I can't be, can I?
So, this doesn't happen too often, BUT. Dissociation is big for me, and the right trigger at the wrong time under the right level of stress can send me straight up into a catatonic fit. I also have ADHD and ASD which could exacerbate and worsen dissociative symptoms.
I lose all sense of time and space. I cannot speak, I cannot move, I cannot blink. Sometimes I can fight my body hard enough to move a tiny bit. My hands are always the first things I can free from that grip, and often pushing things off the table or tapping is the only way I can tell someone that something's wrong. I.e, last time I had one I tapped SOS on the table because it took all my effort just to move that one finger. It took three hours to get someone to respond, and I was in excruciating pain because the joint between my hip and leg was holding the entirety of my weight against the corner of my seat.
Health team says I need a service dog. That's gonna be a whole mess of paperwork, time, and money problems.
It would being me a lot of closure to know; Does anybody else experience catatonia as a symptom of their cptsd? Also, can anyone relate to my experience with this?

I should have found a safe room before I made my move.
Now I was running in shin-high water through a field of lotuses from the aswang chasing me, and I had no idea where to go. I could only hope the creature currently running after me was a simple vampire or ghoul aswang, rather than the more fearsome variants.
Running past a black marble pillar, I stumbled and fell to the lotuses on something. I looked down and realized I had tripped on a piece of wood sticking out of the pillar. It was the handle to a door! My excitement, however, was short-lived as I looked up and saw the aswang right in front of me.
The creature lunged atop me, trying to bite into my arm only to be met with a kick to the face. This didn’t deter it, however, as it grabbed my leg and sunk its fangs into my right calf. I screamed in pain, trying to land a punch, but I had no momentum. My hits only glanced off its skin until I sunk my foot into its gut. Even then, its jaw refused to let go, and took a chunk of my leg as payment for my kick.
I couldn’t run. My only hope was making it into the safe room, but I had to somehow stop it from seeing me open the door. So I had to fight back.
Tears of pain flowed down my cheeks as I used my good leg to launch myself onto the prone aswang. I mounted it, and gripped its head as it retaliated by grabbing my bad leg just below the knee.
There’s few words to describe the pain my leg was in. A chunk of my calf had been torn out, and my blood spread out into the shallow water of the lotus field. When the aswang gripped my leg, it dug its claws in and squeezed with the power of a hydraulic press. Its effects were akin to that of a tourniquet - blood no longer left the wound in my leg due to the sheer pressure.
I heard a sickening snap as my shin broke. The pain nearly made me black out, and I was only able to stay conscious by biting my lower lip with as much force as I could, the sting on my face and the taste of copper in my mouth anchoring me to consciousness.
I lifted my thumbs. I had one goal, and that was to stop the aswang from seeing me. With a horrid squelch sound, I put out the aswang’s eyes, assisted less by my muscles and more by gravity as I collapsed upon the creature’s body.
The aswang released its grip and writhed in pain, clutching its face as I reached for the door handle. I opened it, and fell into the room below.
I needed to patch up my wounds. I used about half of my shirt to make strips and wrapped them around the bite. It hurt like a bitch, but was luckily a shallow enough wound that I didn’t need to worry about bleeding out. I then took two pieces of wood nearby and attached them to both sides of my leg, using some more strips from my shirt and tying them to my leg.
After I finished making the splint, I looked around the room. I had fallen in through a short tunnel from the door, either not noticing the ladder or being too panicked to think about using it. The bottom two rungs had been broken off - I suppose I broke it during my fall, and used it for my splint.
The room was decently sized, about the size of a big bedroom. A makeshift bed laid at the end of the room. It seemed to have been made from woven lotus stems and filled with wilted lotus flowers for cushioning. Whoever made it had a lot of time on their hands. The sides of the walls were lined with - were those bones? Those were bones. Whoever dug this room out must have had an easier foe than me. Shelves were dug out into the sides of the walls, and were supported by abnormally long bones. More bones rested on the shelves, many carved into spears. I tried to compose myself, and hopped my way over to the bed. I was too tall for it, with my legs hanging off the end up to the bite in my calf.
I grabbed some unsharpened bones on my way to the bed, and spent the next few hours constructing a sketchy, but ultimately functional crutch out of the bones with the last strips of my shirt tied around them. I was tired. I didn’t know what variant of the Indian opening I was going to be up against, but you always play the same second move. Already knowing what I was going to play, I laid my head on the pillow and went to sleep.
I suppose I was lucky enough to be familiar with aswang. It seems I was no exception to rule 4a, and a spark of dread made its way into my drowsy head as I realized what the other pieces represented.
No matter what, I could not move my queen.
I woke up to an aching pain in my leg. It was to be expected. I would have to figure out a plan, and fast. I had no way of fighting off any more aswang in my current condition, but I also had to make more moves unless I wanted to deal with a horde of them with working eyes. I looked at the sharpened bones on the shelf. Perfect spears.
I wouldn’t be able to do any form of spear combat though. The best thing I could do was throw them, but with only one working leg I wouldn’t be able to put much force into it. It wasn’t like I had any other choices though, so I stood up and began gathering some spears. As I picked up one of them, I looked at the shelf and smiled. I finally had a lucky break. One of the bones had been carved into an atlatl.
I tested how well I could throw the bone spear with the atlatl. To my relief, I was able to embed the spear into the wall over two inches deep.
I had some difficulties climbing the ladder, and I was only able to carry three spears and the atlatl with me, but it would have to be enough. When I reached the door, I opened it as little as I could, just enough to peek through. I looked through the crack and saw the aswang, still holding its face in its hands as it paced around the area about 8 metres away. I looked up to the sky, and saw it was nearing sunset. I could make my move again. But another aswang would be appearing very soon.
I stepped out of the door. At the sound of me stepping into the water, the aswang’s head snapped to my direction just as it did before. Rather than its bloodshot eyes, however, I saw only the eerie blank space of its sockets. It ran at me. I let loose the spear.
I missed.
The spear flew past its head, and it ran towards me and threw a punch. My only hope of dodging was to lean my head as far to the side as I could.
The aswang’s fist dug into the black marble pillar just past its wrist. It raised its other hand, but before it threw another punch, the spear I threw saved me. A loud ting sound rang from where the spear had hit the pillar behind the aswang, causing it to momentarily turn its head. I took the opportunity, and used my good leg to launch myself onto the aswang once more. This time, however, I was on its back. My weight dragged it to the lakebed with me, and we fell into the lotuses with my arms around its neck in a rear naked choke. Not knowing where to attack, it swiped its claws in the air wildly before a sickening snap came from its neck and it went limp.
No sooner than when I released it and I stood back up did I see its body begin to twitch. My foe stood back up. I threw one of my spears past the aswang and away from the chessboard, which stood 20 metres away. I stayed as still and silent as possible, not even daring to turn my head around as the aswang ran towards the spear that bounced off another column. One spear left.
I was still 5 metres away from the chessboard when a mass of marble and lotuses began rising next to it. The sun had gone down yet again. 24 hours had passed. I went as fast as I could, nearly stumbling twice. I saw two lotuses on the front turn white and shift and shrink into eyes. Two petals on the sides of the mass stretched and turned into elvenesque, pointy ears. Jagged shards of white marble formed themselves into a toothy grin. Eventually, the entire mass became smooth, shifting in hue to an olive brown. Vines grew over the mass, turning into the aswang’s robes and taking on bright coloured patterns. The thing’s head shifted towards me, and I was met with bloodshot eyes. It launched itself towards me. And in the span of less than a second, the transformation reversed itself. It fell past the chessboard in a heap of broken lotus flowers and cracked marble. I had touched the chessboard.
Now I had to make my move.
The rules said nothing of how much time I had to make my move, but I took a risk and stood there for a few minutes. I gazed around at the endless lotus field and impossibly tall black marble pillars. The vines wreathed around the pillars and over the shallow lakebed, all in front of a background of a galaxy of shining stars. The sun’s orange glow faded as it fell past the horizon, and my surroundings were overtaken by hues of blues and purples.
I looked at one of the lotuses adorning the chessboard. It was delicate, with a vibrant yellow bulb in the center accented by a crown of petals, white in the centre and expanding to a beautiful pink at the edges. This felt like a dream. This was the deadliest situation I’d ever been in, yet in this moment I felt nothing but peace.
I unconsciously shifted my weight, and the sharp pain in my calf brought me back to the current situation. I already knew what move I was going to play. The most common and solid move against the Indian defense was to play c4 and move the king’s bishop pawn up two spaces. It grabbed space in the center and capitalized on the slower playstyle of the opening. It was imperative that I not lose the position - while white enjoys a large spatial advantage, it is nearly impossible to make a comeback if black obtains a winning position.
I looked at the four columns surrounding the chessboard, each a little over 5 metres from me. A large canopy of vines hung between the columns, easily enough to support my weight. Lower-hanging vines could be used as ropes to pull myself up. The note had said there were safe rooms in the columns and under the lakebed. Those columns were easily large enough to hold a small room. I doubted there were no doors in the vine canopy.
I went to step away from the chessboard. As I did, the mass of lotuses and marble slowly began to rise again. I immediately stepped back to the board, and it fell down once more. I sighed. I had a game plan. I just hoped I could execute it in 60 seconds.
I moved the king’s bishop pawn two spaces forwards. The board responded with e6 and moved the king’s pawn up one square. I went towards the column as fast as the crutch would allow me. I had a good amount of time to climb when I reached the column - About 45 seconds. I put my arm through the gap in the crutch and held it on my arm as I climbed. It was a difficult task, but I was on the canopy about 3 metres off the ground. I looked down. Not good. The aswang was nearly fully formed. The only option I could think of was to hide. I went to the side of the column opposite the chessboard, praying the vines did not snap. After what felt like hours in under five seconds, I heard the sound of the aswang walking. I held my breath.
The walking sounds were getting quieter.
Not even daring to breathe a sigh of relief, I looked across the canopy, and my previous suspicions were confirmed. A small wooden handle was attached to the column across from me. A safe room.
Quietly as possible, I crawled along the thickest parts of the canopy, avoiding any risk of a vine snapping and sending me to the ground, alerting the aswang, or both. Eventually, I reached the door. I opened it and crawled my way inside.
Inside the column was a cylindrical room close to 2 metres across. The room itself went up very high, nearly 10 metres, and marble platforms jutted out from the walls, turning the room into some kind of spiral staircase.
I decided to climb. Ten platforms up, the platform had the 19x19 grid of a Go board carved into it, and the next platform was indented and held hundreds of black and white marble tiles. I accidentally knocked a few of them off as I climbed up. A few platforms later was the 8x8 grid of a chessboard, and the next platform was similarly indented to hold the pieces. A few more platforms up and I reached the top. The top was a large platform that acted as effectively a floor as opposed to a step. It stretched across the room, and was padded by a large pile of now wilted lotuses. I wasn’t able to lay down straight on it, but I was able to get into a relatively comfortable position if I curled up slightly. Next to the pile were three bone things. They looked similar to a clothes hanger, being a hook attached to a handle on each side.
I looked behind me and saw there was a door.
Cautiously, I opened it. There was no canopy here, and if I stepped out I’d find myself plummeting to the aswang below. But what there was, was a thick braid of five vines tied around the column at the base of the door, leading above the chessboard to a column 20 metres away.
It was a zipline. That could come in handy.
I decided to play through some more practice games before I went to sleep. I went down to the chessboard platform and grabbed the pieces from the next platform up. Underneath the pieces, however, was a piece of paper. I picked it up. It contained only two words, repeated on the page over and over.
“DON’T CASTLE.”

My parents bought a resale flat that had a lot of entities in it back in 2008, and I often had dreams of snakes while staying at the place. Other family members often saw shadow figures flicking around and I've also dreamt of shadow figures a few times there.
Back in 2017, there was a period of time when I kept waking up with fresh scratches and big bruises on my arms or legs. I also often felt cold and dreamt of this big green snake sitting in a corner of the kitchen. At that corner, there was one night when I heard a lot of birds chirping there, like a chicken coop. It was around 2am and lasted for around 10-15 minutes. A sign of a trident appeared on the wall. I was having dreams about this ancient town every other night, there were a lot of hills and sometimes I'd see tombstones on some of them and women wearing long dresses praying there.
This one night, I dreamt that I was taking lessons in one of the huts inside that ancient town when suddenly a dead bird appeared on the table and the scene swirched to a hill. I was walking towards the hill and there was a patch of forest on top of the hill. A patch of mist descended down onto that forest and those people wearing long dresses and black hats started running out of the forest, what's weird is that they were all holding towels to cover their faces and I felt like I shouldn't be there so I tried to wake up.
I managed to open my eyes but I was having sleep paralysis and I saw this semi-opaque blueish figure sitting on top of me, like its torso was around the middle of my body, it had thin body and thin limbs and a big head, one of the arms was stretched towards my forehead. I closed my eyes again and prayed to whatever god or deity I could remember and managed to wake up quite quickly.
A few weeks after that, I told my mum about the dream and she said she also had a dream about some floating blue entity around the same period of time.
The thing is that around that period of time, there was another night that I heard this voice speaking in a formal tone asking me to undertake some kind of contract and I agreed to it thinking it was something good. It was something like telling me to help save and heal the world etc. After agreeing to that, I had a dream about signing a work contract sitting opposite a white entity that I've dreamt of several times in other dreams. I often had the feeling of familiarity when I came across that white entity in the dreams.
I also had another dream where I saw two white snakes intertwining in some sort of position, and then I was inside some dusty chamber where a group of people were gathered, and this entity gave me a green amulet telling me that my task was transmutation.
In yet another dream, I also dreamt of that white entity showing me around some office place with white furniture and interior decor, and on the very last scene in that very last dream I've had of those things, he showed me this light portal inside one of the rooms in that office, and told me to walk into it.
All these weird dreams happened back in 2017 and I haven't had such dreams since then, but I still see shadow figures flicking past the top of my head or the side of my eyes occasionally. It often occurs right when I'm feeling happy about stuff and then bad luck and family conflicts often occur right after that.
I'm just wondering if I accidentally agreed to anything that caused some kind of entity to follow me after those stuff in 2017? I haven't had any dreams about snakes since then and there was some spiritual master who came to cleanse place but I still see those shadow figures flicking past sometimes.
I've been doing research about these entities since then and I feel like it was djinns at this place which gave me those dreams and weird experiences before.

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For any Velocity Gold Members flying Qatar Airways - booked through Virgin Australia with a stop over in Doha.
I can confirm that I was able to access the “Gold Lounge - South” on my international stopover. Just needed to show Qatar Air boarding pass for onward leg and my Velocity Gold card. I also admitted one non-gold guest no probs.
Nice lounge, very clean showers and good towels. Severely over staffed. However I am an easily pleased peasant.
Was able to disembark the 14h flight from Melb and walk direct to lounge, no gates, customs or security etc.
Hope this helps anyone as uncertain as I was.
Obvs if ur reading this in the distant future, perhaps DYOR.

So I thought I would stop in at Scrooge’s to see what he had going on. Of course I made sure I was stocked with my favorite uncle’s lunch and preferred gem stone of the day.
When I first walked in I took a short stroll around the furniture options in the front. Nothing, nothing. Nothing new, nothing fun. Then I turned to the smaller furniture shelf on my right to see the display of more and more nothing at all inspiring. I looked for the button that would allow my character to rage swipe everything off the table but couldn’t find it.
Then I stomped up the stairs and past that same ugly green bed and those two boring ceiling lights, I dragged my feet to the end of the hall where I once again approached that giant pink couch that I couldn’t find a use for the first sixteen times I came across it.. All I wanted to do was kick the sideboard on the display case! Just one good swift kick. I wanted to throw his seafood soup and gold nuggets on the floor and storm out of there in a huff! Where is that button?!

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We, however, won’t be going there just yet. No, we’ll be taking a trip in the other direction. To a different castle, one where human’s aren’t welcome. Worry not, we’ll be safe, or at least I will, I can’t guarantee anything else. So, let us proceed if you dare, into a forest that surrounds an even darker fortress.
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Within the fortified though decrepit interior are certain creatures that prefer the night. Inhuman, yet, human all the same. I am referring to vampires, if you haven’t already guessed. We pass the corridors and enter a dining hall. There are three gentlemen of class and distinction, talking amongst themselves.
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“Ohhhh,” one of them groans, who goes by the name Razzal, as he reclines in his chair. “I drank too much.”
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“I told you not to be so gluttonous,” another man, who wears a monocle and is named Duhamah, chides the first. “Now where was I? Ah, yes, the rumors of the eradication up north.”
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“I put no stock in it,” offers the one who is quite familiar to us, he being Samuel. “I simply cannot believe that an entire hive was eliminated. It’s simply impossible.”
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“I don’t know,” Duhamah starts as he scratches his chin. “I have seen far greater deeds done. What say you Razzal?”
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The gluttonous one belches. “I haven’t an opinion one way or the other,” he responds as he rubs his distended belly. “And I shan’t have one until I have seen it with my own eyes. Which is why I plan to depart next evening. That is if my belly doesn’t, mmm, keep me.”
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“You know,” Samuel begins as he leans forward. “I have half a mind to join you.”
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“Well,” Duhamah adds as he leans forward. “I think-”
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“Victor! You have a lot of explaining to do!” a bellowing voice cuts him short.
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Samuel, or Victor, this is getting confusing, greets this new fellow. “Your Grace,” he speaks as he rises from his seat.
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“You will not dissuade me with pleasantries!” his Grace, one Turrel barks. “What have you to say about the theft of my relic?”
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“Why, I have no idea what you are talking about,” Samuel, okay let’s just call him Victor, assures his master as he rounds the table.
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“I thought you might take that angle with me, and had I no proof I would have to capitulate,” Turrel starts, seemingly defeated, but soon rallies. “But I have proof and I know who the guilty party is. You see, I always safeguard my most precious possessions and the Soul Nail is no exception. I can sense its power and I know it has been used and I can sense its presence in the vicinity of your old home.”
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Victor swallows, but keeps a calm disposition. “I can assure your grace, its proximity to my former dwelling is sheer coincidence,” he speaks as he tries to stay composed.
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“Coincidence?!” Turrel booms as he gives a laugh. “I do not believe in coincidences.”
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“How can I possibly prove my innocence to your grace?” Victor grovels as he lowers his stature.
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Turrel takes a moment to think. “If you retrieve the Soul Nail and return it to me, I will consider you, absolved,” he lays down the parameters for innocence as he stares intensely upon his subordinate.
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“Then I shall leave post-haste,” Victor relays as he bows before departing, under the watchful gaze of his peers.

I have 3 systems that I use regularly but are aging badly. Have been debating which way to go for over a month now, so figured I'd post here to get others opinion on best route. I don't play anything crazy with my system, hardly game anymore even. Most games are stuff like factorio, satisfactory, wow, sons of forest, maybe diablo 4
Main: Ryzen 2700X, MSI X470, 2x16GB DDR4 Unraid: i3-4150, 4x8GB ESXi: i5-2500, capped at 4x8GB
First plan is to build a new main PC with i5-13600k($300), z690 ddr5 board($250ish), 2x16GB DDR5-6000($110ish), 850w PSU($150ish). I could then just shift the 2700X, board, ram and PSU to another case for my unraid and basically be set. And deal with upgrading my ESXi at a later date. Around $1000 total. https://pcpartpicker.com/list/3GD7Q6
PCPartPicker Part List

Type	Item	Price
CPU	Intel Core i5-13600K 3.5 GHz 14-Core Processor	$299.84 @ Newegg
CPU Cooler	ARCTIC Liquid Freezer II 360 56.3 CFM Liquid CPU Cooler	Purchased For $0.00
Motherboard	MSI MAG Z690 TOMAHAWK WIFI ATX LGA1700 Motherboard	$259.99 @ B&H
Memory	G.Skill Ripjaws S5 32 GB (2 x 16 GB) DDR5-6000 CL36 Memory	$114.99 @ Newegg
Case	Corsair 5000D AIRFLOW ATX Mid Tower Case	Purchased For $0.00
Power Supply	Corsair RM850x (2021) 850 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply	$149.99 @ Corsair
	Prices include shipping, taxes, rebates, and discounts
	Total	$824.81
	Generated by PCPartPicker 2023-03-28 23:42 EDT-0400

Second option would be to do above for Main pc, but instead of using the 2700X as Unraid to use it as the ESXi. Build a new Unraid using a i5-13400($220)-would gain QuickSync capability for 4k hardware transcoding, basic z690 ddr4 board($180ish), use existing 2x16GB DDR4. ~$400 for Unraid. https://pcpartpicker.com/list/YJH7Q6
PCPartPicker Part List

Type	Item	Price
CPU	Intel Core i5-13400 2.5 GHz 10-Core Processor	$219.99 @ Newegg
CPU Cooler	Thermalright Peerless Assassin 120 SE ARGB 66.17 CFM CPU Cooler	-
Motherboard	ASRock Z690 Steel Legend ATX LGA1700 Motherboard	$171.99 @ Newegg
Memory	Corsair Vengeance LPX 16 GB (2 x 8 GB) DDR4-3000 CL15 Memory	Purchased For $0.00
Memory	Corsair Vengeance LPX 16 GB (2 x 8 GB) DDR4-3000 CL15 Memory	Purchased For $0.00
Storage	Western Digital Red 4 TB 3.5" 5400 RPM Internal Hard Drive	Purchased For $0.00
Storage	Western Digital Red 4 TB 3.5" 5400 RPM Internal Hard Drive	Purchased For $0.00
Storage	Seagate EXOS Enterprise 14 TB 3.5" 7200 RPM Internal Hard Drive	$224.69 @ Amazon
Storage	Seagate EXOS Enterprise 14 TB 3.5" 7200 RPM Internal Hard Drive	$224.69 @ Amazon
Storage	Seagate EXOS Enterprise 14 TB 3.5" 7200 RPM Internal Hard Drive	$224.69 @ Amazon
Case	Phanteks Enthoo Pro Tempered Glass ATX Full Tower Case	$139.99 @ Newegg
Power Supply	Corsair RM750e 750 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply	$99.99 @ Corsair
Custom	LSI LSI00194 PCI-Express 2.0 SATA / SAS 9211-8i Controller Card	$60.00
	Prices include shipping, taxes, rebates, and discounts
	Total	$1366.03
	Generated by PCPartPicker 2023-03-28 23:43 EDT-0400

ESXi with 2700X, existing X470 board, buy 4x16GB ddr4($150ish)-Want 64GB for ESXi, 750w PSU($100), $250ish for ESXi. https://pcpartpicker.com/list/bGNsTn Around $1600 total, but would have all 3 systems upgraded.
Third option, replace 2700X with 5800X3D($300) for Main. https://pcpartpicker.com/list/VYHcwc. Move 2700X to Unraid, buy Asus b550 ddr4 board($180), 2x16GB DDR4($80), 750w PSU($100). Deal with ESXi upgrade later. Cheapest option, around $700 total. https://pcpartpicker.com/list/hxzb3y
PCPartPicker Part List

Type	Item	Price
CPU	AMD Ryzen 7 2700X 3.7 GHz 8-Core Processor	Purchased For $0.00
CPU Cooler	Thermalright Peerless Assassin 120 SE WHITE ARGB 66.17 CFM CPU Cooler	$50.00
Motherboard	Asus ROG STRIX B550-F GAMING WIFI II ATX AM4 Motherboard	$184.99 @ Newegg
Memory	Corsair Vengeance LPX 32 GB (2 x 16 GB) DDR4-3600 CL18 Memory	$88.98 @ Newegg
Storage	Western Digital Red 4 TB 3.5" 5400 RPM Internal Hard Drive	Purchased For $0.00
Storage	Western Digital Red 4 TB 3.5" 5400 RPM Internal Hard Drive	Purchased For $0.00
Storage	Seagate EXOS Enterprise 14 TB 3.5" 7200 RPM Internal Hard Drive	$0.00
Storage	Seagate EXOS Enterprise 14 TB 3.5" 7200 RPM Internal Hard Drive	$0.00
Case	Fractal Design Define R5 ATX Mid Tower Case	$124.99 @ B&H
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Items in partpicker linked slightly vary from what I mentioned, still undecided on replacing PSU and cases or using existing. Also GPU is currently a nvidia 1070 but will be replacing with probably a 6750XT or 6800XT shortly. So not fully factoring those into costs above as they would be needed regardless of how I go, same for Peerless Assassin heatsink when needed
Any help is greatly appreciated, I'm indecisive as hell and may just end up rotating out the parts on pcpartpicker for another 6 months, as I've basically been doing for a year now

Lets sit back, kick up & pat our dicks & tits for making it to 50 episodes!

The guys and gal answer some questions about themselves and the show and Dusty gets pretty drunk near the end. hahah

Trivia
- I am a real American https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eX_k5_egUAo
-Mark claims he was bored and drunk and wrote down answers in advance...but we all know he wasn't drunk at all. hahaha
-The Table Layout : Mark sits in the middle, Steven to the left, Vanessa to the right, Dusty across, Matt to his left, Cory to the right.
-Steven's mom's mini van is gold. She's our biggest fan btw.
-Steven, Matt & Cory All work together. -Steven somehow lost his computer and hadn't told his employer.
-At the time of the recording, their key demographic were people in their twenties. Now we're all sour in our thirties, hooo raaay!!!
-California and Texas are where most of their USA listeners reside
-A juggalette once followed them on facebook.
-These are the guys Favorite Mystery Science Theatre 3000 show runners. Steven is a Mike guy. Dusty is a Mike guy. Matt is a Mike guy. Mark is a Mike guy. Vanessa is undecided. GOD DAMN IT WOMAN. Microsoft Rory is a Joel guy for robot reasons. Cory hasn't watched enough to care.
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-The following is the casts fav serial killer Steven: H.H Holmes https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/H._H._Holmes Dusty: Lady Gaga in American Horror Story https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lady_Gaga Vanessa: Jeffrey Dahmer, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeffrey_Dahmer Rory: Ted Bundy. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ted_Bundy Matt: Robert Durst https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Durst
-A serial killer may have eaten one of Engineer Rory's relatives
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-Steven looks like a bag of cream gravy with a beautiful golden wig on top -Dusty looks like Ben Gibbard, but with a beard. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ben_Gibbard -Cory looks like Abe Lincoln/Amish Cool guy -Mark looks the same as Cory, but has more Mustache than Beard -Vanessa looks like a wrinkly baby, with teeth that are all different shapes
-A guy once approached Cory and inquired if he wanted to get into commercials. Do it, where I am from, a gig like that paaaaaaays.
-Dusty talks about Sweet Dee being in the Fifth Wave, but she isn't. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_5th_Wave_(film))
-At this point, the Tim Allen ep was their favorite -Any ep thats about to be posted is usually their unfavorite for insecure reasons.
-The guys played a year and a half of path finder before getting into DND Next, aka 5e
-Matt is insecure about over using Microsoft Sam. But I think it's our favorite NPC
-Jedwyn is a clawhammer guy
-Steven hates playing Jedwyn, as a Warlock is too simple. He's right; powerful but bland/not versatile.
-Steven played a tiefling Alchemist named "Oppenheimer" in a previous campaign -Vanessa once played as "Hagetha Crumbwell" a Witch, during the text/paper games.
-Cory has restarted fallout 4, five times. He likes character building
-Fumbles has been through all the rotating DM's stories. -When Matt first met Dusty, he thought his high pitched Character voice was his real voice.
-Everyone but Matt and Rory went to high school together. Steven met Rory and Matt at the place Steven works at.
-They record on Thursdays at this point.
-Dusty was too drunk to say "Heeeeey" when his Name comes up during the recording. -Dusty texted Cory, who will be our next DM, his character, and it's been approved.
-At the time of this recording, Mark's dad cut his hair off and trimmed his beard. The crew is shocked.
-Jose asks a question. That's Dusty's friend. You might know him, Mr season 5. They did invite him to play before but schedules never met up.
-Carl 7 runs off Crow oil
-Dusty wears boxers -Steven & Cory are boxer briefs -Vanessa goes commando
-Dusty played DnD in middle school and nearly got kicked out for it. It was a conservative school that thought he was playing with black magic. smh, lol
-Cory writes his campaigns like plays with options
-Rory still doesn't know how to play DnD at this point.
-Rory's fav Matt diss is the "suicide by cop" joke, which was made by Dusty.
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Quotes
"Keep up the good work! If you keep listening, you'll get a prize" - Dusty to us the listeners
"I drive a 2010 Toyota Pussy Magnet" - Mark
"Wait, Rory doesn't work for us?! But me and Matt see him all the time at the job with the other guys" - Dusty, trying to be confusing
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"Mark, Can you pull out your spreadsheet of our fans ages please" - Dusty, going back to a classic
"Btw, if you ever liked us on Facebook, Cory knows where you live..." - Mark
"But everytime, these people would take this certain course in college, they would text me, "DUDE!!! ONE OF YOUR REALATIVES WITH YOUR LAST NAME IS LISTED AS A VICTIM FOR GACY" - Rory
"I pretty much look like a homeless man, with a beard, but with a hipster nazi youth cut" - Dusty, LoooooooL
"Vanessa looks like that movie star if that movie star smoked cigarettes' since she was an infant" - Dusty
"And we fuel that depression by each privately texting Matt to say, 'you're a horrible person', we're not your friend' " - Dusty, when Matt gets depressed after they record
"I will admit that I did spend more than 30 seconds trying to print something from a turned off Printer" - Steven, being technologically impaired
"Dusty gets everywhere" - Danielle Kay "That's true, my cum stream is quite wide" - Dusty
"I play lawful good in real life! It's getting old!" - Dusty
"A character that can break a grapple while still getting another action, throws a sword more than an improvised weapon and one shot a character...." - A sour Steven on what would be a controversial thing amongst the group and that one dick that rated the show negatively because of it.
"Could you use some kind of wind magic to propel a boat?" - Dusty to Cory, about what's possible in Cory's campaign
"What ends up happening is that I focus on something over there and I'll be thinking, ah shit maybe I should do this, or this, or this and then I try to get back into it but i'm already fucking lost" - Rory, on what he thinks the guys do.

Caspian isn't actually sure if this lesson is necessary, but given that most if not all of the camp are in their puberty years, some dating advice might be helpful.
They're in the dining pavilion today, just a few hours before dinnertime. Cas has absolutely no materials prepared except for a cup of Sharpies, some sticky notes and a whiteboard... And a whiteboard marker. He's not writing on a board with a Sharpie (again).
When everyone who's interested has gathered, the Muse clears his throat.
[ lesson start ]
"Good afternoon, Camp Half-Blood!
We're doing things a little bit differently today. I've taught you guys a lot about callisthenics and meditation, and such—all crucial things when it comes to self-improvement. Today, however, we will look at our relationships with others, specifically boundaries."
He goes ahead and writes the word BOUNDARIES on the board.
"Every person has different definitions of boundaries, for other things. Be it combat or in conversation, between friends or between partners, or when it comes to touch and topic, there are certain things that we don't want to approach.
For example, I get incredibly uncomfortable if a fellow camper uses their magical powers on me." He briefly glances at the Eros table and then the Circe one.
"When it comes to relationship building and camaraderie, it's important to both establish and respect the boundaries between you. You really need to make these clear, since the other can't or won't be able to tell immediately. It's better to be safe than sorry.
Now, there are several kinds of personal boundaries:
There are physical boundaries, the ones related to your body or your physical space. Are you okay with hugging or handshakes? How are you with comments about what you eat? Are you comfortable if someone enters your room or gives you some time by yourself?
Contrastly, we have emotional boundaries, specifically about what you are able to share. When you need to speak about something personal or intimate, who do you approach? What do you say when you're not ready to receive someone else's output? How do you ensure that you're a safe space?
There are time boundaries, those are self-explanatory. Do you need time to yourself after socializing? Is there a cap on how long you can do certain things?
There are, um, sexual boundaries, which are about exploration and safety. What are you comfortable doing with your partner, and the like.
There are also intellectual boundaries, which are important during discussions and arguments. How do you respect or approach the input of others? What do you do if you feel it's time to step back from the conversation? Are there behaviors that might make you feel like you're not being listened to?
Lastly, there are material boundaries, regarding your possessions. Do you let others borrow your stuff without permission? What will you absolutely not share?
These are all big questions and a lot to think about, but I invite you to right down some of the boundaries that you know for sure should be put up—and feel free to talk about it with your friends or those here!"

Ive done BJJ for a 2.5 years and various striking for about 4 years. Have had some judo in MMA (I have learned maybe 15 throws/sweeps but cant really hit any of them in sparring), but only a fraction of the standup as compared to ground work. However even with very intense rolls I know how to stay calm and relaxed and just go with sweeps/takedowns.
I compete in BJJ and I joined a small judo group (informal club) to improve my standup. The group is 4 black belts and one green belt. Im very relaxed when doing randori as I have done a lot of sparring. I let people get entries and dont force things if I dont get a good entry. I dont defend very hard when someone gets an entry and just go with the throw.
I was sparring with the green belt practicing. I was mainly doing a defensive drill I learned which was just to gently off balance my partner as soon as one of their legs comes off the ground. I really enjoyed it and stopped all his attacks with gentle pulls which I thought was pretty cool.
My partner though was very tense (like a spazzy white belt in jiu jitsu). He fought any entries at 100% so I stopped trying and just hit the off balances. I could tell he was ramping up his intensity so I let him get three entries to tai otoshi and just went with the throw. I denied all foot sweeps just out of habit.
The fourth time I let him get the entry, but resisted the tai otoshi. He grapevined my leg and destroyed my MCL. My leg was 100% pinned and couldnt move in any direction. This was frustrating since it was my second class. I had been taught before do not grapevine legs as a beginner because that is how you destroy knees
When he was sparring with one of the black belts afterwards he was going very hard and denied everything the blackbelt tried. The blackbelt was being gentle and calm and wasnt able to hit anything due to the intensity/speed of the defense.
I feel like this is partially my fault since i resisted, but I feel like it is mostly green belts fault because he was sparring too hard and ramping up the intensity. But it is also black belts fault because black belt hasnt coached him to calm down in sparring. But is this more green belts fault or more my fault, or a problem with the club? The rest of the club doesnt do high amplitude throws, the style is mostly sweeps and trips which is why I picked them.

The rules say self-dx is allowed sooooo
Also this was written originally with a doctor or psychologist who would already know who I am reading it in mind, so if there's any missing context I'd be happy to provide!
Different topics are marked with dashes
I tend to fidget with random objects and like to have at least one thing to mess around with in my pocket (ex. a yoyo, some legos, a rubber band, my phone's popsocket). I also used to (until 6th or 7th grade I think?) keep a bag of random stuff I collected that I like. Stuff ranging from bunch of erasers (some in interesting shapes), a bookmark I drew on to look like a ninja, some origami ninja stars, coins. Some of these objects are several years old, but I kept carrying them around just because. I would also play with them as toys to fidget around with or create stories with.
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There are some things I do or used to do that seem like they could be stims
Possible stims:
Making and popping a bubble using my saliva/mouth
Pushing saliva out of my mouth (did this as a kid)
Beatboxing, I do this like all the time for absolutely no reason
Hitting things to make a beat as if they were drums
Making pop sounds with my mouth, often melodic
Wiggling my toes (I do this a lot since it's easy to hide)
Whistling (maybe????)
I sometimes do these dances when I'm alone and often when I'm excited, and I've just now realized that that's 100% a stim
I stim pretty much all the time, now that I'm thinking about it. Sometimes to at once lmao. Way more than a lot of other people in school.
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I do "raptor arms" sometimes. It also feels more comfortable and natural to have my arms bent like that than to have them straight. If this is because of autism, then I often mask the behavior by putting my hands in my pockets or behind me.
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Certain feelings I dislike:
Dry hands on paper
Sharp fingernails getting caught on clothes
Sand in certain places
Smell and maybe taste of bubblegum (gives me a headache, haven't tasted in a while though)
Certain types of soft fabric, especially when the part of the body it's on is dry
Cold liquids, I hate having water with ice in it and usually won't put ice in other drinks if I have a choice, unless they're warm and and need ice
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I'm often the last person to understand a joke, or sometimes I won't realize until I hear it another time (like in movies and games)
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Entirely speculation, but I feel like my mind works differently the others. I have nothing to compare to, but something just feels different in the way I think.
Like, example: the way I write a lot of these things is in a very strange way, almost like talking about myself in 3rd person, or as if im talking about another person. Like, when I think and talk about my feelings, its in a very analytical and logical way, as if im talking about the way someone else is feeling. Is that a normal way people think?
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Eye contact is difficult most of the time
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Writing/typing to people is often easier that talking (which is why I'm writing all this instead of saying it). Kinda like selective mutism.
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I get overwhelmed sometimes and need to take a break in a cool, quiet place (so if I'm feeling overwhelmed on the main floor of my house and the tv is on, I'll go up to my room or the basement where it's usually quieter and a colder temp. Or sometimes during a party, I'll hang out in a more quiet room or the bathroom for a bit to have a break.
I remember one time I was at my cousin's house and all the adults were arguing about politics (as they do), and I went off and sobbed in another room because I was probably overwhelmed. And this happened relatively recently, so it's not like I was a kid who didn't know what was happening and just cried because I was scared. This sounds kinda like a meltdown?
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I have trouble determining intentions or obvious things and other stuff like that. Most easily seen when I watch movies. For example, I was watching a movie with my friends one time, and figured out something interesting. I pointed it out to my friends, but they said something like "well yeah obviously". Happens a lot, I don't realize something that, in hindsight, was obvious.
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Possible special interests? (That's a thing with autism right?)
A mobile game called My Singing Monsters that I usually play daily and first found as a child. I know everything there is to know about this game, so if I'm on the spectrum it's def an interest
Minecraft (or at least I used to?)
Legos (though I lost this one recently. It was a bad feeling.)
Storytelling (if an interest can be as broad as that)
A game called deltarune (my favorite game and idk why lmao)
Music
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There's a few things I do that make no sense at my age.
I always want a parent to come up to my room and "tuck me in" at night. I can go without it but I do like it, even though it's very childish.
I put break oreo cookies apart and put them in a glass of milk, let them soak for a min, then fish them out and eat them with a spoon. Weird but it tastes great lol
As I (might) have mentioned already, I played with toys regularly up until some time last school year, which was 9th grade. I stopped playing with them around the same time I lost my interest in legos.
I still sit in the back seats of cars most of the time. I'm not sure why, but I just prefer them for some reason even though I should prefer the passenger seat. It's not even like a "I feel safer in the back seat" either, I just enjoy it for some reason. My mom often asks me why I still sit in back seats and I have no answer other than "I like it for some reason".
Similar to the car seat thing, I usually prefer to sit in one of two seats at the dinner table and feel kinda weird when I have to sit somewhere else
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I've always been a late bloomer. Most recent example is that until relatively recently, i just did not understand romance or kissing. I understand it now, but it took a few years longer than my classmates. Same with other stuff like that, and I still can't say curse words. It's like my body will not let me utter a curse word, even though im a teen and its acceptable, and i want to. Idk why I can't. Really annoys me
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I do this thing sometimes where I see a face or maybe a sound someone makes and I copy it for some reason. I really don't know why, I just do it. It happens sometimes when I read an expression a character makes in a book as well. I also steal most of my humor and jokes from others, which would be another form of this copying.
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I think I have a usual constant emotion. Usually I feel like 📷 or just kinda content. I might be faking a smile a lot, but im not sure at the moment (Figuring it out rn). I can feel emotions though. Usually happiness/thinking something is funny, sometimes sadness but less so than the others, anxious a lot in a bunch of situations. I also have this one memory as a kid where I realized I was similar to a character from some show who almost always had the 📷 face. Take that with a grain of salt however, because I barely remember it so chances are i got something wrong
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I've already mentioned the bag of stuff I used to carry around but there's a few other things I was and still am unreasonably attached to
A plushie of a minecraft enemy, I think I used to bring it places too sometimes?
My og pair of drum sticks. Had them since 4th grade and I get super upset when I leave them somewhere, I worry a lot that they will get stolen or something. I care about a pair of drumsticks like that. It's not reasonable lol
My phone, but I might be attached to it just because I'm a teenager and it's a phone lol
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Feeling empathy for inanimate objects. I don't have any examples at the moment of writing but maybe I'll come up with something.
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Other quirks and weird things I do that could be related:
I lay weirdly in bed sometimes, it's hard to describe. It's like I'm doing a plank, but putting a ton of pressure
I used to lay on my belly with my legs up when i was going to bed, sometimes swinging them around. I don't do this anymore.
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I get hyperfixations a LOT. Basically if I like something I might latch on to that something for a few weeks or months till I eventually am not interested. I also intensely hyperfixate when I do some activities. I'll be doing a hobby and either not realize or keep putting off that I need to do something, like pee or eat or drink.
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Social problems
I have a few social problems and difficulties.
It's weird; I can hold a conversation with a friend, family member, or some teachers (but not lead it) pretty easily, but with tons of other people I get anxiety or selective mutism or both. Basically I'm better when it's someone I know
While I can converse with people I know better than those I don't, no matter what there's a bit of awkwardness and sometimes confusion, at least on my end. Like I said, I can't really lead a conversation and when the other person runs out of things to say I often don't have anything to say and we just sit in silence for a few seconds.
I can barely do small talk. Best I can to is a somewhat humorous "so the weather, huh" in most cases.
I have trouble understanding sarcasm sometimes and differentiating between sarcasm and serious stuff. Not all the time, but enough to be annoying. It's even more difficult on text.
I have a very odd sense of empathy. I often don't feel it that greatly or.sometimws not at all, like I have to consciously think about it, but sometimes something just gets me in the right way. A good example is the recent earthquake in Turkey(?), which made me really sad when I saw it.
I do something I heard that might be a sign of autism, called parallel play. It's basically when you and another person hang out together but do different things. I do this with cousins or friends sometimes and I enjoy it! Idk why, maybe the idea of being with someone even if we're doing different things is comforting.
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I know that autistic people often have trouble making friends but I have plenty of friends rn. I met most of them through others however. Those original friends, I don't really remember how I got them. And in terms of childhood friends, like elementary school, I did have them but I don't remember how we met and I can't ask them because either they've moved away or I've drifted away from them.
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So, if I am on the spectrum, I must either be pretty low needs or I'm really good at masking my symptoms. I seem to be able to function pretty well with life, relative to others with autism. I just have some weird quirks about me. I do have a history of trying to find something wrong with me, I'll latch on to mental illnesses or disabilities sometimes and try to figure out if I have them. The only I've had a real possibility of having so far is some kind of anxiety disorder (but im not here to talk about that) and now autism or another neurodivergency.
Also worth noting, my parents, especially my dad, work with kids with learning disabilities and stuff like that daily (mom is a reading teacher, dad is a speech teacher and i think he used to work with kids with disabilities privately as a second job when my mom didnt work) so I feel they they'd know if I was on spectrum? Unless a) I'm low needs enough that they never realized or b) they're biased because I'm their child so they wouldn't think I'm on the spectrum at all, and would never test me or anything.
I'd mainly be getting this diagnosis for myself as I doubt I really need any help or something. I struggle with imposter syndrome and it's really drains me, so knowing a yes or know about something like this would make me feel a whole lot better (I hope). Maybe give me a bit more confidence. It would also help me understand myself a bit better because then I'd know that I'm not just a weirdo because I'm a weirdo, but that I'm a weirdo because of a disorder.
Thank you for reading!

Hi Internet cousins! Sorry for the long post. I need your opinion/ confirmation on a situation I’ve been slowly making moves on.
I go to Ren Faires(Texas based hmu) on the reg for the past 4 years & made friends w/ a group that go as frequently as I do & camp w/ them there. The thing with this group (and Ren faires in general) are that they’re all white. Whatever, it’s to be expected w/ this kind of thing. The group in general aren’t bad, it’s just like 3 people in the group that made me part my ways along w/ some other stuff.
One of the people is a girl who obviously’s NEVER had a black friend before & she’s trying waaay to hard. Every time this girl opens her mouth, something abt how she found out the N-word was a bad word, asking too many questions abt my hair, how the master bedroom has dark origins at the most random times. Girl… now or never is the time for this. I’m just trying to eat my turkey leg? The other offender is this doughy looking mf who’s made way too many comments abt how “white” I am. I’ve heard enough of that sh*t in highschool. I’ve made way too much progress loving myself to hear that. The last offender is someone who I genuinely thought would never pull what he did. This guy likes to lead the group in shanties when we walk around the camp for the after parties. One weekend he decided to make verses dedicated to his friends. He told me mine before he sang it. The end of the first verse was the word “digger”…. Of course he didn’t say it at the end of the second, but the audacity to think I’d enjoy any of that. I made sure I wasn’t there for the song. He got too comfortable & showed his true colors.
I’m the only black person in this group. It doesn’t mean anything, but I’m definitely the most attractive & put together in that group. They will definitely notice if I’m not there, but I don’t care.
My question is what should I do/ act when I eventually see them at Ren Faire this year? What should I say when they ask why I don’t hang with them anymore? Thanks y’all❤️

My Cumulative Hall of Fame: https://imgur.com/a/aamydqy
I played one version of every single main series generation from gen 3 to gen 9. Once a pokemon was present after defeating the champion or the final boss, they were added to a banlist and not to be used again. For example I used Gyarados in my first run, and didn't have him available for the other 12 games. I did this to prevent just using the same mons over and over again within reason. It worked for the most part, but I still ended up reusing some mons more than I like. For example, Geodude ended up on a lot of teams, but never made to an elite four team.
I didn't play them in strict chronological order, instead starting with BDSP, then moving onto Emerald, FireRed, Platinum, White, X, Alpha Sapphire, Ultra Sun, HeartGold, Black 2, Sword and Scarlet.
Some takeaways:

• I have a much deeper appreciation for the value of a lot of mons, shoutouts to Probopass, Sandaconda, Breloom, Medicham, and Klefki. That alone, made this a cool experience.
  
• I think there's a good reason as to why Emerald and Platinum are most folks' favorites, they were the most fun for me too. Brilliant Diamond gets honorable mention too
  
• Brilliant Diamond was fun since it was my first ever nuzlocke and I beat it on the first try, but that game is fucking hard. I have rewatched PC's HC run with no status moves a bunch of times and I might try that sometime in the future to build up my skill.
  
• Ultra Sun was fun but incredibly stressful. Hardest game of them all for me, period, no debate needed. It was fun, but I'm never doing that again, fuck that game. I wrote a reddit post about this recently if you want to know more about why I feel this way. There's a reason it is almost impossible to find the major streamers running this game with any level of recency.
  
• The Switch games, aside from Brilliant Diamond, just flat out suck to nuzlocke. Not being able to shut of the exp share and complicated ways of randomizing encounters are only the start of the issue. The larger issue being that these titles are unoptimized which makes lagging/crashes just another thing to play around. Scarlet was the worse of the two in this regard. Whenever there was rain or just a heavy set to load, I was down to like 10fps. I have a decently old switch, not sure if that was a factor, but it was so frustrating. Two crashes before the 2nd gym and I had enough. I emulated it and it was even worse, but rare candies and speed up was worth the trade off.
  
• Back to actual gameplay: For sword encounters I ended up looking up the encounter rates on Serebii and using a 1-100 number generator to pick my encounter whenever I used the overworld. I tried to use random in the grass as much as possible unless there was nothing of interest there. This was satisfying enough, and felt like it struck a good balance between random and strategizing.
  
• For Scarlet however, I never found a solid solution. First, I tried the tools online. I got Houndour for my first encounter in the first province you gain access to, and ran around for an hour, but couldn't find it. I accidentally ran into a much higher level Litleo during my search, and it ended my first run. I ultimately ended up using tera raid dens to randomize my encounters which made me feel so disconnected from the world. I was essentially sprinting past the hard-to-load zones with tons of lag to get to my next raid den or boss fight, then repeating the process. Additionally the encounter quality went from frustratingly bad to boring once I caught some good mons. It was the same reason a lot of folks find randomized runs unengaging. The game is hard until you catch something overpowered, and then the rest of the game is a breeze.
  
• My biggest takeaway of this experience is that I am very concerned for the future of nuzlocking new titles if they continue in the direction we are headed in. I am not sure what a solution looks like, but I am hoping the folks at gamefreak understand that some of their most loyal fans really enjoy playing the game this way, and add some features to make it easier to play the game the way we want to. I know they view us as cheaters or something right now, but I feel like that's mostly just a misunderstanding that can be overcome with the proper advocacy. They added a challenge mode to B2W2, maybe one day they can take that a step farther and offer some extra settings specific to nuzlocking. They probably won't, but a man can dream
  

I grew up towards the end of the free range child era and with that comes a lot of stupid close calls stories. I just found this sub and it brought some of those memories back, so I thought I'd share!
Story #1
My parents bought a house at the very edge of a developing subdivision. Backing right up to our backyard was a cow field full of black angus steers. I assume those boys have long since been bought off the shelf at the meat section of a grocery store. Anyways, from time to time, a cow would figure out it could slip between the barbed wire and end roaming our neighborhood. A favorite past time of mine was to play cowboy and "herd" these thousand pound animals back into the pasture. I was probably 9 or 10 at the time. It's a wonder I never got my ass trampled.
Story #2
Well after a few years, the cows were moved and the pasture was opened up for further development. This meant that there were multiple construction sites wide open for us kids to explore with reckless abandon. My brother and I loved to play in the "quicksand" that formed after a heavy rain.
Let me explain. These construction sites were incredibly muddy due to the leveling that had to be done prior to houses being built. After a heavy rain, the mixture of mud and sand and water would form, well, quicksand. And I mean the real deal. If you stood in this stuff, you would sink. I recall one particular time where I managed to sink in as far as my waist and was having an absolute blast while my brother played rescue hero pulling me out. I remember the mud was like a suction cup once it had you. You couldn't pull someone straight out, you had to pull yourself horizontal and let someone else drag you out with a rope. We thought it was so cool, just like on TV! Yeah, it's a miracle, I tell you.
Story #3
As the development on the neighborhood continued, so did the placement of vital infrastructure. Namely sewer pipes. Yeah, you know where this is going. Miles of massive concrete pipes stretching underground in total darkness? "Sign me up!" Said kid me.
My brother and I would wander that sewage system on the days the workers had off. We were smart enough to leave a trail so we could find our way out again...just not smart enough to not crawl around in a sewer in the first place.
Story #4
On one of the few occasions I stayed in my own backyard, I happened upon this bush with nice, pink flowers that my mom had planted. My lil ADHD ass loved to pick leaves and crumble them up in my hand. Don't know why. My eyes set on my newest victim and I plucked one of the long, pointy leaves to crumble. It produced a clear, sticky sap that wouldn't come off my hands, so I did the most logical thing and licked it to clean it off. Yeah, kids are gross.
Well, to my horror and amazement, this sap was the most blood curdlingly bitter taste that my little taste buds ever did taste. So what did I do? I immediately found my brother and we competed to see who could lick the most bitter sap. What was the plant, you ask? Why, it was oleander, of course.
Story #5
I loved catching creepy crawlies in the garden. As a young kid, you could catch me tearing up the weed guard in mom's garden to see if there was anything cool living underneath. On one such occasion, I remember seeing, out of the corner of my eye, a little, white, wiggling worm.
I turned to stare at my latest find. I'd never seen anything like it. The way this worm danced in and out of the mulch, the way it's two heads flickered. I reached for it, wanting a closer look. Suddenly, there was a flash of white and then it came into focus. It wasn't a white worm. It was the flickering tongue of a cottonmouth viper. Fun fact: they're called cottonmouths because the inside of their mouths are white! They open their mouths and reveal the white inside when they feel threatened.
Story #6
Somehow surviving my adolescence, I ventured down to the beach for vacation one year. It was the evening, my parents were chilling in the spot they'd claimed, and I was screwing around by the tide. About 13 or 14 now, I considered myself quite the photographer. I picked up just about any critter I found to snap a selfy with. Crabs, sea urchins (yeah as if those weren't bad enough), and of course...shells.
I was amazed when I found this perfectly intact, cone shaped shell. It was so pretty, just like the ones sold in the gift shops! Oh, and there was a funny little snail guy inside! I peered at my new friend and took absolute delight in the little leg he prodded my hand with before I eventually tossed him back into the sea.
I found out years later. Yeah, cone snails don't have legs.
So that's all I got for now. I survived to adulthood, somehow, and now I'm a homebody with anxiety. Who woulda thought!

Hey folks!
I'm considering spoiling myself with a new component; currently looking at the 3060/3060 Ti. Been rolling with the build below for a few years and I'm wondering if there's another area that might be wiser to upgrade first. I've got plenty of wiggle room with my power draw vs. supply. From what I've read the 1080p monitor might not be ideal for the visual output the 3060 can produce.
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Cooler - Cooler Master Hyper 212 Evo CPU Cooler, 4 CDC Heatpipes, 120mm PWM Fan, Aluminum Fins for AMD Ryzen/Intel
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