge of us to be spread to trusted individuals. As an Elder and one of sound mind and proper, if strange, judgement, then this applies to your mates."
"So you're saying that... everyone knew about this? Everyone?" Equisa asked.
"Everyone knows, yes. Including your family, since that's likely your next question. Your father actually placed a bet on how you would react when you were made aware of this. He's just become a richer man."
Equisa sighed, knowing that her father's nature had somehow remained the same throughout the long millennia. Ever since his time before the Source War, he'd been a gambler and better. He was prolific and just successful enough to win enough to pay the debts of his losses. But he wasn't a bad person.
"Wow, that's gotta be like, I don't know, really embarrassing," Meihala laughed. "I'm sorry."
"Yes. You're one of the most famous Elders in existence, as the first Elder to mate with a member of another species in... 7 billion Earth years or so? Maybe 8, I'm still not exact on the length."
"You carry the 3, so 8," Rho said. Sai smiled as if not knowing basic math was a running joke between them. Perhaps it was.
"Alright. So what's the consequences for it, then?"
"None. They expressed displeasure, that's all. But they lost the war, so who cares about what they think? Plus, this is way more fun. I'm particularly keen on meeting Phoebe and Penny."
"Penny's single," Rho said. "But too young, especially for you. Age gaps that large are too weird for me."
"Well, Equisa doesn't care," Sai laughed. "She's what, a hundred million times older than these humans here? That's gotta be strange."
"Can you two not pry into my love life? Thank you. I'd prefer that this visit ends quickly," Equisa said. Rho and Sai then changed into forms that were human, though still old.
"Alright. We won't bother you, but we'd be happy to do some sightseeing. Can you take us to walk around?"
"No."
"What if I ordered you?" Sai asked.
"I'd refuse."
"Aw, you're so grumpy now. Good old Equisa. Well, not older than me, is she?" Sai joked, laughing with Rho and slapping his back. He exited Equisa's house, followed by Sai close behind.
"Can you explain this to us?" Joshua asked.
"I... it'll take a while."
"We're not mad, just confused," Meihala added. "I wouldn't exactly want them to know about my love life, either."
"How many Sprilnav are in the Primary Galaxy?"
"About... a septillion of them?"
Joshua laughed. "You're serious?"
"Absolutely. We've got Dyson spheres, ringworlds, and artificial worlds."
"Full spheres?"
"Segmented. But the concept remains true."
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"Aw, this guy's kind of adorable," Penny heard. She was busy being absolutely destroyed at a game with Edu'frec, who definitely didn't have the skill of a mere ninth grader. Whether that was because of further advancement or because he was an AI was hard to know for sure. But whatever the case, that was what things had been.
Penny's head craned leftward to the sound, strings of psychic energy already starting to form on her fingers. But they stopped when they saw a pair of old men standing at the door. And they weren't just people with grey hair, but really old. Like they were thousands of years old, with hanging jowls, wrinkled faces, and spotted skin. One even sported a wart on his nose.
"Oh, hello there!" one said, waving at her as if he wasn't a person out of a hospital bed. "I'm Sai, and this is Rho. How are you doing?"
"I'm good. How did you get here?"
"We walked, obviously."
"Phoebe has incredibly powerful security, and you just... walked in?"
"Yeah, it looked expensive. But don't worry. We just want to pat him on the head."
"Who are you?" Edu'frec asked. "Don't treat me like a child."
"My name is-"
"Not your names. What are you?"
"I'm not sure what you mean," Rho said.
"You don't walk like humans. Your gait and stance are wrong, as if you're compensating for something that's not there. Like you had four legs before, instead of two. So I'll ask again. What are you?" Edu'frec bared his teeth in a growl.
"Well, isn't it quite obvious? We're Sprilnav. And we're here to-"
An android suddenly walked into the room. Phoebe moved in a blur, her hands rushing forward to slam into both of them. However, she passed through them. A second android pulled back Edu'frec as shields appeared around him thick enough to hide him from view. Penny wasn't sure what to do.
"We're here to pet him."
"I'm not a child," Edu'frec growled through the shield. There was a pulse of something, and then the two old men became Sprilnav. Penny switched into action, standing between them and Phoebe's son. All of them were on a hair trigger.
"Ok, we'll leave," Rho and Sai said. "We're sorry."
"You don't just get to-"
"Yes, we do. I'm not going to be locked in a cage, and neither is my friend here. We're sightseeing."
"How did you get here?"
"Don't worry about it. We won't do any harm to you."
"You need to learn about what to do and what not to, if you're going to remain in the Alliance."
"Sai, they're treating us like we're vermin."
Sai frowned. "Oh. Phoebe, we're not from the Secondary Galaxy. We're here because Equisa hacked a communication device, which resulted in the death of an Elder."
"So you're punishing us?"
"Not at all. We're just seeing the Alliance that we've heard so much about."
"Would you stay and protect us against the Primary Galaxy?" Phoebe asked, calming quickly with the revelation.
"Probably not. Why, are they trying to kill you all or something?"
"Sort of."
"Then why are you still alive?" Sai asked with genuine confusion.
"Come on, you aren't that senile," Rho said. "It's the Source's Servant that's in the mindscape, trying to hide from us."
With that, Rimiaha appeared in the room as if he'd always been there. "What are you trying to do here?"
"We really do just want to do some sightseeing. There's nothing wrong with it."
"How do we know?"
"Just him and I are enough, if that wasn't true."
"What do you mean by that?" Phoebe asked.
"We are enough."
Rimiaha sighed. "I'd still beat you."
"We can block the Source's power from reaching you. All you'd have is your reserves, and they're not enough," Sai said.
"Please. I could smack you into tomorrow, quite literally," Rimiaha retorted.
"We get it," Phoebe said. "You're only using 1% of your power or whatever. But you're getting guards, both for your sake and ours."
"We can become humans again."
Penny sighed. Nilnacrawla ended another psychic energy class, looking at the scene in bemusement.
Are these guys really as stupid as they're acting?
Older Sprilnav are generally smarter, so not likely. And these guys are very old.
Generally?
Generally, it's likely that they are purposely doing this for entertainment.
"Well, you'd do it badly, but yeah," Phoebe replied. "I'm sorry that I got upset. But I'm going to explain this to you. I'm... very protective of Edu'frec. I really love him. So when I saw you two so close to him, and heard what I thought would be a declaration of intent to kill him, I was upset. Very upset."
"Nilnacrawla says that you guys are faking it," Penny said.
"Nilnacrawla? He's alive?"
"Yes, he's in my head," Penny stated dryly. "Do you not know this?"
"I didn't," Sai said.
"First of all, what kind of Elders are you?" Edu'frec asked.
"Refined Elders. Those who were born not only before the Source war, but before the most major of the genetic modifications preparing for it."
"I see. Another title," Phoebe said.
"You can call is Rho and Sai, if you want. We won't make you use our titles."
"You seem a lot more... chill than the Elders in our galaxy," Penny noted.
"Yes. We haven't had much to do, really. Most of us waste away in drug-induced euphoria or implants that do the same."
"That's sad," Edu'frec said.
"Perhaps it is. It is said that their throats are dry as bones from all the laughing they do. But anyway. We will stop acting senile. Rho and I are here to see whether your Alliance is worthy of our attention, after so long in isolation."
"Why?"
"The psychic pulse. It has reached us, and made a number of people very concerned. But upon seeing you, we have decided to ignore that. Given that Equisa's been able to find love among your kind, you are clearly not as hostile to Sprilnav as we were led to believe. For the right price, perhaps a deal can be worked out."
"What deal?"
"Exports, specifically. We'd like some of your food and cultural works."
"The originals?"
"Copies will suffice," Rho said.
"You came all the way here to ask for art and act like this?" Penny asked.
"Yes. And to see if Equisa's father would win his bet. He did."
"So you want to do something fun, huh?" Phoebe asked. "Want to hear about the hard light simulators?"
"We have those where we're from," Sai replied.
"Not like we do," Phoebe grinned. "I'll get you two tickets to the Infinite Skiing Hill, if you want. Think of it as compensation for my earlier actions."
"I would very much like to see this, and to see Rho fail," Sai smirked. "But what is skiing?"
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2023.03.29 04:33 joshhaynes1234 [IIL] I can’t tell (love my money) - Montell Fish

Just came across this unreleased but teased song by Montell Fish. Loving the bass and the vibes of the song. It’s giving late nights in New York City heading to the after party for me. Oddly specific but I imagine many of you will also love this song! Would love some recs. don’t even know what to call this genre 🙏
Montell Fish- i cant tell (love my money)
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2023.03.29 04:32 TheRealMSol Why, God? What’s the point!?

I guess it’s because I’ve been a terrible person. But it seems to me I see terrible people doing terrible things all the time, and they get rewarded for it. No, I didn’t know how to handle the spiraling alcoholism, and yes, I did things I regret and hate myself for. So for that I get a life sentence??
I watched the woman I married spiral into severe alcoholism that was tearing my home apart. I yelled, I ignored, I strayed, I detached… because I didn’t know what to do. Finally, she got help. I had a “second chance” dangled in front of me. She got clean, she seemed like her old self. I drove her to outpatient meetings 2-3x a week. I found out she’d been cheating on me the whole time. When I confronted her, she doubled down, said she was in love and not with me. She wouldn’t break it off. Saw the texts calling me “fatso” and twisting my parenting to paint me as some jerk (if I let my kid stay up a bit to watch part of a game with me, I was “keeping her up past bedtime because I was too lazy watching sports”). She relapsed. I gave up, filed for divorce. I got the kid, the house, the dog. She gets a little money. Fair trade.
But I’m left with the indignity of being cheated on, being the fifth wheel at social events, arriving alone to parties, no one to leave with or recap the night. No one to relive memories with. The last 10 years of my life, all the good memories that managed to outweigh the bad, are forever tainted. I’m the “divorced guy.” My ex is a punchline among family and friends. They think it helps. They say I’m better off. I should celebrate. I don’t feel like popping champagne, ok? My life is irrevocably tainted, 25% of it has been a lie. I’m now middle aged, a full time single parent, and alone. Not if that is going to change except for the part where I go from older to just old.
I tried dating. I met a woman. Fellow single parent. Absolutely stunning. We had a lot in common. Great chemistry. Good conversation, good in bed. Two months I thought, wow lucky me. Then, poof, she was done. No sign, no warning. Just “wasn’t ready for a committed relationship.” Ghosted me after so probably just some excuse.
Six months ago I met another woman. The first time I saw her I stopped dead in my tracks. Her eyes. Something about her eyes. Our relationship was professional, not through OLD or anything like that. And then we got to talking. We have everything in common! We’re so compatible it’s scary. Everything about her just seems like everything I’d always looked for. I know you shouldn’t idealize someone, but she’s as close to ideal as anyone I’ve met in a long long time. I should ask her out, no? No, she’s married. Officially “engaged” but told a few close friends (me included) that they went to city hall and just didn’t want the fuss. Family doesn’t know just yet. We text all the time. Play online word games, talk business, talk daily life. She’s probably the closest thing to a healthy relationship I’ve ever had. And she’s off limits. Never mind though, but I’m sure she wouldn’t be interested and would friend zone me in a heartbeat, secret husband or not.
Why would God, or the universe, or whatever, do that? Why do I deserve this? To have everything ripped away, and then have “what could’ve been” dangled in front of me, just to torment me further. What’s the point of that? Why is there nothing for me but sadness and unfulfilled possibilities? Knowing I won’t meet someone else like this? Knowing I won’t have anyone to share the golden years and look back with? Knowing my life is basically a slow crawl towards a lonely, bitter end? What the fuck???
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2023.03.29 04:32 TheRealMSol What’s the point, God!?

I guess it’s because I’ve been a terrible person. But it seems to me I see terrible people doing terrible things all the time, and they get rewarded for it. No, I didn’t know how to handle the spiraling alcoholism, and yes, I did things I regret and hate myself for. So for that I get a life sentence??
I watched the woman I married spiral into severe alcoholism that was tearing my home apart. I yelled, I ignored, I strayed, I detached… because I didn’t know what to do. Finally, she got help. I had a “second chance” dangled in front of me. She got clean, she seemed like her old self. I drove her to outpatient meetings 2-3x a week. I found out she’d been cheating on me the whole time. When I confronted her, she doubled down, said she was in love and not with me. She wouldn’t break it off. Saw the texts calling me “fatso” and twisting my parenting to paint me as some jerk (if I let my kid stay up a bit to watch part of a game with me, I was “keeping her up past bedtime because I was too lazy watching sports”). She relapsed. I gave up, filed for divorce. I got the kid, the house, the dog. She gets a little money. Fair trade.
But I’m left with the indignity of being cheated on, being the fifth wheel at social events, arriving alone to parties, no one to leave with or recap the night. No one to relive memories with. The last 10 years of my life, all the good memories that managed to outweigh the bad, are forever tainted. I’m the “divorced guy.” My ex is a punchline among family and friends. They think it helps. They say I’m better off. I should celebrate. I don’t feel like popping champagne, ok? My life is irrevocably tainted, 25% of it has been a lie. I’m now middle aged, a full time single parent, and alone. Not if that is going to change except for the part where I go from older to just old.
I tried dating. I met a woman. Fellow single parent. Absolutely stunning. We had a lot in common. Great chemistry. Good conversation, good in bed. Two months I thought, wow lucky me. Then, poof, she was done. No sign, no warning. Just “wasn’t ready for a committed relationship.” Ghosted me after so probably just some excuse.
Six months ago I met another woman. The first time I saw her I stopped dead in my tracks. Her eyes. Something about her eyes. Our relationship was professional, not through OLD or anything like that. And then we got to talking. We have everything in common! We’re so compatible it’s scary. Everything about her just seems like everything I’d always looked for. I know you shouldn’t idealize someone, but she’s as close to ideal as anyone I’ve met in a long long time. I should ask her out, no? No, she’s married. Officially “engaged” but told a few close friends (me included) that they went to city hall and just didn’t want the fuss. Family doesn’t know just yet. We text all the time. Play online word games, talk business, talk daily life. She’s probably the closest thing to a healthy relationship I’ve ever had. And she’s off limits. Never mind though, but I’m sure she wouldn’t be interested and would friend zone me in a heartbeat, secret husband or not.
Why would God, or the universe, or whatever, do that? Why do I deserve this? To have everything ripped away, and then have “what could’ve been” dangled in front of me, just to torment me further. What’s the point of that? Why is there nothing for me but sadness and unfulfilled possibilities? Knowing I won’t meet someone else like this? Knowing I won’t have anyone to share the golden years and look back with? Knowing my life is basically a slow crawl towards a lonely, bitter end? What the fuck???
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2023.03.29 04:32 Dinosaurfacepants I can only truly connect to other people after drinking. Can I change this?

To get it out in advance, I have a wife and kid. I can connect with them fine. Everyone else though, I keep at maximum arm's length. However, later at night, when the wife and kid are asleep, I may have several drinks, listen to music at which I undergo a change. At that point I truly feel like I get it. I feel like I connect with other people. Or at least understand other people's pain, longing, etc. I only connect with other people's longing. Never with their happiness, joy. Just to give more background, I am not an unhappy person. I am a 'fine' person. I am always 'ok.' No more, no less. I am currently in therapy, focusing mostly on my childhood. I definitely experienced what most would call physical and emotional abuse as a child. My therapist characterizes my parents as "reactive," which is amazingly true.
When I drink, I crave that connection to others. During the rest of my life, I don't. It's not necessarily that I don't trust other people, it's that I can't rely on them, if that truly is a distinction. I tell myself it doesn't matter. I am married, I have a child. That is enough, I can function in the world, in my own way. There is a part of me though, that tells me there is more. I should feel connected to my brothers. I should feel connected to my mom. I should feel connected to my dad. I don't, I know that is OK. I don't have to... but I still should, to some degree. When I was a kid. I remember crying in my room as my mom cried, my dad raged, and my brothers rebelled. I can understand if it were anyone's family but my own. If it were a book, I'd feel empathy for the brothers, the mom, the dad. But, I don't. I remember crying, saying to myself "Fuck them, I am better than them. I don't need them."
That took. Like some sort of spell that I cast. Not literally obviously. But also, yeah. I ask myself, what do I want? Do I want to feel connected to my family life I was? When would that even have been? When was I disconnected? Was it the first time my father hit me? I don't even know when that was. 8, 9, 10? Later? I don't know. My memory of my childhood is hit or miss. Two twin beds pushed together while a train horn calls in the distance - my own twin bed, in my own room. in a different city. Faces in the wood grain of my door, shadows against the wall. It could be days apart, years apart, for all I know.
I just let it be, It is my past. I don't remember details. But I know it isn't most people's experience. I know some have it worse. But I can't remember the details of how I had it. I know there is a longing that may be unrelated. I just know that I want better. And I am sad for those like me, and god forbid those that has it worse. At those times, I get it. (I can't truly get it for those with a normal childhood... i don't resent them, i just can't identify with them.)
Anyway, sorry for all this. Just to be clear, i am fine where I am. I survive. I make my son's life better than mine, I'm not perfect, but I think I am better. I hope I am better. I wish I could feel this 100% of the time though. I wish I could feel this way about everyone. The world could be so much better. Why can't truly connect to everyone else?
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2023.03.29 04:31 DailyHoroscopeIndia Todays Horoscope! (29th of March, 2023)✨

♈️ Aries: Today is a day of mixed emotions for Aries. Those in relationships may not feel as free-spirited as single Aries signs, as there are many things that may be bothering them. Financially, they may experience some ups and downs, with money coming in but not in the amount they had hoped for. To stay healthy, Aries should consider doing at-home workouts, such as those found on DVD’s or special channels. For a bit of fun, Aries should try throwing a dart at a map and going wherever it lands. The numbers 28 and 37 will bring good luck, but those living in big cities should be careful with their wallets. Finally, Aries should take the day to relax and not worry too much, as they are likely overstressed and overworked.
♉️ Taurus: Today is a day of reflection and understanding for taurus. Your beloved other half may need some time alone, so respect that. Single signs will have a fun time with someone they care about deeply. Financially, you may experience some loss, so it's a good idea to open a savings account if you don't already have one. Health wise, you are doing great, so channel any negative energy into an intense workout. If you have friends in foreign countries, today is the perfect day to plan a visit or trip to see them. The color red will have calming and healing power over you today, and Jupiter is protecting you. Emotionally, you are a gentle person who needs attention, but don't be too attention hungry today.
♊️ Gemini: Today is a day of reflection and contemplation for Gemini. Venus will bring passionate and loving energy, but it may not be enough to make a difference in your personal life. Financially, you are stable, so it is a good time to open a savings account. Health wise, you are doing great and taking care of yourself. Traveling can be a great way to relax, but if you go alone, you may feel lonely. Investing is not recommended today, but your intuition will be strong and reliable.
♋️ Cancer: Today is a day of balance and responsibility. Single Cancers will feel the energy of Venus more than taken signs, but it's important to remember that short-term relationships are not your style. Professionally, it's important to be smart with your money and not flaunt it around. Health-wise, you should be feeling good, but if you experience any headaches, try drinking a liter of water before taking medication. If you're traveling by car, be extra careful in traffic and don't stress yourself out. Jupiter is sending you some good luck, but be aware of the strange vibes in the air. Emotionally, you are a spiritual person, but today is a day to show everyone who you truly are and what you're made of.
♌️ Leo: Today is a day for romance and grand gestures. If your job involves being artistic, you will find inspiration everywhere. However, be careful with your health as you may be prone to getting sick. To help with this, take a trip into nature to relax and find serenity. Financially, luck will be on your side, so why not buy a lottery ticket and see what happens? Finally, you are very sensitive and in tune with your emotions and needs, which is a great thing.
♍️ Virgo: Today is a day of passion and romance for Virgo. If you are in a relationship, take your partner on a surprise trip and make sure it is romantic. Single Virgos should be on the lookout for a naughty Leo. Professionally, you may have made a mistake that someone finds out about, but don't worry as you are great at solving problems. Health-wise, make sure to work out more this month to get in shape and improve your health. If you are in a relationship, go on a romantic trip together to feel close to your partner. Luck is on your side today, but be careful not to gamble with large sums of money. Finally, if you have had a problem with addiction in the past, seek help right away as your weak spot will be very visible today.
♎️ Libra: Today is a day to take care of your relationships and show your creative side. If you are single, you will feel good about it. If you are looking for a job, today is your lucky day, especially if it involves creativity. Health-wise, you need to be careful as you are prone to diseases. Traveling will be eye-opening and you will learn about new cultures and traditions. Financially, it is best to save money as luck won't be on your side. Emotionally, you are doing great and you might feel nostalgic. Don't let it haunt you.
♏️ Scorpio: Today is a day of mixed emotions for Scorpio. In your personal life, you may receive a mysterious text from someone you know only through social networks. Those in relationships may experience a minor fall out with their partner. Professionally, those who have been employed for over five years may have a monotonous day at work, but this won't bother you. Health wise, you are feeling okay but could be feeling better. Traveling is not recommended if you are feeling like you are about to get sick, so take care of yourself first. Jupiter is making sure that you have a lot of luck, and people will be jealous of what you experience today. Emotionally, you are feeling good but there is a cloud of sadness due to the bad vibes Neptune is sending your way.
♐️ Sagittarius: Today is a day of romance and emotion for you, Sagittarius. If you are in a relationship, take your partner on a little holiday to deepen your connection. Single signs should be on the lookout for a Leo today. Professionally, you are doing well but you should look for other ways to make some extra money. Health-wise, be careful as you are more susceptible to the powers of Pluto. Traveling with your partner is a great way to strengthen your bond. When it comes to luck, it's best to avoid investing or buying real estate today. Lastly, if you are feeling overwhelmed by your emotions, don't hesitate to seek help from a therapist.
♑️ Capricorn: Today is a day for you to show your selfless and loving nature. You should be proud of what you do and take the time to socialize with your co-workers, but avoid Virgo signs. Be careful with your eyes and ears, and if possible, schedule an appointment. If you have a long commute to work, be prepared for delays due to traffic accidents or construction work. You may experience some minor luck when it comes to money, but don’t loan money to friends or family members today. Don’t be disappointed if something doesn’t go the way that you planned, just keep on going and be your beautiful and curious self.
♒️ Aquarius: Today is not the day to rush into any relationships, so take the time to spend it with good friends. You may receive an interesting call or email related to your work, so keep pushing yourself but don’t overdo it. Health wise, you should be fine, but you may have some difficulty falling asleep. If you are planning a trip, make sure to keep track of what’s going on in that country and write down any events or places you’d like to visit. With Jupiter sending you good energy and the Moon pushing you forwards, you will have a lucky day. To top it off, be a little selfless and buy a surprise gift for someone close to you.
♓️ Pisces: Today is a day of positive energy and luck for you, Pisces. In your personal life, Venus is sending you powerful energy, so talk to your partner openly and honestly and you will be pleasantly surprised by the reaction. Professionally, you have a knack for working the system to your advantage, so use that to your advantage today. Health-wise, try to cut down on junk food and drink more water and tea. If you're feeling good, take a little trip with your friends. Financially, you will experience some minor luck, and the number 10 will have special meaning for you. Emotionally, you will feel mischievous and willing to try anything out, so make the most of it!
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2023.03.29 04:31 TheRealMSol What’s the point, God??

I guess it’s because I’ve been a terrible person. But it seems to me I see terrible people doing terrible things all the time, and they get rewarded for it. No, I didn’t know how to handle the spiraling alcoholism, and yes, I did things I regret and hate myself for. So for that I get a life sentence??
I watched the woman I married spiral into severe alcoholism that was tearing my home apart. I yelled, I ignored, I strayed, I detached… because I didn’t know what to do. Finally, she got help. I had a “second chance” dangled in front of me. She got clean, she seemed like her old self. I drove her to outpatient meetings 2-3x a week. I found out she’d been cheating on me the whole time. When I confronted her, she doubled down, said she was in love and not with me. She wouldn’t break it off. Saw the texts calling me “fatso” and twisting my parenting to paint me as some jerk (if I let my kid stay up a bit to watch part of a game with me, I was “keeping her up past bedtime because I was too lazy watching sports”). She relapsed. I gave up, filed for divorce. I got the kid, the house, the dog. She gets a little money. Fair trade.
But I’m left with the indignity of being cheated on, being the fifth wheel at social events, arriving alone to parties, no one to leave with or recap the night. No one to relive memories with. The last 10 years of my life, all the good memories that managed to outweigh the bad, are forever tainted. I’m the “divorced guy.” My ex is a punchline among family and friends. They think it helps. They say I’m better off. I should celebrate. I don’t feel like popping champagne, ok? My life is irrevocably tainted, 25% of it has been a lie. I’m now middle aged, a full time single parent, and alone. Not if that is going to change except for the part where I go from older to just old.
I tried dating. I met a woman. Fellow single parent. Absolutely stunning. We had a lot in common. Great chemistry. Good conversation, good in bed. Two months I thought, wow lucky me. Then, poof, she was done. No sign, no warning. Just “wasn’t ready for a committed relationship.” Ghosted me after so probably just some excuse.
Six months ago I met another woman. The first time I saw her I stopped dead in my tracks. Her eyes. Something about her eyes. Our relationship was professional, not through OLD or anything like that. And then we got to talking. We have everything in common! We’re so compatible it’s scary. Everything about her just seems like everything I’d always looked for. I know you shouldn’t idealize someone, but she’s as close to ideal as anyone I’ve met in a long long time. I should ask her out, no? No, she’s married. Officially “engaged” but told a few close friends (me included) that they went to city hall and just didn’t want the fuss. Family doesn’t know just yet. We text all the time. Play online word games, talk business, talk daily life. She’s probably the closest thing to a healthy relationship I’ve ever had. And she’s off limits. Never mind though, but I’m sure she wouldn’t be interested and would friend zone me in a heartbeat, secret husband or not.
Why would God, or the universe, or whatever, do that? Why do I deserve this? To have everything ripped away, and then have “what could’ve been” dangled in front of me, just to torment me further. What’s the point of that? Why is there nothing for me but sadness and unfulfilled possibilities? Knowing I won’t meet someone else like this? Knowing I won’t have anyone to share the golden years and look back with? Knowing my life is basically a slow crawl towards a lonely, bitter end? What the fuck???
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2023.03.29 04:30 nba_gdt_bot Post Game Thread: The Charlotte Hornets defeat The Oklahoma City Thunder 137-134

Charlotte Hornets at Oklahoma City Thunder

Paycom Center- Oklahoma City, OK
ESPN
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Time Clock
Final
Q1 Q2 Q3 Q4 Total
CHA 26 31 36 44 137
OKC 23 45 31 35 134

Player Stats

Charlotte Hornets
Player MINS PTS FGM-A 3PM-A FTM-A ORB DRB REB AST STL BLK TO PF +/-
B. McGowens 23:54 11 4-9 3-6 0-2 0 2 2 2 2 0 2 3 -10
P. Washington 37:27 43 16-24 5-9 6-7 2 4 6 5 1 0 2 5 7
N. Richards 26:13 14 6-9 0-0 2-4 4 7 11 0 0 0 1 4 -14
S. Mykhailiuk 36:36 18 6-13 2-5 4-6 2 3 5 8 3 2 0 2 7
T. Maledon 38:30 19 7-15 2-5 3-4 1 3 4 9 0 4 5 4 13
J. Bouknight 19:08 6 2-8 1-5 1-2 1 3 4 5 0 0 2 4 -8
J. Thor 36:25 14 6-11 1-5 1-2 2 4 6 4 0 1 3 2 3
K. Jones 21:47 12 5-5 0-0 2-3 3 11 14 1 0 0 3 0 17
Oklahoma City Thunder
Player MINS PTS FGM-A 3PM-A FTM-A ORB DRB REB AST STL BLK TO PF +/-
L. Dort 32:34 16 4-10 1-4 7-8 1 6 7 2 1 0 1 5 5
J. Williams 33:31 31 11-16 1-2 8-9 1 2 3 4 4 0 1 4 9
J. Williams 18:13 3 1-4 0-2 1-1 1 5 6 4 0 0 0 2 0
I. Joe 31:44 33 11-18 6-11 5-7 1 1 2 1 0 0 1 0 6
J. Giddey 34:17 31 14-22 1-3 2-4 0 10 10 9 0 1 5 0 0
A. Wiggins 12:11 2 1-3 0-1 0-0 1 1 2 0 1 0 1 0 5
J. Robinson-Earl 26:37 7 3-8 1-3 0-0 2 3 5 2 2 0 1 4 -1
O. Dieng 12:53 0 0-1 0-1 0-0 0 2 2 0 0 0 0 1 1
T. Mann 17:34 7 3-7 1-1 0-0 0 2 2 2 2 0 0 4 -12
A. Pokusevski 9:58 0 0-2 0-1 0-0 0 0 0 1 0 2 1 0 -5
J. Butler 7:21 4 2-4 0-1 0-0 0 0 0 0 1 0 0 1 -13
D. Saric 3:05 0 0-1 0-0 0-0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 -10

Team Stats

Team FGM-A 3PM-A FTM-A AST PF STL TO BLK OREB DREB REB
CHA 52-94 14-35 19-30 34 24 6 18 7 15 37 58
OKC 50-96 11-30 23-29 25 21 11 11 3 7 32 47
Note: This data is only as accurate as NBA.com
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2023.03.29 04:30 StepwiseUndrape574 GTA 6 teaser posted online, is swiftly deleted

50 Cent: What are you up to, my man? The entirety of the Grand Theft Auto fanbase is waiting on tenterhooks. We surely cannot be too far away from the long-awaited reveal of GTA VI. Honestly, every time I get a Twitter notification from Rockstar Games, my heart skips a beat and now, 50 Cent is playing with our emotions.
Last week, 50 Cent dropped what appeared to be a major GTA VI teaser. He posted a Vice City logo, captioning it, “I will explain this later. GreenLightGang, this s**t bigger than POWER, trust me. BOOM.” Dr Dre starred in GTA Online’s ‘The Contract’ DLC so many have speculated that 50 Cent could be lending his likeness to a GTA VI character. Well now, the plot thickens because the rapper has dropped yet another tease - deleting it swiftly after. Very suspicious.
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As spotted by Reddit user worldlovespain, after posting a second reference to GTA, 50 Cent deleted both posts from his social media accounts. The second tease featured a photo of a Vice City neon sign from shopping site AliExpress. Due to the deletion of both posts, many are assuming that the rapper may have broken an NDA he had with Rockstar Games.
As previously mentioned, 50 Cent could be teasing a GTA VI collaboration but what’s perhaps more likely is that he’s working on a GTA-inspired show, focusing on Vice City by the looks of it. In the original tease, 50 Cent included the TV emoji. He also said, ‘This s**t bigger than POWER.” Well Power is a crime drama series that aired from 2014 to 2020 that, you guessed it, starred 50 Cent. The rapper also helped create the series.
Big budget game adaptations are all the rage right now. You need look no further than HBO’s The Last of Us. I’m surprised GTA is yet to get the adaptation treatment given the immense love for the franchise. For now, take all of this with a pinch of salt until anything is confirmed but 50 cent is undoubtedly up to something.
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2023.03.29 04:30 TheRealMSol What is the point, God???

I guess it’s because I’ve been a terrible person. But it seems to me I see terrible people doing terrible things all the time, and they get rewarded for it. No, I didn’t know how to handle the spiraling alcoholism, and yes, I did things I regret and hate myself for. So for that I get a life sentence??
I watched the woman I married spiral into severe alcoholism that was tearing my home apart. I yelled, I ignored, I strayed, I detached… because I didn’t know what to do. Finally, she got help. I had a “second chance” dangled in front of me. She got clean, she seemed like her old self. I drove her to outpatient meetings 2-3x a week. I found out she’d been cheating on me the whole time. When I confronted her, she doubled down, said she was in love and not with me. She wouldn’t break it off. Saw the texts calling me “fatso” and twisting my parenting to paint me as some jerk (if I let my kid stay up a bit to watch part of a game with me, I was “keeping her up past bedtime because I was too lazy watching sports”). She relapsed. I gave up, filed for divorce. I got the kid, the house, the dog. She gets a little money. Fair trade.
But I’m left with the indignity of being cheated on, being the fifth wheel at social events, arriving alone to parties, no one to leave with or recap the night. No one to relive memories with. The last 10 years of my life, all the good memories that managed to outweigh the bad, are forever tainted. I’m the “divorced guy.” My ex is a punchline among family and friends. They think it helps. They say I’m better off. I should celebrate. I don’t feel like popping champagne, ok? My life is irrevocably tainted, 25% of it has been a lie. I’m now middle aged, a full time single parent, and alone. Not if that is going to change except for the part where I go from older to just old.
I tried dating. I met a woman. Fellow single parent. Absolutely stunning. We had a lot in common. Great chemistry. Good conversation, good in bed. Two months I thought, wow lucky me. Then, poof, she was done. No sign, no warning. Just “wasn’t ready for a committed relationship.” Ghosted me after so probably just some excuse.
Six months ago I met another woman. The first time I saw her I stopped dead in my tracks. Her eyes. Something about her eyes. Our relationship was professional, not through OLD or anything like that. And then we got to talking. We have everything in common! We’re so compatible it’s scary. Everything about her just seems like everything I’d always looked for. I know you shouldn’t idealize someone, but she’s as close to ideal as anyone I’ve met in a long long time. I should ask her out, no? No, she’s married. Officially “engaged” but told a few close friends (me included) that they went to city hall and just didn’t want the fuss. Family doesn’t know just yet. We text all the time. Play online word games, talk business, talk daily life. She’s probably the closest thing to a healthy relationship I’ve ever had. And she’s off limits. Never mind though, but I’m sure she wouldn’t be interested and would friend zone me in a heartbeat, secret husband or not.
Why would God, or the universe, or whatever, do that? Why do I deserve this? To have everything ripped away, and then have “what could’ve been” dangled in front of me, just to torment me further. What’s the point of that? Why is there nothing for me but sadness and unfulfilled possibilities? Knowing I won’t meet someone else like this? Knowing I won’t have anyone to share the golden years and look back with? Knowing my life is basically a slow crawl towards a lonely, bitter end? What the fuck???
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