I’m just looking for input. I know this may be a shot in the wind, but figured I’d ask here.
I’m looking for company paid CDL training that offers regional dedicated lanes that gets you decent hometime. I know a lot of people jump on the OTR wagon the first few years then go on to ‘greener pastures’. Just seeing if there is a way around that. Going to the same place(s) over and over sounds like the kinda of consistency I yearn for and need starting a new career. So I can spend less time worrying about my route and more time gaining information and safety skills coming into this rather intimidating career.
I know I’m kind of nitpicking around with this question, and it may not be possible to accomplish but I figured I’d ask.
I know I had these types of opportunities available to me when I was going to go to a paid out-of-pocket CDL School. I applied for the WorkForce grant here in Indiana and was approved for it, but it cover less then half of the school costs(tuition and fees) and I didn’t then nor do I now have an extra $3-4,000 spare laying around to use. Had a situation set up to barrow about $1500 off a family member to pay for food, hotel, and test fees, permit fees, state test, etc if the grant would have cover the full tuition. But couldn’t swing it unfortunately. I’m dirt poor, but very eager to learn!
You guys have any suggestions for me, options, information, or insight?

This piece recounts the first time I drank an ancient plant medicine called Ayahuasca. It comes from Amazonian tribes who consider it a sacred plant medicine with healing powers and, given what a hugely beneficial impact it has had on my life, I am very comfortable describing it as medicine.
One Saturday, in the spring of 2016 I was greeted by the medicine man himself with a big hug, let’s call him Blu. I came into his kitchen to be greeted by several women with slightly comical homemade, feather headdresses and couldn’t help but think I’d walked into a kid’s birthday party. In the garden, there was a small festival tent set up which had a hay bale altar with easter decorations.
The ceremony had around 30 other participants and 10 shamans. In the middle of the tent stood the medicine man’s wife, Sun who was very much the master of the ceremony. She had the most daring headdress, flowing orange robes and a rattle in her hand. She spoke to us with warm, friendly humour telling us that we would know the medicine had kicked in once her singing started to sound good!
She advised that each experience is unique and we should try not to have huge expectations, sometimes nothing at all happens the first time. Having waited five years for this day I was quietly confident that this would not be the case for me and boy was I right!
We went around the circle introducing ourselves and explained what we were hoping to get out of the ceremony. Focusing on your intent during a psychedelic experience is meant to help you get what you are looking for.
During my turn, I expressed my desire to regain my self-confidence and passion for the opportunities and women in my life to whom I never seem to be able to fully commit.
Once we had all shared, we learned that it was time to drink.
My heart was filled with profound forbearing and excitement as I went up to receive a small glass of harsh-tasting, brown liquid which certainly tasted like medicine!
I had a basic camping mattress and a duvet laid out for me which I snuggled into before pulling on my eye mask. I was on my back trying not to think too much about the medicine, whether it was working or maybe wouldn’t work while I meditated for an hour.
The shamans started singing and shaking rattles. One of the female shamans, Nubia had an incredibly beautiful soprano voice that stood out from the others. It was while listening to the song of the shamans that I started to feel a warm flow of energy along my limbs. I tried to dismiss it at first, thinking it might somehow be related to my fasting for 40 hours prior.
When I moved my eye mask to let some light into my eyes I saw the tent roof overlaid with a flowing grid of beautiful, metallic, geometric grids with multi-coloured light flowing through the lines. The Individual elements of the grid reflected every colour of the rainbow like oil on water’s surface and I started to feel joyful, like a child rolling through leaves on a warm autumn day.
Nubia started singing to us again and it was like nothing I’d ever heard. It was so beautiful and mesmerizing I didn’t want her to stop.
I could hear the people around me, some giggling and some vomiting or, purging medicine into their buckets. I checked myself, asking if should I purge but I felt a gentle presence speak inside of me saying: ‘No, you’re fine. Just relax.’

They call this presence Mother Ayahuasca. The reason people drink the brew is to speak with and receive her guidance.

My eye mask was back on my face and I turned into the fetal position with the duvet pulled over my head I felt exceptionally comfy with this strange yet familiar presence as I started to explore the un-intimidating hallucinogenic world within my mind. She showed me complex pictures of flowing energy with multicoloured lights in perfect alignment while I was gently gliding along, watching the beautiful colourful spectacle.
It was around this time that Sun asked into the ceremony if anybody would like a second dose. I slowly sat upright and looked around. I checked myself. Truthfully, I was enjoying the experience. I was slightly nervous that having more could take me to a deeper, darker place however I had mentally prepared myself for the full immersion experience.
The presence told me: ‘It’s okay. You can handle it. I’ll be gentle.’
So I pulled on my shoes, got up and slowly walked over feeling slightly wobbly. I was worried Sun might tell me I’d had enough but when I sat in front of her, she gave me a big smile and beckoned me towards her. The second dose was about half the previous one and tasted familiar, not quite as harsh.
After I got up I walked out of the tent into the house. Sitting in the small toilet I saw the walls gently rippling with energy and recognized the phenomenon from previous psychedelic experiences. I’ve experienced mild, LSD-induced hallucinations before but nothing quite as mesmerizing as watching bright sparks of colorful energy emerging from objects and pictures.
Snuggling back under my duvet I listened to the rattles and felt myself floating deeper into the kaleidoscopic universe seeing my own body curled up but instead of my skin and flesh, I saw myself as streaming veins of energy. Millions of thin fibre optic threads pulsated with warm healing energy which outlined my body.
I felt myself lying on the floor in the jungle with mystical symbols and ineffable tribal figures around me. I felt like I was in a different, timeless dimension however I was surprisingly lucid and could snap out of it to check myself with ease. At some point I had to giggle as my boring pragmatist made the smart-ass remark, ‘You’re not lying in the jungle. You’re in a garden less than 100 meters from the Thames estuary!’
I had my eyes closed for most of the afternoon. I was seeing ever richer patterns. When I opened my eyes the patterns were still there but they were overlaid on the reality in front of my eyes. I could change them with the blink of an eye or bring back shapes I had seen previously.
I started thanking this entity for showing me all this beauty and felt the urge to reciprocate. I revealed some personal memories but they looked so very different. It seemed like they had a photo filter applied that filled the memory with golden light as they came alive with breathtaking beauty, streaming with colourful energy. I visited various life moments and it felt like entering into a photo and suddenly being there on that day!
I was there sitting in our garden at home. Once again I was a chubby baby covering my face with baked beans. I was actually there! I was picking the baked beans off my face and pushing them, one by one into my mouth.
They say that Mother Ayahuasca is a deep ancient spirit and I always imagined her as a deeply serious, majestic queen. I started wondering what she might look like… and so she appeared.
She was stern but not an old woman. Aya was young, perfectly matched to my age and exceptionally beautiful. She had long, smooth brown hair and big beautiful eyes filled with power and inspiration. As I looked closer at her exquisite face I realized that her features were constantly changing complexion. Her skin cycled from Amazonian to Latin to Nubian to Oriental and Mediterranean. She was outlined by swirling rainbow-coloured curls of light. The rest of her naked body only came into being when I directly looked at it. I realize that she was not one woman but a combination of every beautiful woman I’ve ever felt attracted to. I wanted her. She wanted me. We kissed and whirled around as we floated through my Entheoverse. My body of swirling rainbow energy flowed into her and hers into mine and this is how we made love passionately.
I had visions of us being on a summer weekend getaway in a stylish city. We lay in luxurious hotel rooms and I remember a cream-coloured clock on the wall, with Roman numerals but no hands to tell the time. I was dressed smartly as I led her by her hand into classy restaurants that had champagne poured, waiting by our table. It was like we were on a never-ending date, teleporting from one experience into the next, eloping while taking our time to enjoy each other’s energy, and passionately loving one another.
Afterwards, she lay in my arms and I asked what else she could show me and she replied; ‘What else would you like me to show you?’ I wasn’t prepared for this and my mind went a bit blank realizing that I could do anything, go anywhere in space and time I wanted.
I asked her; ‘Can you help me find my confidence?’
There was no clear answer. Instead, I had the random idea to become the temple stem of my friend Julio’s glasses. I looked at him from the bit next to the hinge and I could see him put the glasses on in the morning, and take them off at night and in the reflection of his right eye, I saw him coming home and watched his beautiful daughter jumping into his arms. Then I saw on his eyeball the reflection of me walking into the room and a felt warm glow spread through me.
Next, I visited my baby nephew sitting in my brother’s living room, in his red chair. I crossed my hands on my chest like he does and saw my brother and his wife smiling at me giving me warm hugs but more than seeing their faces while they hugged my body I could feel the way they felt when they put their arms around me and press me to their chests.
I saw all my brother’s smiles and happy faces as we jollied about, trying to make each other laugh as we do. I visited all my closest friends, took in their smiles and one by one, as I hugged each of them, I could feel their love for me.

Later I realized that Aya was indeed trying to give me confidence by showing me how much the people in my life care for me

I visited the girl I had just started dating called Anna whose raw energy I find simply irresistible. I came into her new apartment that I’d never visited before. She was standing in sexy lingerie by a floor-to-ceiling window looking down onto the busy Tottenham Court road. I remember her turning her beautiful face as I approached, touching it with ten fingers and kissing her lips passionately as we erupted into rainbow swirls of energy.
I also visited my ex-girlfriend Jo, whose body and spiritual mind I still loved but whose soul is too damaged by the fear of rejection and tough mental armour I never managed to vanquish.
She was asleep in our white room in LA that she had so carefully decorated and I spooned my energy into her little body. She woke and we cuddled and kissed and I said I was sorry it didn’t work out between us and she replied; ‘It’s ok. I wasn’t ready for you…’
I asked Aya if we had made the right decision to stop forcing it and just be friends and felt her nod wisely.
At some point, I remember all three of us lying in bed together but instead of feeling like the king of the world, I felt like a greedy pig.
One of the underlying themes of the whole journey was how slowly gently and unhurried everything felt and I think the lesson I was meant to learn was that it’s ok to not settle right now — I thought I just haven’t found the one, the right woman to share my life with…
Aya kept giving me gentle advice throughout. I asked her about the stimulants I love such as cannabis, coffee and alcohol but instead of the stern telling-off I was secretly hoping to receive she told me; ‘You know they don’t serve you when you abuse them but they are also a part of what shaped you… Take care of the beautiful body you have been given.’
She repeated many times; Take care of yourself more… take care.
I asked Aya how I could find the power to harness my mind which has always been blessed and cursed with a distracting imagination and to keep my lack of attention from killing my dreams.
Instantly, I saw an unreal version of myself.
I was standing in something like a black shiny display window, straight out of a Mercedes advert. This guy was not merely a little bit better than I am now and I realized that the version staring back at me was my best self!
That guy is sharp, he is determined, and he dresses immaculately. That guy knows exactly what he is doing. When he enters the room, people notice his presence from the invisible halo that brightly surrounds him.
I asked Aya, how I could become him and the answer became clear. That guy works. He knows exactly where his energy comes from and all of a sudden I understood — The confident image he projects comes from the love he feels for himself which makes him look loved and successful in other people’s eyes. There is no room for distraction because that guy knows his worth and knows his purpose.
She gave me such a clear image of myself. I can still see myself standing motionless in the black, shiny shop window with rainbow-coloured fibre optic strains lighting the air that gently flowed around me.
How long I lay like that is impossible to say but I guess it was around 5–6 hours but it felt like an eternity of journeying into myself.
But it wasn’t all just warm energy and neon colours. I distinctly remember at some point realizing, it was time to go to the toilet. Afterwards, I walked back into the garden and found the Ewok-faced little terrier yapping at me. I laughed at him as I noticed the blue silver and chrome energy swirls around his head and ears. I couched down to see if I could pacify him but I suddenly became aware that his barking must be interfering with other people’s experiences. I turned to hurry into the tent as one of the shamans came out, to tell off the dog saying; ‘What’s wrong doggy, he’s alright!’ As I walked into the tent there were certainly more people sitting upright than when I had left and I read some irritated expressions on people’s faces, at least three people got up and walked out.
I lay down in shame but all my friend’s energy avatars ran up to me saying ‘It’s fine!’ as they doggy piled on top of me. It made me feel better. I felt them warm the cold shame out of me and I began relaxing again. I played around as before but the energy had markedly changed, it didn’t feel as light-hearted anymore. It was heavier and more serious. I was feeling the effects of the medicine becoming even stronger so I decided to sit up but when I opened my eyes, I saw Nubia hit the deck at my feet on a hastily arranged bed after having just purged into a bucket. I could see vomit in her black wavy hair as I started to think, ‘…oh dear if even the shamans are starting to falter, I’m in trouble.’
I didn’t know what to do. I tried to lie back down again. I asked Aya to help me, as she had several times previously when I’d gotten a little bit frightened but this time I could not sense her presence and I knew why. I had to go through this for myself.
It felt like I was sitting in a shopping trolley, rolling down a steep hill toward darkness, realizing as it picked up speed and bucked to and fro that this had been a bad decision, a dangerous idea and the only way it would end would be for the momentum to collide with suffering.
I needed help so I weakly put up my hand and within a few seconds, one of the shamans sat down next to me. She was wearing a white feather dress and occoured to me like an angel. She helped me sit up and as soon as I was sitting upright I began to retch. She passed me my bucket which I gratefully barfed into…
After I purged I felt better. My angel asked me if I felt okay again and I asked her to stay with me and hold my hand for a while longer, which she did. I gently leaned over and rested my head on her feathery bosom and felt a sense of peace and strength flow back into me. I saw my energy self, the swirling electrons of light curling my limbs as I sat cross-legged, hunched over like a bear cub being cradled by his mother bear.
She helped me lie back down and I started to return to my technicoloured dream state. I asked Aya if we could make love again and she said ‘Of course’ but it felt different, when I opened my inner eye to see the face of the person I was entangled with I saw my own. Aya had taken on my form and this might well be the strangest thing I’ve ever written but I was exceptionally attracted to myself and I realized that this could be how girls who are in bed with me see me. I could feel the burning desire a girl feels when we make love. It felt strange but also good.

They said Ayahuasca show you not what you want to see but rather what you need to see at any specific point in your life.

I visited countless friends, some people no longer in my life becouse we have grown apart and even those whose who have passed away. I visited my German grandparents and told them how much I loved them.
While I cuddled Oskar, the dog I grew up with, and played with him in our garden I looked up to see my dad approach us with tears in his eyes. I knew what he was going to say. When he told me that my grandmother had died I didn’t run away in confusion as I had on that day, instead, I went to hug my mom and for the first time, I empathized with the pain she had felt in that moment of hearing that her mother had passed.
I visited my friend Keith whose passing I have always felt a slight responsibility for since I know he read my travel blog and went to Costa Rica a month after I’d been there where he swam out to sea and drowned. I hugged him tightly and cried gently but he grabbed me firmly by the shoulders and said; ‘It wasn’t you! It wasn’t you…’
I visited my old school friend Alex who I had not been close to but whose misfortune to be on flight 447 still touched me. I told him and his beautiful fiance whom I’d never met that I was so sorry for them having been so frightened when they died but instead of me comforting them, they hugged and comforted me as I lay there silently crying for the people I missed. But it was not painful. Quite the opposite, it felt cathartic, like I was letting out the pain and healing myself.
At some point, while it was still light out Sun said “OK, I know that some of you are still on your journey but we will start having some food soon so if you want to share what you experienced now is the time.” I listened to some of the reports.
Several people said that they had a very rough ride because they had tried to fight it. One girl even said she was convinced she was dying. I felt very lucky and grateful for my gentle, warm ride through my multi-coloured Enthenoverse and wondered if I would ever return…
When it was my turn I said that I had finally been able to see how my friends and family see me and why they think I am awesome which will give me the confidence to finally believe that I am awesome (that got a laugh :). I also shared my new appreciation for how profoundly beautiful my life has been up until now and hoped that it will give me the strength to stop comparing myself to others, to focus on my own path and become my best self.

10 weeks later

My life has undeniably changed over the last 10 weeks.
The following day I drove back to my rented shepherd’s hut in a nature reserve and had an exceptionally rich experience walking through the marshes. The sun was shining and everything seemed so intensely beautiful. I was moved just by watching something as simple as a male and a female bird fly across the water in perfect sync. It made me well up emotionally.
I’ve cried a lot recently and I believe it’s a good thing. I cry on most days.
Usually, it happens when I see someone doing something kind and for a brief moment I get overwhelmed and shed a tear. But again, they are not tears of pain they are usually tears of joy and I feel like I have become much more in touch with my emotions.
It feels like bringing Aya’s female spirit into my awareness has tripped a switch in my brain making me more feminine, hence a more complete human being. I’ve also started to care more about my appearance. My mum commented recently that I looked different and she is right. I’ve been working out more. I get my hair cut more frequently and I’ve even gone and bought new clothes that dress me with more style, even when it’s not particularly necessary.
My work attitude has also changed. I find myself a lot more productive and capable of operating at a higher level while enjoying the entire experience so much more!
I honestly feel more in control of my life. I feel focused on who I am, who I can become and what I can achieve. Previously my decisions in life seemed more vague and fuzzy.
Above all, I feel the happiest that I have felt since childhood. The last 10 weeks have been almost like a too-good-to-be-true dream for me.
I’m also positively influencing the people around me. My grandfather wrote me the following sentence after my most recent visit.
You have this mysterious gift of raising the spirits of people both just by being there and by your gift of empathy.

Epilogue

I have indeed had more Ayahuasca ceremonies since I first wrote this and even though there was a 4 year gap between my 4th and my 5th experience I have felt the effect compound over time. I will be publishing more of my trip reports over on medium and would appreciate your supporting me by following me over there where I also publish contant whihc is not just psychedilic in nature. https://medium.com/@hi_niels

Bought a bunch of smart lights before I realized the apartment I moved into has the router on the ceiling, and there's zero ports on it to plug in the Bridge. So great, I have the Bridge and 5 lights. They pair and work fine in the Philips Hue app but I don't want to manually toggle them, I want them to work with the Google Home app.
At one point I got a few lights to work with Google Home, but not a few new ones. So I reset/removed/updated/etc the bulbs and now NONE of them are recognizable in the Google Home app. They're on and clearly paired in the Philips app but no dice when I try to pair it with my Home Assistant. My goal is to get them to work in Google Home but it seems like a nightmare with no support. Is all of this pointless without a Bridge to configure them through? Should I return them and get a different brand? I was told Philips is the best but I'm not sure now.

Hello! This is the first discussion list for Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin.
Chapter one was background. We are introduced to David, our narrator, and his family and first love.
David's mother died when he was 5. His father moved his sister, Aunt Ellen, in to the home and becomes an alcoholic. David recounts some of their fights, but is most affected by one in which he was the topic. Ellen was worried David saw all of his father's behavior. We learn he had not consciously known anything, but his opinion about the two adults in his life changes immediately.
We also learn of Joey, David's best friend and first lover. After their first time, David flees and becomes cold and mean toward Joey, encouraging or encouraged by the new, rough crowd he had begun to spend time with. Joey eventually moves away and David works hard to forget about him.
Chapter two takes us to Paris where we find David being removed from his hotel for owing 6,000 francs. According to this conversation chart, that was under $18 USD at the time, or $195 USD in 2015 (their most recent data).
He begins calling on friends and finally realizes his best bet is with Jacques, a man we later learn has lusted for David, though they have never been together romantically. It seems David has not pursued or been with a man since Joey. He even mentioned "his girl" Hella a few times, who is in Spain.
David and Jacques go to a bar with significantly more men than women, and it is heavily implied it is a gay bar. This is where we first meet Giovanni, a beautiful bartender that Jacques immediately finds attractive.
Giovanni is slow to respond to David and Jacques until Jacques is pulled away. Then Giovanni spends time talking to and teasing David. They speak of the big differences between cultures, French, Italy, and New York. David is easily embarrassed and realizes the rest of the bar likely saw the flirty exchange and have decided he must be lusting for the barman.
These are the broad strokes. Please, tell me your thoughts, ideas, realizations, questions, all of it!

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Hello everybody, Scathus here with a new deck guide. Some background if you’re not familiar with me: I am high elo player and deckbuilder. Some of the previous decks that I have innovated or taken a serious part in innovating include: Sentinel Control, Feel the Minah, Ekko Zilean, Teemo TF Monke, Tristana BW Prize Fight, among others.
Today, I’m bringing you a deck guide for Jax Ornn in eternal. While I was not the deck creator, as the deck has seen play since its buffs a few months ago, I was the first to make an actually functional list this patch. Both I and my teammate infinipatrons have crested over 1000 lp each with the deck, and I think it’s one of the best decks in the game to climb and also to take to the Runeterra Open.
Deck Code: ((CUDACAYBAIAQMAQ4AEDAYCABA4AQSAQGAADBCBAGAECAQCYMAQAQEAIGAEDAMGYBAYABQAIGAELAEAIBAECQCBQBDA))
Runeterra.ar link

The Deck at a Glance

Ornn Jax is a classic big midrange deck that looks to forge a weapon and overwhelm the opponent with efficient stats and keywords. You will usually look to build up a few powerful weapons over the course of the first 4 turns, before putting the pressure on the opponent and looking to end the game with a giant leveled Jax or Ornn. We also have a variety of efficient Frejlord Combat Tricks, which we use to swing the board in our favor.
Remember: the power of the deck lies in the weapons more so than the units. If your opponent spends a ton of resources to kill a 7/6 Jax - guess what? You now have 1 mana 4/3 quick attack overwhelm weapon to put on whatever you want. This makes your deck much more resistant to traditional removal than other big midrange decks.

Card Analysis

• Jax
  • Generally the best card to be in your opening hand. While he’s essentially just a 2 mana 3/2 with quick attack, he has an extremely cheap weapon that is perfect for forging. Try to keep Jax alive at least until he levels so that his weapon gets overwhelm - it makes it much better to transfer to Ornn or a different unit. Jax’s champion spell is extremely strong and you can use it to completely blow out trades, especially if you are playing into a deck that struggles to pop barrier. If you keep Jax alive until the late game, he will become an enormous overwhelm unit that will threaten to end the game by himself.
• Ornn
  • The primary wincon against a lot of decks. A leveled Ornn will almost always end the game on attack immediately - very few decks can survive it. He is also too large for any deck without hard removal to answer, and even if he is killed, he has already doubled your strongest weapon with his play effect, giving you value. Generally speaking, you want to get overwhelm on Ornn - either the fishawack improvise weapon or leveled Jax’s weapon - but any large weapon will do.
  • Don’t forget that you can play Ornn without copying a weapon to take a big weapon from hand - useful if you have the bone club in hand but haven’t yet played it.
  • Try to level Ornn before attacking with him. This is usually done by playing bone club on a 3 attack unit, getting a huge forged weapon, or fish fighting with Ornn after you play him. This is not always possible, of course.
• Weaponmasters (Combat Cook and Innovative Blacksmith)
  • Your other sources of weapons besides Jax. Both are powerful - Blacksmith gives you constant healing while Cook forges his weapon for free. I will discuss improvisation below in its own section to help you figure out what’s best for which circumstance.
• Forge Cards (Weaponsmith’s Apprentice, Favored Artisan, Hearthblood Mender)
  • These cards make your weapons bigger, obviously. Apprentice and Artisan are two useful early units that give your weapons value and can be used as chump blockers later on. Hearthblood Mender is probably a top 10 follower in the game. He has an absolutely insane play effect and good base stats and is therefore a decent choice to put a weapon on.
• Ruthless Raider
  • An odd card out, but I promise that she’s vital to the deck because this card is the best cheap target for a giant weapon. The tough+overwhelm combo means that any large statted weapon will be extremely powerful on her. She is also a good target for the Bone Club.
• Bone Club
  • Big weapon go brr. Use this on Ruthless Raider or leveled Jax to have a big overwhelm unit that guarantees an Ornn level up. However, don’t be afraid to discard it without Parts Made Whole - it’s not playable in every matchup.
• Combat Tricks (Catch!, Troll Chant, Battle Fury)
  • Efficient combat tricks - go out and win combat. With Battle Fury, you do the normal thing: show lethal on the attack and then battle fury an overwhelm unit/unblocked unit for lethal when your opponent taps out of a response. Battle Fury can force games to suddenly end very well.
• Interaction (Entrancing Lure, Fish Fight)
  • Fish Fight is 2 mana slow kill anything in this deck, which is obviously very strong. It is also the only way to get weapons off your units without them dying, which is useful if you want to swap a big overwhelm weapon onto somebody else.
  • Lure is obviously best on a quick attack unit, but can be used to pull any backline unit to its death. If you have, try to develop on your attacking turns to bait your opponent into playing important cards/tapping under a response.
• Parts Made Whole
  • You don’t always have to discard a weapon - discarding a Time and Dedication from Artisan is also fine, along with any other cards that might not be useful. Discarding Jax’s weapon when you have another Jax in hand is also a common play, since he always brings the weapon back on summon.
• Bellows Breath
  • Aka Ornnvalanche. Use this to beat aggro when they overextend or to clear out chump blockers for a strong attack. Remember that it pings twice rather than deals 2, so it doesn’t deal any damage to tough units.

Mulligan

You NEED to find a weapon in this deck. If you don’t draw one of your 9 weaponmasters or bone club by turn 4, you will be extremely sad. Therefore, I would strongly recommend looking for a weapon in mulligan. If you have a weapon, I would then look for early forge cards. Jax+Weaponsmith’s Apprentice is your classic power curve and I would almost always keep those two cards together. I rarely keep combat tricks unless I have Jax and I want to keep him alive. Into some slower matchups where you know you need a strong wincon, it can be okay to keep Ornn (but only if you already have a weapon!).

Improvising

When you play a weaponmaster, you will be presented with a choice of two different random weapons from a pool of eight. One of the hardest things about this deck is picking the correct weapon for the correct circumstances, so I will go through all the different weapons here to help you out as much as possible.

• Fishawack (+2/+0, overwhelm)
  • Good when: you have Ornn in hand, you have a lot of forge in hand
  • Bad when: you already have leveled Jax, oppenent is a spell-based deck rather than unit-based
• Pot o’ Pain (+1/+2, impact)
  • Good when: you need a good blockeunit to trade up with
  • Bad when: you need a more aggressive keyword
• Pan o’ Pain (+2/+0, tough)
  • Good when: this is the best weapon imo. It beats any ping or removal based deck and scales insanely hard with forge.
  • Bad when: another specific option is more compelling under the circumstances
• Shepherd’s Authority (+3/+2, can’t block)
  • Good when: you really need to pressure your opponent who plays few units (Karma, Ryze)
  • Bad when: almost every other instance. I rarely take this weapon because forge renders the stat buff pointless very quickly.
• Combat Reel (+2/+1, refill one spell mana on attack)
  • Good when: you have a lot of combat tricks in hand, you plan to discard the weapon anyway, you don’t really care about keywords
  • Bad when: A more relevant choice is presented to you
• The Fix-Em 5000 (+2/+0, quick attack)
  • Good when: you want to be aggressive, you have entrancing lure in hand
  • Bad when: playing into a removal deck/need a good blocker
• Upcycled Rake (+1/+0, scout)
  • Good when: you have Ornn in hand, you’re okay with throwing away a unit
  • Bad when: you need a blockekeyword
• Sandworn Amulet (+2/+1, Fearsome)
  • Good when: you’re playing into Bandle City or Aggro decks
  • Bad when: You are playing into other midrange or big decks

Matchups

The eternal meta is pretty open, but I will put some of my thoughts and mulligans for the common matchups that I have seen.
As for the specific mulligans, assume that what I say is in addition to the generic mulligan I specified above.

• Timelines (BC) - Very Favored
  • Mull: normal.
  • We were already very favored into this deck before the nerf and will continue to be. Even if they hit early timelines, our units will generally be bigger and higher quality. They have no way to destroy equipments and no way to stop Ornn from killing them.
• Timelines (Jax/Vi) - Very Favored
  • Mull: normal.
  • This is our deck but worse. Not much else to say. Don’t get in burn range and you can’t lose.
• Annie Jhin - Favored
  • Mull: Early units, Innovative Blacksmith, Bellows Breath
  • This used to be a very bad mu but we have so much healing now and a 5 mana boardwipe. If you draw Innovative Blacksmith or Bellows Breath, they basically can’t close the game unless they really pop off with stuns.
  • If you’re going for lethal, try to open attack to play around stuns.
• Poppy Ziggs - Favored
  • Mull: Early units, Innovative Blacksmith, Bellows Breath
  • This is basically the same as Annie Jhin, except they play for units rather than stuns and burn. Just look for healing and board wipes.
• Ezreal Seraphine BC - Favored
  • Mull: Orrn + Weapon
  • Don’t let your weapon be hexbliterated if possible, so always try to keep combat tricks to stay above 6 hp.
  • They can’t deal with Ornn at all.
  • Don’t forget they can kill weapons at fast speed with Puzzling Signposts, so don’t commit too hard to a single weapon if possible.
• Nasus Thresh/Nasus Akshan - Favored
  • Mull: normal, but you can keep Bellows Breath if you have a functional hand.
  • You can easily wipe their board on 4 with Bellows Breath, but make sure it happens before Thresh comes down and gets value.
  • After Thresh comes down, slow down the game and stop him from leveling as much as possible. You can chill until Ornn comes down, they rarely run Vengeance and therefore can’t get rid of him.
  • If Nasus isn’t a 10/10 on turn 6 exactly, your units will generally be bigger and better.
  • Akshan Nasus is significantly weaker than Nasus/Thresh, but note that they are more likely to run things like Vengeance.
• Karma Sett (SI) - Favored
  • Mull: Aggression - Jax in particular.
  • This deck is too slow to win. The stuns and recalls are a bit annoying, but they fold under a swarm of high statted units. Sett rarely gets value in this deck.
• Plaza Guardian Spam (Ez/Samira/Seraphine) - Favored
  • Mull: Normal
  • You basically pop off around the same turn. It really depends on how many plaza guardians they can vomit out on turn 6 or 7. They struggle a bit to kill your bit units since they generally only run 2 copies of disinintigrate.
  • Try to open attack where possible to play around stuns.
• ViktoAphelios - Favored to even
  • Mull: Normal
  • This is very reliant on their draw and some RNG. Viktor can take over the game if he gets lucky, but also can do nothing. He’s easily killed with your interaction, though.
  • Obliterates are very bad for you. Generally speaking, they only run starshaping and don’t maindeck them, but you should still be careful about going too all in on an equipment.
  • If you can get a wide and big board, enough for a strong open attack, Targon/PNZ can’t deal with it.
• Timelines (Frejlord) - Even to mildly unfavored
  • Mull: Normal
  • This would be a completely free matchup, except that you instantly lose to buried in ice. You have to play very carefully around it starting on turn 6 and 7 because it not only kills your board, but also your weapons. Of course, if they don’t draw the card, you win for the same reason that you beat other timelines decks.
• Sett Trundle - Unfavored
  • Mull: Aggression
  • This has all the negatives of Frejlord Timelines, but also has ionia stun and recall tools that make you sad. The best way to win is try to rush them down as fast as possible to force them to overextend their mana and lose.
  • They rarely run avalanche, so I wouldn’t play around it.
• Ryze - Extremely unfavored
  • Mull: as much early aggression as possible
  • If the Ryze player is even slightly good, he will stun and recall all your big units until they assemble the 5 exodia pieces. Thankfully, a lot of ladder Ryzes are terrible, but still.
  • Their recall even destroys equipments - can it get any worse?

Let me know if there’s any other matchup you would like to know about in the comments.

Conclusion

And that’s the guide! Let me know in the comments about any questions or concerns you might have, and I’ll be happy to answer them as they come it.

YKW4 would certainly perform terribly in the west. Like, really really terribly. Probably less than 200k copies sold. Plus, the game probably just would not be popular with western audiences, honestly. I have played the game, and I personally disliked it, and I think that it would very much be relegated to a small niche of huge JRPG fans (and even then the game has egregious framerates and has pretty mediocre gameplay all around so it wouldn’t be well-received with that crowd either, probably!)
So the alternative? Port YKW2 & 3 to Switch and localize those! (as well as YKW1) This would be good for a variety of reasons:

• It gives a YKW chance to be reintroduced to the west for future games
  
• Gives them a chance to fix the big flaws of those games
  
• People nostalgic for the games will buy them, probably. Especially in Japan where YKW2 sold insanely well. YKW1 for switch didn’t sell great there but they have a chance to turn it around.
  
• A whole new generation of kids, now on the switch, will be able to experience these games
  
• Will make YKW3 & YKW2 Psychic Specters much more accessible now that the E-Shop has shut down
  
• Will finally be able to play these games in 1080p 60fps
  
• Could make way for future localizations
  

So yeah. That’s my take. Feel free to debate.

I have a Ender 3 v 1 that i have had about a year and a half. I have printed hundreds of prints on ti but last fall prints started failing like crazy on it. I mostly print petg but also print pla sometimes. I quickly got into modding this machine since i got it as a christmass present in 2001. I have done the following upgrades on the machine.
4.2.7 silent board
glass bed then a pei bed recently
sprite pro extruder
sprite HF hot end with copper heat break
Sprite HF nozzle nickel plated copper hot end
dual z axes upgrade (creality's version)
i first upgraded the bed springs and now have a solid mount for the bed using locking washeres and two sets of leveling wheels using this post https://www.reddit.com/ender3/comments/r20r7c/ender_3_v2_solid_bed_and_what_it_took_to_get_me/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button
This works great BTW
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I had installed klipper on a raspberry pi 4 and am not running it on a sonicpad.
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I also added a cr touch at some point
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Anyway i am getting horrible first layers for months now and a few months back i picked up a ender 3 s1 regular for a very cheap price and have been using it instead with my sonic pad. I am now attempting to get the original ender 3 winch is almost a s1 now by way of upgrades working so i can have two printers to bang out a bunch of projects i currently have. My bed mesh with a new pei sheet i bough with a bed magnet to adhere it is horrible. I am probing it and getting a variance at printing temps of almost 1 mm. My logic is telling me my bed is very warped especially when doing a 9 x 9 prob and one square is a variance of over .5 mm from the next one or previous one. Can anyone recommend a better bed for an ender 3 and one that maybe has a better heater. I would like to keep this printer in operation since i have spent so much in upgrade and it also was my first printer.
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I also and looking to do a lack enclosure on this machine along with my s1 and then print out a voron 0.2 ad eventually get a k1 max or a bamabu labs x1 carbon with ams. but i still want this printer available for production. I just don't want to give up on it.
Thanks in advance for any advice.

Bought it in 2012, have read hundreds of books on it over the years.
Haven’t tried updating my library since 2021, but have gotten a new computer in that time that only has USB-C. It will charge but I guess the ports are incompatible for data transfer.
I love the small screen and that this unit does books. It doesn’t do apps, it doesn’t do Facebook or YouTube or anything.
Is there a comparably basic model out there that I can use to read books and not much else? I also have plenty of old epubs on my desktop I’d like to put on the device and not be forced to repurchase through the store.
Thanks

Hello everybody, Scathus here with a new deck guide. Some background if you’re not familiar with me: I am high elo player and deckbuilder. Some of the previous decks that I have innovated or taken a serious part in innovating include: Sentinel Control, Feel the Minah, Ekko Zilean, Teemo TF Monke, Tristana BW Prize Fight, among others.
Today, I’m bringing you a deck guide for Jax Ornn in eternal. While I was not the deck creator, as the deck has seen play since its buffs a few months ago, I was the first to make an actually functional list this patch. Both I and my teammate infinipatrons have crested over 1000 lp each with the deck, and I think it’s one of the best decks in the game to climb and also to take to the Runeterra Open.
Deck Code: ((CUDACAYBAIAQMAQ4AEDAYCABA4AQSAQGAADBCBAGAECAQCYMAQAQEAIGAEDAMGYBAYABQAIGAELAEAIBAECQCBQBDA))
Runeterra.ar link

The Deck at a Glance

Ornn Jax is a classic big midrange deck that looks to forge a weapon and overwhelm the opponent with efficient stats and keywords. You will usually look to build up a few powerful weapons over the course of the first 4 turns, before putting the pressure on the opponent and looking to end the game with a giant leveled Jax or Ornn. We also have a variety of efficient Frejlord Combat Tricks, which we use to swing the board in our favor.
Remember: the power of the deck lies in the weapons more so than the units. If your opponent spends a ton of resources to kill a 7/6 Jax - guess what? You now have 1 mana 3/3 quick attack overwhelm weapon to put on whatever you want. This makes your deck much more resistant to traditional removal than other big midrange decks.

Card Analysis

• Jax
  • Generally the best card to be in your opening hand. While he’s essentially just a 2 mana 3/2 with quick attack, he has an extremely cheap weapon that is perfect for forging. Try to keep Jax alive at least until he levels so that his weapon gets overwhelm - it makes it much better to transfer to Ornn or a different unit. Jax’s champion spell is extremely strong and you can use it to completely blow out trades, especially if you are playing into a deck that struggles to pop barrier. If you keep Jax alive until the late game, he will become an enormous overwhelm unit that will threaten to end the game by himself.
• Ornn
  • The primary wincon against a lot of decks. A leveled Ornn will almost always end the game on attack immediately - very few decks can survive it. He is also too large for any deck without hard removal to answer, and even if he is killed, he has already doubled your strongest weapon with his play effect, giving you value. Generally speaking, you want to get overwhelm on Ornn - either the fishawack improvise weapon or leveled Jax’s weapon - but any large weapon will do.
  • Don’t forget that you can play Ornn without copying a weapon to take a big weapon from hand - useful if you have the bone club in hand but haven’t yet played it.
  • Try to level Ornn before attacking with him. This is usually done by playing bone club on a 3 attack unit, getting a huge forged weapon, or fish fighting with Ornn after you play him. This is not always possible, of course.
• Weaponmasters (Combat Cook and Innovative Blacksmith)
  • Your other sources of weapons besides Jax. Both are powerful - Blacksmith gives you constant healing while Cook forges his weapon for free. I will discuss improvisation below in its own section to help you figure out what’s best for which circumstance.
• Forge Cards (Weaponsmith’s Apprentice, Favored Artisan, Hearthblood Mender)
  • These cards make your weapons bigger, obviously. Apprentice and Artisan are two useful early units that give your weapons value and can be used as chump blockers later on. Hearthblood Mender is probably a top 10 follower in the game. He has an absolutely insane play effect and good base stats and is therefore a decent choice to put a weapon on.
• Ruthless Raider
  • An odd card out, but I promise that she’s vital to the deck because this card is the best cheap target for a giant weapon. The tough+overwhelm combo means that any large statted weapon will be extremely powerful on her. She is also a good target for the Bone Club.
• Bone Club
  • Big weapon go brr. Use this on Ruthless Raider or leveled Jax to have a big overwhelm unit that guarantees an Ornn level up. However, don’t be afraid to discard it without Parts Made Whole - it’s not playable in every matchup.
• Combat Tricks (Catch!, Troll Chant, Battle Fury)
  • Efficient combat tricks - go out and win combat. With Battle Fury, you do the normal thing: show lethal on the attack and then battle fury an overwhelm unit/unblocked unit for lethal when your opponent taps out of a response. Battle Fury can force games to suddenly end very well.
• Interaction (Entrancing Lure, Fish Fight)
  • Fish Fight is 2 mana slow kill anything in this deck, which is obviously very strong. It is also the only way to get weapons off your units without them dying, which is useful if you want to swap a big overwhelm weapon onto somebody else.
  • Lure is obviously best on a quick attack unit, but can be used to pull any backline unit to its death. If you have, try to develop on your attacking turns to bait your opponent into playing important cards/tapping under a response.
• Parts Made Whole
  • You don’t always have to discard a weapon - discarding a Time and Dedication from Artisan is also fine, along with any other cards that might not be useful. Discarding Jax’s weapon when you have another Jax in hand is also a common play, since he always brings the weapon back on summon.
• Bellows Breath
  • Aka Ornnvalanche. Use this to beat aggro when they overextend or to clear out chump blockers for a strong attack. Remember that it pings twice rather than deals 2, so it doesn’t deal any damage to tough units.

Mulligan

You NEED to find a weapon in this deck. If you don’t draw one of your 9 weaponmasters or bone club by turn 4, you will be extremely sad. Therefore, I would strongly recommend looking for a weapon in mulligan. If you have a weapon, I would then look for early forge cards. Jax+Weaponsmith’s Apprentice is your classic power curve and I would almost always keep those two cards together. I rarely keep combat tricks unless I have Jax and I want to keep him alive. Into some slower matchups where you know you need a strong wincon, it can be okay to keep Ornn (but only if you already have a weapon!).

Improvising

When you play a weaponmaster, you will be presented with a choice of two different random weapons from a pool of eight. One of the hardest things about this deck is picking the correct weapon for the correct circumstances, so I will go through all the different weapons here to help you out as much as possible.

• Fishawack (+2/+0, overwhelm)
  • Good when: you have Ornn in hand, you have a lot of forge in hand
  • Bad when: you already have leveled Jax, oppenent is a spell-based deck rather than unit-based
• Pot o’ Pain (+1/+2, impact)
  • Good when: you need a good blockeunit to trade up with
  • Bad when: you need a more aggressive keyword
• Pan o’ Pain (+2/+0, tough)
  • Good when: this is the best weapon imo. It beats any ping or removal based deck and scales insanely hard with forge.
  • Bad when: another specific option is more compelling under the circumstances
• Shepherd’s Authority (+3/+2, can’t block)
  • Good when: you really need to pressure your opponent who plays few units (Karma, Ryze)
  • Bad when: almost every other instance. I rarely take this weapon because forge renders the stat buff pointless very quickly.
• Combat Reel (+2/+1, refill one spell mana on attack)
  • Good when: you have a lot of combat tricks in hand, you plan to discard the weapon anyway, you don’t really care about keywords
  • Bad when: A more relevant choice is presented to you
• The Fix-Em 5000 (+2/+0, quick attack)
  • Good when: you want to be aggressive, you have entrancing lure in hand
  • Bad when: playing into a removal deck/need a good blocker
• Upcycled Rake (+1/+0, scout)
  • Good when: you have Ornn in hand, you’re okay with throwing away a unit
  • Bad when: you need a blockekeyword
• Sandworn Amulet (+2/+1, Fearsome)
  • Good when: you’re playing into Bandle City or Aggro decks
  • Bad when: You are playing into other midrange or big decks

Matchups

The eternal meta is pretty open, but I will put some of my thoughts and mulligans for the common matchups that I have seen.
As for the specific mulligans, assume that what I say is in addition to the generic mulligan I specified above.

• Timelines (BC) - Very Favored
  • Mull: normal.
  • We were already very favored into this deck before the nerf and will continue to be. Even if they hit early timelines, our units will generally be bigger and higher quality. They have no way to destroy equipments and no way to stop Ornn from killing them.
• Timelines (Jax/Vi) - Very Favored
  • Mull: normal.
  • This is our deck but worse. Not much else to say. Don’t get in burn range and you can’t lose.
• Annie Jhin - Favored
  • Mull: Early units, Innovative Blacksmith, Bellows Breath
  • This used to be a very bad mu but we have so much healing now and a 5 mana boardwipe. If you draw Innovative Blacksmith or Bellows Breath, they basically can’t close the game unless they really pop off with stuns.
  • If you’re going for lethal, try to open attack to play around stuns.
• Poppy Ziggs - Favored
  • Mull: Early units, Innovative Blacksmith, Bellows Breath
  • This is basically the same as Annie Jhin, except they play for units rather than stuns and burn. Just look for healing and board wipes.
• Ezreal Seraphine BC - Favored
  • Mull: Orrn + Weapon
  • Don’t let your weapon be hexbliterated if possible, so always try to keep combat tricks to stay above 6 hp.
  • They can’t deal with Ornn at all.
  • Don’t forget they can kill weapons at fast speed with Puzzling Signposts, so don’t commit too hard to a single weapon if possible.
• Nasus Thresh/Nasus Akshan - Favored
  • Mull: normal, but you can keep Bellows Breath if you have a functional hand.
  • You can easily wipe their board on 4 with Bellows Breath, but make sure it happens before Thresh comes down and gets value.
  • After Thresh comes down, slow down the game and stop him from leveling as much as possible. You can chill until Ornn comes down, they rarely run Vengeance and therefore can’t get rid of him.
  • If Nasus isn’t a 10/10 on turn 6 exactly, your units will generally be bigger and better.
  • Akshan Nasus is significantly weaker than Nasus/Thresh, but note that they are more likely to run things like Vengeance.
• Karma Sett (SI) - Favored
  • Mull: Aggression - Jax in particular.
  • This deck is too slow to win. The stuns and recalls are a bit annoying, but they fold under a swarm of high statted units. Sett rarely gets value in this deck.
• Plaza Guardian Spam (Ez/Samira/Seraphine) - Favored
  • Mull: Normal
  • You basically pop off around the same turn. It really depends on how many plaza guardians they can vomit out on turn 6 or 7. They struggle a bit to kill your bit units since they generally only run 2 copies of disinintigrate.
  • Try to open attack where possible to play around stuns.
• ViktoAphelios - Favored to even
  • Mull: Normal
  • This is very reliant on their draw and some RNG. Viktor can take over the game if he gets lucky, but also can do nothing. He’s easily killed with your interaction, though.
  • Obliterates are very bad for you. Generally speaking, they only run starshaping and don’t maindeck them, but you should still be careful about going too all in on an equipment.
  • If you can get a wide and big board, enough for a strong open attack, Targon/PNZ can’t deal with it.
• Timelines (Frejlord) - Even to mildly unfavored
  • Mull: Normal
  • This would be a completely free matchup, except that you instantly lose to buried in ice. You have to play very carefully around it starting on turn 6 and 7 because it not only kills your board, but also your weapons. Of course, if they don’t draw the card, you win for the same reason that you beat other timelines decks.
• Sett Trundle - Unfavored
  • Mull: Aggression
  • This has all the negatives of Frejlord Timelines, but also has ionia stun and recall tools that make you sad. The best way to win is try to rush them down as fast as possible to force them to overextend their mana and lose.
  • They rarely run avalanche, so I wouldn’t play around it.
• Ryze - Extremely unfavored
  • Mull: as much early aggression as possible
  • If the Ryze player is even slightly good, he will stun and recall all your big units until they assemble the 5 exodia pieces. Thankfully, a lot of ladder Ryzes are terrible, but still.
  • Their recall even destroys equipments - can it get any worse?

Let me know if there’s any other matchup you would like to know about in the comments.

Conclusion

And that’s the guide! Let me know in the comments about any questions or concerns you might have, and I’ll be happy to answer them as they come it.

Yeah so I’ll spare you all by not posting the photo but basically I have a monster outbreak on my upper left lip. I’ve had HSV1 for 12 years and each time I get an outbreak it’s on the corners of my mouth or rarely at the top of my lip. This time it’s taking up my entire left port of my lip going almost into my mouth. I’m also getting symptoms of a new outbreak (tiredness etc) that haven’t felt for a very very long time.
Here’s the twist: this new outbreak is coming one month after I took antivirals for the first time in my life. I’m basically in new environments this year (putting myself out of my comfort zone) and so I think the stress has been leading to frequent episodes. That’s why I got the anti virals (I did 1g/day for 5 days TWICE so 10 days total).
This one feels…different. Is this just part of living with HSV1? Has anyone experienced this situation? I’m feeling a bit puzzled and jaded towards the anti virals.

Race Information

• Name: Boston Marathon
• Distance: 26.2 miles
• Time: 2:40:XX

Goals

Goal	Description	Completed?
A	Under 2:42 (PR)	Yes
B	Under 2:45	Yes
C	Finish strong	Yes

I know this is a little late for a Boston recap and very long for a casual read (consider yourself warned). It’s kind-of about the race, but it’s also just a bunch of semi-connected thoughts and feelings about training, injury, and results that have been floating around for me over the last couple months.

Prologue

I started running during the pandemic, transitioning away from my long-time sport of Ultimate Frisbee to try to run a sub-5 mile (report here). I did it, and it was good. And I had caught the running bug. Ready to extend my distances, I declared to my coach that my next goal (after a short hiatus to play one more season of frisbee) was to qualify for Boston. Boston was, in fact, the only marathon I had ever spectated: I remember sitting at Coolidge Corner in 2009, watching runners speed by. I was young and springy then, and had no desire to run farther than 3 miles continuously. But now it was 2021, and time had run out on my fast-twitch abilities: it was time to go long. I wanted to run Boston, which meant I had to run something else - and hopefully just one “something else” - first.
We decided to target Eugene for 2022, to qualify for Boston in 2023. I began building up my base in the fall, testing my weekly mileage limits. I remember a “long run” of 70 minutes the first Sunday after I returned to regular running. I nearly gave up and walked 60 minutes in. But the next Sunday I did 80 minutes, and it was better. By the end of the fall, I was comfortably hitting 50 mpw and 2 hour runs. By the time Eugene came around, I had sixteen weeks of generally healthy training and six 20+ mile runs in my legs. felt ready, and I was: I ran a 2:42. I was a freshly minted 36 at the time, so with the BQ time for my age group and gender at 3:05, I was firmly in the clear.
I want to pause here to say that although I know I’m far from an elite runner, and always will be, I am also keenly aware that many people work their asses off for years to qualify for Boston, and that some never do. I worked hard, too, and my history of sports can’t have hurt, but at the end of the day I know I have some (unearned) talent for running that made my path to Hopkinton easier than it is for many. I will leave it here in saying that I have immense respect for everyone who laces up and puts in the work, regardless of their pace and outcome.

The Build

After Eugene, I had turned my attention away from the roads for about six months. I put the bank of fitness I had developed to work on trails and on mountains. I got to cover (and bonk on) a few of the many thrilling backcountry objectives in British Columbia, and even ran a 50k in Washington. (It went about as well as most people’s first 50k, which is to say that I ran out of food, water, fully supermanned down a trail, cramped every muscle in my lower body, and shuffled it in. Huge success.) But when December came around, it was time to get back to the roads.
Working with the same coach, my road fitness came back surprisingly quickly. I was hitting high-water marks for volume, pushing my average up to the high 60s/low 70s. I felt, well, not good, but I did feel fast. I remember hammering out a 30 minute tempo on the track at 5:41/mi, a workout I never would have been capable of during the Eugene build. I was tired after, but confident and elated. I got compliments from the youngsters rolling 600 repeats around the track, and their coach. I felt like I was on track for a new PR, and not just a PR but a crushingly fast time, maybe somewhere in the mid 2:30s. But somewhere, offscreen, ominous music played. I had my wings on, and I was headed towards the sun.
The sun took the form of a work trip to Bozeman. I flew over Thursday, found a gym to do a tough 60 minute “mountain fitness” workout that evening, ran for an hour Friday morning in the snow, and skate skied 2.5 hours hard on Saturday. Sunday morning, I took on a treadmill workout that was something like 7x(7 min @ 5:41/mi, 2 min off). After two intervals, I knew I didn’t have it. I stepped off the treadmill. I’ve failed workouts in the past, and I’ve been able to move on, but for some reason this one stuck. It stuck, as they say in the South in my craw. Annoyed, I went back to my hotel room and tried to regroup. With my muscles already starting to tighten up with the effort, I resolved to partially salvage the day with an easy run around town. But it didn’t feel like I had salvaged anything. So, after an 8-hour, two hopper flight home, I made another attempt to soothe my bruised ego. With night falling, I hit the pavement, starting out easy but picking up speed. Tired, tight, and without any food or water, I hammered away, deep in the no-man’s land of Zone 3. I had heard the warnings. I paid no heed. I was invincible, and I was going to reclaim the fitness I had missed out on that morning. I ran the distance of a half marathon and got home after dark, and you know what? It felt good, at the time. It felt

The Injury

The next morning, I woke up in a pile of melted wings. My left leg couldn’t take any weight without shooting pain and was tender to the touch around my mid-shin. I felt the dubious benefit of immediate and regretful clarity on what had gone wrong. My ego had let me believe that I could or should try nail a workout on a foreign treadmill at altitude (Bozeman!) after an exhausting couple of days. Failing that, it had convinced me that I should make up the workout with a long, unfueled run. Ego is a hell of drug.
It took several days for me to accept that I was injured. Looking back on my training log, it seems insane, but I ran the next few days on my program, including a track workout. My leg would throb and ache, but I would get through it, only to wake up in more pain that would abate just enough for me to try it out again that afternoon. Eventually, I fessed up to my coach and she immediately sent me to a PT and had me stop running for a week. I thought this was excessive at the time, but in retrospect I think it might have saved the build. The PT I saw said I had a stress reaction, probably brought on by a combination of weak glutes (it’s always the glutes) changing my push off and some good old-fashioned overdoing it.
For the next month, I cross trained with uphill biking, skate skiing, and water jogging. We re-introduced running gradually, starting with once every three days, then every other day, then two out of three days. The shin seemed to get better slowly, and we gradually reached a kind of homeostasis: I knew how far I could push it, and as long as I didn’t overdo it, it seemed to recover slightly faster every time. But the injury had come at a bad time, and missing most of February meant that I couldn’t race the local half marathon I had planned on or a local trail race (though I still participated in them as long runs).
By mid-March, I was feeling mostly better. In addition to Boston, I had also signed up for Chuckanut 50k, a trail ultra renowned for its smooth runnable trails and its timing: it often drew some of the elites of US trail running as an early season opener. I didn’t feel quite ready to hammer the downhills, but if anything, limiting myself kept my quads intact almost through the end of the race. I didn’t tear the roof off, but I ran most of the way and felt pretty good doing it. When I woke up the next day with the usual soreness, but no acute pain in my shin, I knew I was going to finish the build and run an honest race at Boston.
The only problem was that a week’s recovery brought me to March 24: only about three weeks before Boston. With a weeklong taper, shorter than usual by necessity, we really only had two weeks to get into Boston shape. My coach put on a masterclass in programming: she designed workouts that required exactly as much as I could give at the time, while preparing me for the unique qualities of the Boston experience and course. One in particular stands out: 4x(15 min MP effort, 8 min T effort, 4 min jog), but on a route that included a 300-foot hill, which I ended up going up and down 3 times. The key was to maintain effort going uphill, but to not go any faster than 6:10/mile downhill. That and another long run gave me two 20+ milers in the books. That was it.
Going into Boston, I knew I didn’t have the sharpness I had even three months ago. I had started the cycle hoping to PR, maybe by a lot, but before the marathon I set more conservative goals: my C goal was to get to 20 miles (where my mom would be) feeling strong; my B goal was to get under 2:45. My A goal was to PR. I wasn’t feeling brave: I wanted to minimize the possibility of blowing up, while still giving myself a fighting chance at a one-second PR if I was having a really good day.

The Marathon

There’s not much to say about Boston (the marathon) that readers here haven’t read before. The logistics are impeccable, but overwhelming for a first-timer, the fanfare and the fans are legendary, and the course is the running world’s version of the Strait of Messina: athletes must navigate Scylla’s ego-tempting downhills and Charybdis’ ill-timed uphills to survive. While it is literally impossible to make it to the Boston marathon start line without having at least one hundred people tell you to not hammer the downhill at the start, people still do it every single year.
In a way, I was lucky have reckoned with (and lost to) my ego early in the build. I came to Boston healthy but wary of too much self-belief. We set a target and hard limit on the pace I would set through the first 15k: 6:15s would be ideal, but at most 6:10s: I wouldn’t run faster than I had down my training hill. At the start line, a small inspiration struck. Boston sets bib numbers by qualifying time, and my 2:42 at Eugene gave me something in the 1100s. Within my corral, I found the people around my number and then walked about 30 meters back, placing myself closer to folks wearing 1500s. I reasoned that if most people overcooked the start, then I wanted to be with the folks overcooking it at a pace I could be comfortable with.
Once the race started, it was virtually impossible, for the first couple miles or so, to shift my pace much above or below what the people around me wanted to run. If thought at first that I had let myself sit too far back: I ran a 6:35 first mile down the two-lane streets of Hopkinton. But as the crowds thinned a bit, I found a rhythm, and clicked off my first 5k at around 19:14, around a 6:12/mile pace. The next 5k, still downhill but slightly less, was a 19:12. The third was 19:13. Rolling through the small towns that make up the western side of the Boston metro area, I didn’t feel good, exactly, but I also didn’t feel bad. I wasn’t sure what kind of day I was having. That’s the odd thing about the marathon, so far as I can tell: you might know you’re having a bad day early on, but deciding that you’re having a good day is inviting disaster.
A quick aside: it can’t be overstated how impressive the Boston crowds are. There was no point on the course that I can remember where we were without support for more than 25 meters. Wellesley and Boston University are extreme even in that context, though: you actually feel the roar at those points in the course before you hear or see it. Bless you, you drunk and joyful undergraduates.
By 25k, we were through half and quickly approaching the Newton Hills. After a long downhill, we turned at the fire station and started to charge up. I shortened my stride and began to pump my arms, lifting my effort from a 6 to a 7 but no higher. I didn’t look at my watch until the end of the first hill, so you can imagine my shock when I saw that the last mile had been a 6:06. I cruised the lengthy downhill after the first hill (nobody really tells you about those) and regained my composure. The second hill was punchier, and brought me down to a 6:10, but I still felt good, and was starting to pass quite a few people. The third hill was mostly forgettable, which left only Heartbreak. While not objectively a big hill, it’s big enough for that point in a marathon, and you definitely see it coming. I was determined to hold my early race pace through it, though, and pushed the effort up again. I was breathing hard, but I got to the top still holding a 6:11 pace.
Even at the top of Heartbreak, I wasn’t fully ready to believe that this was going to be a really good day. I’m told that much better runners have lost entire races in the so-called “haunted” mile following Heartbreak, and I wasn’t sure what my quads had left in the tank. But while it still didn’t feel good, I kept pouring in gas and they kept responding. The last few miles of the race are a bit of a blur: I remember pushing the pace down to 6:06, then 6:00, then even below 6:00 for a mile or so. There are a couple very short and punchy climbs just before the last turns that took something out of me, but by the time I turned left on Boylston I knew I had enough in the tank. I started sprinting at the turn, only to realize that 600m was a lot more than I had bargained for. Still, I turned in a respectable finish, and at least on the video it looks like I’m booking it. The last mile was a 5:41, exactly what I had worked on maintaining early in the build.
I finished in 2:40: something and negative split by about 2 minutes. It felt good. It felt bad. It poured like crazy 15 minutes after, while I huddled under a restaurant awning. I watched other runners come in. Some, like me, had the elation of a good day to soothe their tired muscles and joints. Some had no such balm, and were left to tangle with the aftermath of a long cycle with a disappointing final result. I was reminded, too, that it’s all relative: as I sat under the awning, I heard a runner near me lament his 2:35, while another came in at 3:15 and was fully elated. Kipchoge had a bad day, and he finished more than half an hour before I did. We are comparison machines, and expectations versus reality is the oldest routine we know.

Epilogue

The marathon is a harsh race, and I feel genuinely lucky to have come out ahead both times I’ve tried. Two months on though, my body still feels beat up: I’m struggling to recover, my knees ache, and my workouts seem to be going the wrong direction. I don’t think I gave my recovery the respect it deserved, so I am once again tangling with my own hubris.
Assuming I can rest enough to properly recover, I also find myself in the position of figuring out what’s next. Boston was a big goal for me, and I didn’t set any real running objectives after it. All I have on my schedule this summer is a couple of local trail and road races. I thought Boston would be my last marathon before I moved entirely to the more forgiving pastures of trail running, but I’m also tempted to see how far I can push the needle on my road running before age claws my aerobic fitness back from me. I’m 37 now, and keenly aware that at some point the PRs will no longer be on the table, but I think that day is still a few years off. If you were me, what would you aim for next?

Compilation of all unedited questions and devs answers from DBD Dev Team AMA - June 07th 2023:
Q: In the past, the team had stated that there would only be human/humanoid killers in the game. Obviously with the Stranger Things license, a killer really could not be humanoid, especially given the seasons released at the time. However, with the release of Dredge and now Singularity, we have now gotten a few original monstrous killers. What changed with the design philosophy of DbD that allowed this to happen, and can we expect further creative visual designs like them in the future?
A: Well well, I'm not saying this is a lie, but the fact we said we would only do humanoid was not a design philosophy but more because of technical/scope limitations at that time. If you've been with us for a while, you probably remember us saying we'd put Christine (the car) and Cujo (the dog) in DBD if we could. Every worthy bloodthirsty creature has a space in the world of The Entity!
So what allowed us to do so? We levelled up! The team is bigger, more experienced all thanks to the growth of the community of course! Characters with different structures are definitely going to happen again as we continue to explore more possibilities in DBD.
-Dave
Q: Whatever happened to the promised Twins rework? It was talked about to be the next killer update after Legion/Ghostface though we haven’t heard anything about it and afaik Twins are still plagued by many bugs as well.
A: Due to limited space in each release and the unexpected complexity of the update needed for the Twins, the update has been delayed a LOT longer than we wanted. :D However, it's been designed and we are working on releasing something in early 2024.
-Michael
Q: Hi! Glad you guys came by to answer questions. My question in particular is about map design. I primarily play killer, and sometimes it feels like the outcome of a game is decided before it even starts depending on what map I end up on. Either when chosen via offerings or by RNG.
When designing maps, what, if anything, is done with structure and layout to make maps fair for both sides?
A: The intention when we create maps is not to favor one side more than another.
This is why we currently want to rebalance the maps. We are using data collected and feedback we get from the Community. We have started in the last year to rebalance the maps and we are going to continue and be active when it comes to maps that already exist and same with newly released maps. We want to bring the best experience for everyone to enjoy.
Example: the Raccoon City Police Station , split, the update in the Junkyard and soon Farm maps.
-Andre
Q: What was the real reason you removed Maurice initially? 🤔 I know it’s a pretty unserious question but I’ve always been curious.
A: Honestly, when Peanits saw The Dredge's lobby animation with the suspiciously familiar-looking horse head flopping out, he jumped on the opportunity.
He posted that animation on our social channels with a caption that read "MAURICE NOOO" and the community's reaction was immediately huge. So much so that we decided to to push the joke all the way, removing Maurice from the game. And the rest, as you know, is history.
-Justin
Q: What is it about the new survivor, Gabriel Soma, that makes him stand out from his fellow survivor cast?
A: Gabriel is purposefully designed so that most of us can relate to him, even though he lives in a time period that is very otherwordly to us.
The hardship he faced (even before going in The Realms of The Entity), his resolve and resourcefulness make him a fun character to play. Gabriel is also our first survivor from a possible future, making his wardrobe quite unique and pretty cool if you are into sci-fi pants and space shirts.
His story is not over, there are more unrevealed truths about Gabriel. And he's very good looking: Shirtless Gabriel when?
-Dave
Q: How long, from concept to release, does it take to design a full killer? Not including perks, survivor, or map, but just the killer and their power?
A: It fluctuates (depending on the weather!) but in general about 11-12 months overall from start to finish.
-Janick
Q: Thanks so much for doing this AMA, and happy anniversary!
Out of curiosity, were there any other concepts that the team was considering as powers for the Singularity before deciding on biopods, or was this what they set their sights on right away when brainstorming?
A: The Pods were in the concept from the beginning.
Originally, the Killer had two mechanics it could use: One involved shooting the Pods to teleport to Survivors and the other one allowed it to shoot Survivors to teleport them to its location.
Ultimately, it was deemed exceedingly disorienting on the Survivor side so we removed it and brought back more opportunities for the killer to Teleport later in the creation process.
-Janick
Q: Are there any plans to rework or change freddy in any way?
A: I can't give you any super-secret details but I can tell you that he's on our radar for killers to update.
-Michael
Q: Has there ever been any thoughts on adding alternative game modes or queues? Of course this would be a massive undertaking but I'm curious if it's ever been given any real thought. A ranked mode or mode with different rules like draft picking perks or anything honestly would be really cool to see.
A: It's an idea that has always been in the back of our minds. I can confirm this is something we are actively prototyping. We plan on starting small and doing game modes as limited time modes and building up from there. We are hopeful that we'll have more to share with you all later this year!
-Justin
Q: With the seemingly new trend of original/licensed survivors getting lobby voice-lines, can we expect to see this implemented for previous survivors aswell? So survivors like Dwight, Meg, Claud, David etc.? And would this include the possibility of original survivors interacting with each other similar to the Resident Evil survivors and Renato/Thalita?
A: Never say never. DBD is a game in constant evolution and past content is still living and evolving with it :)
-Dave
Q: Has it been considered to clean up some the more usless offerings on the bloodweb such as the ones that only slightly buff bloodpoints?
A: We are actually exploring the offerings and their system as a whole right now on the design team! I can't give you any hints about what might be changed or where we might end up yet, but we are exploring new effects and actively designing ways to make this system better overall. :)
-Michael
Q: will mobile cosmetics be ported in anytime soon?
A: We will start porting some mobile cosmetics over, starting sometime in the next year.
The first batch will be small, with just 4 outfits (2 killer, 2 survivor). Also worth noting they won't be a 1:1 port. We will make some small colour and/or texture changes before being brought into Dead By Daylight.
Lastly, to manage expectations, there will be some mobile outfits that never get ported over.
-Justin
Q: Is there a reason more survivor emotes haven’t been added yet? It feels like a no brainier since you could make a fortune from selling them and it’s not like it’d break immersion since this game is long past that point now (look at some survivor and even killer cosmetics)
I feel like even small things which could be sold like hand gestures and stuff would be such a nice addition with time however things like dances would be amazing, even better if killer could do them at some point
A: Survivor emotes was an idea we played with many years ago. We even got so far as to implement a few of them in a prototype build. Unfortunately, we found them to often either break immersion, or encourage negative gameplay behaviours. For that reason, we haven't revisited the idea for a number of years.
Never say never, but survivor emotes certainly won't be coming anytime in the near future.
-Justin
Q: Was there anything noteworthy that stuck out to the team when designing The Singularity? I love his design and I would like to get to know more about how he was designed.
A: It was a weird concept and not an easy sell as a great power originally.
(it sound bland on paper)
Although while prototyping we managed to make the pods usable in chases and realised their versitility, that is when it started to shine.
We could see how much fun and potential there was in the concept.
-Janick
Q: The mori for the Singularity is probably the most that a survivor has been actually maimed. It's brutal, disgusting, and I absolutely love it. However, it has been previously stated that moris have to avoid actually doing too much damage to a survivor's body for various reasons. Is this still within those limitations, or did something change that allows the team to make more brutal moris? And can we expect the possibility for some more of that brutality in the future?
A: We're glad you loved the mori, we do too, it was a blast to create! On the level of brutality and gore, there is one thing that we keep in mind except for the actual technical/scope feasibility of an idea. One of DBD's core pillars is that we want to be an horror that is accessible to all. This means many things for different facets of the game, but in this case it means that some brutal actions and level of gore may make the game inaccessible in some regions! We don't want that.
-Dave
Q: Will there be any plans to have more diversity in body shapes of survivors? Would love to see some more plus size representation
A: Inclusivity and representation is very important to us. Body shapes and height is quite challenging at the moment due to technical limitations and gameplay components / metrics. Thank you for letting us know that this is important to you, every voice count.
Q: Are there any plans to make Custom Games easier to set up for tournaments and other events?
It's been years since the introduction of "Custom Matches" and we haven't really had any new settings since. Options to limit item & add-on rarities, options to enforce non-duplicated perks on all Survivors, better spectator controls, etc... Any of these things would REALLY help to make DBD events faster to set up and more viewer-friendly.
A: This is a topic that has recently made it onto our radar, and one we can clearly see the value in. The Custom Matches features has been left untouched for far too long. Unfortunately, it's still too early to give an ETA on when you could expect to start seeing some of these improvements in the game.
-Justin
Q: What caused the sudden shift to add more clutter and obstructions into the new maps and reworks? In my experience it causes nothing more than frustration for both sides.
A: Hey great question! As clutter you might be referring to two different things, so I'll do my best to answer both meanings.
1- Clutter as in more objects making navigation more difficult. As our team grew during the graphical rework, a lot of details were added to make the maps richer. Lots of lessons were learned during those days (and we are still learning) on what elements and metrics makes it difficult for navigation. Our level design team is actively working with the environment artists to make sure each asset found in a map (colliders, vegetation, etc), especially when it comes to navigation, follows game metrics.
2-Finding objectives/visual clutter - As the graphic fidelity evolves in DBD so does our gameplay need to evolve in terms of visual elements, which have not always followed. We are looking into that one now. The idea is to have level of priorities in how easilly perceivable elements are on the screen. This pass will make gameplay elements POP compared to the details that are great, but less important to manage your objective.
-Dave
From the level design perspective, we are in the process of addressing the clutter issue. the focus is clarity, readability and navigation. We had this issue with the Toba Landing in PTB and are addressing that in next week's release. We will revisit all maps and themes and make sure it makes sense for everyone.
-Andre
Q: Regarding individual killer balance, will you start taking feedback from people who have spent countless hours playing them? If at least to see what they want out of their killer without being unbalanced.
A: Our external playtesting methods and processes involve a large variety of player types, all of which range widely in skill level & experience in the game.
Veteran players with many hours in DbD have super valuable feedback, especially when it comes to breaking our rules and exposing balance issues.
It's important to point out though that beginner, intermediate and casual players also have important contributions & insights to share that we need to also take into consideration and use to balance our designs.
-Michael
Q: Thanks for doing this AMA.
In the recent public test build, you guys tested out a buff to Pyramid Head which gave him the ability to torment survivors hit by Punishment of the Damned. You guys understandably walked back this buff as it allowed for some unfun situations for survivors. In the following developer update, you revealed the reason for testing this change was that you were looking for additional ways to let Pyramid Head apply torment. This would lead me to believe that the balance team has been looking to buff certain elements of Pyramid Head's kit.
I also would be kicking myself later if I did not take this opportunity to mention his addons. Pyramid Head's addons, aside from the range addons, do not feel like they impact his gameplay much at all when compared to other killers. His iridescent addons, while unique, are too restrictive in their requirements to get much value out of them. If you're looking to do something to Pyramid Head, which is the impression I got from the recent PTB, it seems that the addons would have been the first thing considered.
So can we expect any more attention for The Executioner going forward, or are you happy with the spot he and his addons are in?
Thanks again
A: You are correct that we initially wanted to change Executioner because we believe he can be improved. :) That hasn't changed and we still want to release an update for him in the future. Your suggestion about looking to the add-ons is noted!
-Michael
Q: Any updates on console to pc cross progression?
A: There's currently no further update unfortunately. We know it's something desired by the community as a whole but we cannot say if/when it will ever be able to be implemented, other than on the platforms we've already confirmed.
Q: What’s the meaning of life?
A: 69 - Mandy
420 - Andre
A great Monty Python movie. -Michael
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Q: New unique items for survivors?
A: It just goes to show how brilliant minds think alike - we've been discussing this very recently! No concrete plans as we're still very early in the process, but we are talking about when and how we could put out some new items in the future. Plan on it (at some point)!
-Michael
Q: As the game continues into its 7th year, I think the community deserves an official comment from the devs on the flagship killer, the Trapper. The character who is on most, if not all advertising, and is perhaps the most recognizable killer in all of Dead By Daylight’s original roster has been the worst killer in the entire game for years, by an increasingly significant margin. Unlike any other killer in the game his power requires full minutes of setup, can be easily countered by good communication, and depending on the map can just entirely cease to function due to no/sparse/thin grass. Most new maps released in recent memory have no grass whatsoever, and are so large that it can add an additional minute or two just retrieving your power, which again, no other killer has anything close to that level of setup time.
All of that to say that for the Trapper, things just seem to get exponentially worse with every update. Does the dev team have any plans on reworking or updating the Trapper, which in my opinion he desperately needs? Or will he stay the undisputed worst killer for years to come?
A: I hear you. It's been a topic of conversation across our teams, but at the moment we do not have significant gameplay updates planned for Trapper. Partly because our data shows that his kill rate is pretty much where we want it to be (on average, even at high MMRs) but also because he holds a very important role as one of the simplest and easiest killers in the game. He's great for onboarding new Killers and we don't want that to change too much.
That said, we do have a small but very fun update in the works for our terrifying flagship killer! Those of you who watched the Anniversary broadcast may have seen the segment about the Naughty Bear Legendary skin coming for Trapper (which will have its own unique Mori). This will ship later in the year, along with a killer update.
-Michael
Q: Can you please hide survivor prestige levels until the end of the match? A lot of killers target and harass high prestige survivors
A: Harassment in game is a topic we are always looking for more ways to tackle, and this has been one of the ideas we've been discussing for some time. I'm going to use this question as an opportunity to re-ignite the topic and opened a new Jira request for it today.
-Justin
Q: All I have to say is thank you making this game because without it, we would not have this unique community
A: Thank you for being a part of it! We feel really grateful to have such an engaged, creative, and supportive community of players.
Thank YOU, you are the Legends!
-Andre
Q: In the past, the team has stated that maps take by far the most development time out of anything else in the game. How long does it usually take to make an original map such as Toba Landing/Dvarka Deepwood, from concept to completion? Also, how difficult is it to modify maps once they are in the game, such as adjusting the strength of loops, changing tile spawn logic, or even changing the size of the map?
A: To answer your first question: Depending on the style of the map, it can take up to 6 months to create.
When it comes to updating and modifying existing maps, we collect data non-stop and are always investigating player concerns. To use Toba Landing as an example, player feedback during the PTB helped us identify & implement certain adjustments on loops and map visibility that will be going to Live servers.
-Andre
Q: For original chapters that take place around different nations (Chile, Japan, Brazil, among others), and even around different periods of time, what’s the process like for the research and implementation of different elements to properly represent that in the lore and even inside of their respective maps?
A: Inclusivity and diversity is always top of mind for us, with a focus on making sure the representation we have in the game is as accurate as possible.
We have multiple steps in our creation process that ensure due diligence in this regard: internal & external consultation with regional partners, extensive research, and immersion are some of them.
A recent example would be with Thalita & Renato characters' cosmetics, which were designed by our very own Brazilian artist!
Fun fact: She's the one who thought of including the Caramelo tattoo on Renato's arm :)
-Dave
Q: Is there going to be an update where survivors can always recover from the dying state (like the one-off with Unbreakable)? Think I remember reading about that once. Cheers.
A: I can tell you're dying to know. (sound of crickets) Nevermind...
No, we are not planning on making that part of the base game.
If you are referring to the Finisher Mori, we tested that in the PTB but it was an early prototype test. There was a lot of feedback and we are still working on that feature, but again - we are not planning on putting Unbreakable in the survivor base kit.
-Michael
Q: Can you tell us a bit about the process the team goes through when deciding to nerf/buff an addon?
It feels so frustrating seeing certain addons getting a nerf for being popular (e.g. Twins: Toy Sword, Nemesis: Marvins Blood, Hillbilly: Engravings) when other addons are so weak/situational they are rarely worth using.
A: This is a question that has been considered heavily within our design team in recent months. We are continually learning where our priorities need to be when it comes to live balance and our process is changing as a result. Recently we have shifted to an approach that rests on three foundations:
Design Intent
Community Feedback
Data and Statistics
We watch for issues on all three of these fronts and prioritize from there. We are also cautious about vetting our changes with the community management team to get a read on how our updates will be received before release.
Some decisions (especially those based more on data or design intent) may not always be 100% clear for everyone, and that's okay. That said, we want to be attentive to the needs of our community and what will be most healthy for the game longterm.
-Michael
Q: Admist the PTB testing there were a few concerns regarding Made for This, particularly in regards to its interaction with Hope allowing survivors to keep pace with 110% killers like hag during the endgame.
Is this something the team is aware of, and will they be continuing to monitor Made For This for balancing purposes when the chapter is live?
A: We are aware that Made for This has had quite an impact.
We're going to be watching out for feedback and data once the community has opportunity to test this.
We already have plans to address Made for This (like we had for Hyperfocus) if and when it becomes a problem.
-Thomas
Q: Will you ever expand the daily rituals to give 1 survivor and 1 killer daily each day? Also would weekly or monthly rituals ever be added for a bigger payout? Thanks.
A: Nothing concrete on the roadmap (get it?) but multiple ideas have been explored to improve the system.
Thank you for your suggestion! We're open to reading the community's ideas and feedback on the topic and will be considering them when discussing next steps.
-Thomas
Q: How does the Entity choose it's victims? Both survivors and killers.
A: Who knows!
-Dave
Meatier alternative - No one knows how The Entity or why The Entity or even when The Entity? Maybe darkness in the life of the survivors and killers grab Its attention, or maybe its the other way around, maybe its the Entity's attention that makes their lives miserable. Or maybe its random! Who knows.
-Dave
Spicy Alternative- The Entity works in mysterious ways.
-Dave
Q: Will the black bubble after hooking someone be adressed soon? I like the effect, but in a ton of scenario's I cannot see if the killer is going towards me, even with the effect of kindred.
A: The intention of the bubble's design is to hide the Killer's exact position after a Survivor's been hooked.
However, it is an old design so maybe it's time for us to review if its use and appearance are still ideal.
-Dave
Q: Will there be a shift away from relying on pure statistics and instead listening to experienced players more/qualitative feedback in general?
The statistics based approach for balancing has been a huge pain point the past 7 years.
A: While data is crucial in balancing in general, it is not a substitute for player or design feedback.
Our approach to balancing is a bit more complicated than this, and I can say it does not solely rest on game design.
-Thomas
Q: Is there any discussion regarding raising killer FOV (or a FOV slider) to help reduce motion sickness for those effected?
A: Short answer: Yes!
Long answer: we have a design that is in development and the release date is in our field of vision. You can expect to see something later this year or early next year.
-Michael
Q: Are there any plans to update earlier licensed killers (Shape/Cannibal/Nightmare/Pig) with their own music tracks as has been a trend with other killers as of late? Given Ghost Face being licensed and receiving a unique chase theme last year, there's been confusion regarding this. Thank you!
A: We would love for all the killers to have this feature, nevertheless licensed content will sometime have limitation out of our control. We might get a track for all of them at some point, but no promise. Shape already as a unique music track! So enjoy that in the meantime!
-Dave
Q: I think many people would agree with me in saying that HillBilly needs some addons adjusted. But also, why is the overheat mechanic still a thing? It's pretty much a "non-factor" and there are addons to increase the overheat limit anyway.
A: I feel you. Billy occupies a squishy (albeit violent) place in all of our hearts, and we've been working on him! An update has been designed for our Billy-boy (including addons). No specific date planned for implementing this just yet, but you can expect news from us sometime in the next year.
Sharpen your chainsaws.
-Michael
Q: What's the process for figuring out general balancing and new perks as the game continues to add in new killers and survivors?
A: The process is naturally data-informed, but the major part lies with the design team, who is aware of what comes next, whether its perks, killers, or any other feature that will impact gameplay and balance.
In short, if a perk is both ubiquitous and powerful, it probably needs to be addressed in the near future.
-Thomas
Q: Do you think we can get outfits based on the later Halloween movies, or does the copy right prevent that from happening? I’ve been wanting an older Jamie Lloyd from Halloween 4 to get in as a legendary skin so bad, I made a petition about it and even asked the actress herself about it. Link to the petition and video
A: Thank you for your passion and dedication. Indeed, working on getting licenses can be a challenge!
-Dave
Q: Question for the art/design team: in the lore for Hux and Gabriel, it mentions that Gabriel damages Hux pretty severely directly before they are taken into the Fog, with flesh melting off his frame. Is the look for The Singularity we see in game the result of that damage, or is that pre-facemelt? If it's the former, is there any chance we might see Hux's original, "perfect" design he had for himself as a skin? Or was the lore even fully complete while you all were working on his design?
A: Hux's look in the trials is post-melt incident! We wanted to make sure we offered a good level of body horror with this character. We might see its "prime" look later, but keep in mind that even this would be horrid, The SIngularity is using flesh in a very wrong way.
-Dave
Q: Could you guys do something like a shirt related to Puppers in honour of him and what he brought to the DBD community?
A: Puppers' passing has been a huge loss for our whole community and has been deeply felt here on the team.
We have seen the discussions amongst players on how best to remember him and honor him, and we've been following it closely, and have been similarly discussing it within the team. While we have a strong desire to do something, it's simply too soon right now to say what we might be able to commit to.
Q: Deleted question.
A: Nothing concrete on the roadmap (get it?) but multiple ideas have been explored to improve the system. Thank you for your suggestion! We're open to reading the community's ideas and feedback on the topic and will be considering them when discussing next steps.
-Thomas
Q: Is it possible to get new moris for killers as a customization option? Not just tied to a skin.
A: Cries in Backlog

• Justin

Q: Why has the map team not advanced substantially in the balance department in the past few years? The community has been clear in that the maps are unbalanced,yet it seems the dev team simultaneously understands the issue i.e Nerfing Eyrie yet released Red Forest 2.0
A: We began the work some time ago, but recently the speed at which we're able to push it forward has been greatly improved thanks to new hires & resources on our team. Now, we're able to tackle urgent day to day tasks while simultaneously making regular progress on live balance for existing maps.
Regarding the Eyrie of Crows, the intention of our balancing efforts there was to address how strongly Survivor-sided it was. We're still monitoring the results though (data and feedback) and we wont hesitate to go back for more tweaks if we feel that they're needed.
When it comes to Red Forest, we frankly just didn't have the ressources at the time for the scope of work required. Now that we do, I've scheduled an update for both Mother's Dwelling and Temple of Purgation that will hopefully address player concerns.
Q: Any plans on improving daily rituals? A permanent 60K BP instead of the 30K we're getting now and the ability to choose between survivor or killer rituals would be nice
A: Nothing concrete on the roadmap (get it?) but multiple ideas have been explored to improve the system.
Thank you for your suggestion! We're open to reading the community's ideas and feedback on the topic and will be considering them when discussing next steps.
-Thomas
Q: The Swamp realm had a unfinished map featuring a village structure, as well as the Bloodwillow tree from the artbook, possibly related to The Wraith back when he was still part of the Swamp Realm. Is there any plans in the future to bring this map as a playable one in Dead By Daylight, maybe with a visual upgrade of The Swamp?
A: The tree will eventually make its return to The Swamp.
However, at the moment, we're focusing our efforts on bringing visual & gameplay updates to existing maps. In The Swamp realm specifically, we're going to remove the generators in the corners of tiles, as well as some elevations that don't have a significant value add gameplay-wise.
-Andre
Q: The Skull Merchant is a polarising character currently. Are you happy with how Skull Merchant turned out? Do you plan on any future revisions for her?
A: Skull Merchant has problems on live and we are very aware of that. We feel the killer is fun and interesting in general, but there are some unfortunate playstyles that make her kit frustrating to play against. 2 things to say here:
She is getting an update. We are currently trying to determine when that can go out - stay tuned. 2. Her most oppressive games tend toward the 3-gen strategy. This is problematic in our game as a whole, but especially against certain killers (Skull Merchant being the most egregious). We are currently working on a systematic solution to deal with 3-gen games, which will ALSO help with playing against the Skull Merchant.
-Michael
Q: Will BHVR fix the visibility issues? My girlfriend is color blind and cant see most colors (no the color blind features don’t help her) so it’s a bit depressing for her to realize that she’s at a significant disadvantage when playing the game. Even for me its hard to see sometimes!
A: We are definitely ramping up our attention to accessibility in our game. It's unclear if/how we will adjust our support for colorblindness in the near future, but I can say we have a dedicated UX designer heading up our accessibility efforts and you can expect to see more accessibility-centered features coming out in the future.
-Michael
Q: Are we going to have sales on characters by the iridescent shards in the anniversary
A: I'm not supposed to say, because it's a secret. But yes.
-Justin
Q: The Shrine of Secrets is used as a way to make all perks accessible to players who do not want to spend additional money for the game other than the cost of the base game, but with over 200 perks in the game now, that system is not a reliable way to acquire specific perks. This leads to arguments that players who are willing to pay extra are given an advantage over others since meta perks can be locked behind that paywall.
What are your thoughts on replacing the Shrine of Secrets with a menu of teachable perks that can be purchased at-will for the same price they currently cost on the Shrine? What are reasons that a system like that would not work?
A: I can definitely say that the problems with the Shrine are no secret.
We are very aware that the system needs an update, however it remains on the backlog for now, which means its on our radar but not being actively worked on yet. We will hopefully get to it sooner rather than later.
-Michael
Q: Are there ever plans to make totally new maps but with the same realm as old locations?
I’d love another map that uses the Snowy theme of Ormond.
A: That's absolutely something i would love to do.
We don't have any plans to do so yet, but i'd love to add maps on a few existing realms. Ormond for sure, Grave of Glenvale comes to mind as well.
-Andre
Q: Are there any plans to unlink currently linked sets for original characters?
A: Short answer: No.
Long Answer: Original characters cosmetics are locked for technical reasons. Having them mix and match would cause bugs and a variety of clipping issues or gaps in their modesl at the waist or neck lines. Unfortunately, for these reasons, we have no plans to make them unlocked in the future.
-Justin
Q: The amount of representation the game gets is great.
But when will we get Ace Visconti actually represent Argentina?
A: Hey, good point! We've had a lot of fun with Ace's personality and used it as the main driveinspiration for his outfits. Some Argentinian representation would be great!
-Dave

There is a person on here hijacking post, venting against home owners of the lowermainland .
As we know this is a global problem not strictly to Vancouver and Canada . Australia, Manila, Hong Kong, RIO, NYC, Seattle etc. So this guy goes by Motherfucker and after he posts, he deletes his username handle. not sure what it is as its labelled [deleted]
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So my reply to the AKA guy Motherfucker whoever he is, ive copied and repost only my reply.
IN response to the renters attacking homeowners especially those in Burnaby who indicated older generation had it lucky to cheaper homes being on the market 5-6 years ago.
Keep in mind the population in the lower mainland grows 12% every YEAR.
if you have 519,000 people in Surrey , you can expect 60,000 new residence and compounding 120,000 following year , 3rd year 200,000 people. The population now doubles under 5 years. This applies to all lower mainland cities including Vancouver diverse population 676,000 and Burnaby being the lowest because of its policies to keep duplexes from being tore down to Multiplexes outside metrotown.
*Burnaby in 2035 will be more expensive to live than Vancouver as it will fit a "niche" place where everyone will want to live as [first choice] for career families .
Downtown Vancouver its' focus will see the disappearance of Vehicles in the very very near future.
With Population growth being out of hand around the world. WE are Starving everything from land use to ownership skyrise.
Frogs have disappeared, Butterflies are rare, Sparrows are no longer blacken the sky with happiness. WE see more white lines on the ground, more white lines in the blue skies, and more cars following the white broken lines. WE see close to 180,000 new vehicles every year added to the same 3 lanes going on the direction west to east TransCanada highway, Barnet , the same 3 lanes in the direction west to east on KIngsway , the overcrowded Marine drive in every city, but yet no [new added vehicle lanes].
No SKYbridge , no new Overpass, no new Express lanes. WE are losing the curb lane to cyclists who physically compete with 4,000lbs -80,000lbs vehicles everyday while the planning department deceitfully out of nowhere in the middle of the night new green lane. These projects are without homeowners approval votes. HOme property land owners are losing more to cyclists who are low mostly property tax condo owners and renters.
As to the Housing crisis,
its unfair to blame homeowners and the few who owns a few that rents them out at any price. We don't dictate the Business owner or boss how to run his or her business, The same should apply to HOme land owners on what they do with their property including the house(s).
THe real issue with the cost of renting is mainly [population growth], you need to blame.
Second, Force Immigration to deport the many illegal immigrants immediately without a subpoena or court date.
Thirdly we now have educate to all the high school kids and their parents, that their kids will not be living in southern BC. They need to evaluate their reality that living in a prime region like any other place comes with a premium price tag.
THis family entitlement ideology mindset needs to change very fast for those families to succeed. Its is not a given if you come to Southern BC including Kelowna, you are NOT given a privilege to own here unless you can afford it. To the Renters, As I told a Mister Patuzzi , your are not here to be understood , you are here to understand!
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it wasn't cheap as fuck, lol i started 6 years ago having my first mortgage owning a new duplex making $23hr at the time. My gf was making $24hr. She is the brains, she saved up to put a downpayment under $180k who has two teenager girls.
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So the real issue, you never saved up anything enough. You constantly complained that home prices will drop over the years. A great indicator to buy now was when interest rates were record low and even now , anything under 11% interest which is roughly 4.7% approx , if any bank, is not going to give you a Mortgage for a old cheap condo here, there nobody to blame except your stupidity!!! yes you !
The generation you think is old now including all other home owners charging for the high rent you consider, its because of your low income, you've known for many years that your not making Nurses wages, that today many companies like Hello 911 call takers who say "how may I direct your call?"who only need a grade 12 education, are making minimum $80k a year with the best pensions and insurance plan, you should have been LONG GONE Jack from this Lower Mainland or Southern BC.
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So now what? your probably thinking if you did have a PETITE Mortgage , you live off foodbank because your unwilling to better your life, saddest part of your story if you are in a relationship, that person suffers greatly because he or she is stuck with you having to live in somewhat poverty unable to give her or him a good family with kids .
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You got options, many filipinos, latinos and those from the Maritimes work 3 jobs, send money home and "don't complain publicly". Your option is to move to Southern Asia or Europe to work ESL teacher, they actually have a decent lifestyle ,
>>>>> or Move to New Brunswick to buy a nice house for under $120,000 , make the same wages your making now, They are dying for people to work for them and they now advertising paying higher salaries more than BC. Alberta Subway in the country is paying $29hr.
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On the high rent and what home owners charge. Not all home owners more than one home. Luckily for some of the more expensive homes they have Family that can help them financially. I take it your not one of them, that a discussion you need to speak to your parents for failing you. And Again you were well prepared beforehand what type of future you were going to have. You could have started a RRSP or savings account in high school having a JOB like most kids planning ahead with savings that grows with maturity. Banks have been telling you constantly on tv commercials and posters while waiting at the ATM or bank teller thats always asking about interested in a preferred investment savings account.
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Many homewoners have all their equity used up for paying off car loans, university loans they had, including unforseen debt they held as in Credit cards. Lets not make up shit and the shit going is why all of you "RENTER(s)" are in a predictable bad living circumstances. The Home Owners have ABSOLUTLY NOTHING TO DO owner a home. You think your problem(s) are isolated to Vancouver??? WTF? this is GLOBAL because your generation Globally fuck around as long as they could thinking living at home past 21 was ok and thinking MOM and POPs are going to give me a Heritance? Good for MOM and POPS selling their hard earn money HOUSE. Buying up new condos and LIVING THE LIFE !!!!!! Burn all that money Mom and Dad see the MotherFucking World !!! for the others who have a strong family bond like Vietnamese, Chinese who have financial family support, they financially are having to rent out their basements to be able to live a "DECENT LIFE" so they are not forced to go to foodbanks. The cost they charge for rent is not to get rich, Trust me everything is expensive, they are on the hook for new roof, bad plumbing, must need renovations. All this creates JOBS and Careers that you do not help, so it very unfair to attack them .
There are smart Canadians, mainly persistent hard working WOMEN mostly Filipinas who are great at managing finding ways to get that Mortgage. Maybe you should find yourself a Filipina partner.
Many are care aids , housekeepers, domesticated helpers. They are not rich. They have car payments and own a simple Condo that was bought in the few years.
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Absolutely no reason why you should be into paying rent long-term.
RENTING and LEASING - Have always been short term. Renting is only for those recently moved to a new location because of being hired of a new JOB/Career while looking or Their home being renovated. The only exception is breakups. Because of the BC Rentalsman policies and laws that are not found in other Canadian Provinces including the any other countries like USA, Australia, Europe, It handcuffs homeowners to the renter. I believe that all renters should be forced to move out after 36 months, including those in BC Housing unless kids under 21 are still having to be dependent and those with disabilities. This allows others (new first time renters) a place and forces current renters to find something before the lease is up.
* that Renting is never a great idea, that forces you to own your own place or moving to a new location within a time frame. You got 36 months to get your shit together and find a suitable mature partner who can help as a financial partner or married partner to own. If it doesn't work out, you do like most around the world including Newfies, THEY MOVE FAR FAR FAR to another Galaxy Far far away.
Pull up your panties fucko or as you put it "motherFucker" and move the fuck out !!!! that's what a intelligent person would do. lets not hear about this any longer from you while homeowners are heavily subsidizing your bus fares including the nice parks, healthcare and the city infrastructures.
if your not paying or contributing at least $36,091 annually in taxes , is what it cost the Federal Government to run this country.
Your living, like many, "subsidized" by high income earners and COMPANIES .
* The basic $9000 tax exemption you see when you do your taxes or apply a new job when they give you the income tax form, it doesn't show you what it cost to have you living in Canada because its highly diversified, and complicated!
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There are billions waiting to having the OPPORTUNITY to MOVE into C$ANADA. If you can't do your part financially in contributing or capable of surviving in any Province including BC, Maybe its time you leave Canada for good. Many have done successfully.
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Good Luck and may the Force be with You!
end of story - its time to move on, lol
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Currently as of June 2023
we are not any replying at this time to comment(s) because of the many that are stuck in a low paying position called a "JOB"

back in 2014 i went to America for my Internship and worked at a 5-star hotel in Manhattan, New York City.
https://youtu.be/-U_o5tJlZ7o

Looking to buy a Zune 30GB Brown 1091 to build out as a screen matched prop from Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 & 3.
I have a Zune 30GB Black 1089 in mint like new condition. So a broken brown Zune would work great as can just swap out the cases. If not, am willing to purchase a working one.
I’ve already bought the screen matched Zune v2 earbuds that were new. Then going to design and 3D print the bracket on top of the Zune as seen in Vol. 3. Going to make this 3D bracket into a function Bluetooth adapter that you can plug into the top aux port.
Thanks and cheers!

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Naghahanap kasi yung friend ko (female) ng matutuluyan sadly di ko siya pwede patuluyin sa dorm ko kaya ayun tutulungan ko na lang siya maghanap ng pwede kasi magdedestress lang daw siya TIA

I met a guy through a dating app called mutual. I don’t have much dating experience. However, I know what I want and don’t want. I took a year off dating after my engagement fell through to process my feelings and heal. My past relationship was healthy. He just needed more time for himself. We are still friends.
Anyway, this new guy I met on Mutual seemed promising, handsome, charming and all the red flags you can think off in the first week of talking stage. The first night we met 10 minutes into knowing each other he trauma dumped his whole life. Why? I don’t know. I swear I was never seeing him again after because what he confessed was something I never wanted to involve myself with. However, he kept trying to communicate and was kind and pretended to be everything I was looking for ofcourse. I was like what the hell let’s see, what’s the worst that can happen? I gave it a chance. I couldn’t find friends in mutual but eventually found someone we both knew (his ex wife) already sounds messy but I promise it was a coincidence. Our dates went well. He was going too fast, fake futuring, hypersexual, clingy and gave signs of jealous type. Suddenly, after reaching his objective ( u know) he stopped being clingy. He realized we “went too fast and was scared” lol. Yup the typical avoidant, unavailable man. I immediately felt sick to my stomach because I knew this was over. He would randomly call me and disappear stating he was busy bla bla. I couldn’t believe that this was actually happening but as a result of my poor judgment and weakness I deserved it. I knew better. I wasn’t strong enough to re-state my boundaries and accepted him breaking through the walls. I automatically knew that if he cared or actually meant anything he would have protected me. However, I could have protect us too and didn’t. I failed as well. I didn’t think much of it because adult dating life is like that. It was just hard because I don’t sleep around. I don’t have an anxious attachment style but I could tell he did and had very toxic forms of building relationships. I felt it was rubbing off on me. He admitted to have had an extremely toxic past. He always had an excuse for failing me. He was divorced and had a child so I assumed this may had been a contributing factor. He was very mysterious. I started getting a feeling he had a commitment and just used me for sex and fulfilling his fantasies. I began getting rid of every illusion without further confrontation. I accepted my L and felt like I dogged a bullet. Part of me was hoping he would just block me but he didn’t. I did let him know a couple times before I left him, how he was hurting my feelings and making me feel confused. I expressed that what he was doing to me was not okay. However, he had excuses to justify it. I feel he knew what he was doing and did the typical text here and there to keep me reeled. I felt insane, insecure, not ok and prayed about it and felt it wasn’t right and he had so much going on. I had to run away because I felt I had been put through some trauma and just the things we did with each other were not ok or normal. To him it was probably another sexual encounter with a girl from a dating app but I believed everything. I needed to cut the root and deleted him. I was scared of him because I feel he just saw me as a piece of meat without clothes and I don’t feel ok spiritually or morally. Him having access to my photos made me uncomfortable. Here is the bigger red flag… The last FaceTime I had with him he had someone else on a video/voice call. It was a males voice telling him, “YOUR MIC IS OFF”. I was very confused, and did not know why he would even have another phone call going or listening to us talk…I continued about my night and tried giving him the benefit of the doubt and not accuse him of anything. I did not hear much from him after because I ghosted him due to all this weird mysterious crap. I even staged a whole fake relationship to make him think I moved on weeks later. A couple days after a black truck pulls up behind me in a hotel I was staying at. To my surprise I was going live for tik tok and the man who approached me walked away. I recorded his face on my live video. I don’t think it had a connection but the call was very sketchy. I shared this story to ask you guys what you think. Could he have had plans of hurting me more? The guy was just so weird and unavailable. I liked him so much and I still wish him the best but I am not the one haha. After this ordeal, I felt I needed to cut the tie and run away for my life. I’m grateful that my friend played my boyfriend. I was becoming more toxic than I already was haha. He suddenly became married after this. I was like…. Holy fuck. What a dude. This is the type of stuff you share anonymously. 😅
I getting help now. Has anyone else met a weirdo on there ?

I just got Alt Store installed and one of the annoying things was not being able to get the Wifi Sync to refresh.
My setup: Modem that goes to a router that acts as an access point. This access point router has an ethernet cable connected to my PC. My iPhone uses the access point for WiFi. I used a lightning cable when installing Alt Store.
First I had the issue that "AltServer could not be found". So I tried disabling my firewall and it would work suddenly. So I knew the issue was something with the firewall. Eventually I found that iTunes would only connect to my iPhone wirelessly if my firewall was disabled. So the issue was with iTunes and the fire wall. I tried to make an exception for every program, but I couldn't find which one needed access. Eventually, I went to https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT202944 and found that UDP Port 5353 is the port which needs to be allowed through. So to fix this issue, I ran these steps.

1. Windows Key -> Windows Defender Firewall
2. Advanced settings -> Inbound Rules -> New Rule
3. Select Port -> Select UDP -> Enter 5353 in specific local ports
4. Select Allow the connection -> Select all Domain Private Public
5. Give it some name. I called mine "_UDP5353 Custom Inbound" and write it's for "iTunes connecting to iPhone wirelessly" in the description

Now I ran the following steps to refresh on my iPhone without connecting it with a cable from my computer. I don't have Alt Store or iTunes or iCloud enabled on startup.

1. Launch iTunes
2. Unlock iPhone. This was an important step to connect to iTunes
3. Wait for iPhone to appear in iTunes. This can take 30sec-2min
4. Launch Alt Store with Admin privileges
5. Check Alt Store in the system tray that it can see your iPhone. If it can't, try the following:
   1. Press start, and type "services.msc". Open "Services".
   2. Look for the "Apple Mobile Device Service". Restart that service.
   3. Once restarted, give it a minute, and you should be able to see your device in AltServer
6. Attempt to refresh apps in the Alt Store

If you get the message "AltServer could not find this device", then try step 5.