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I've told this story so many times that my larynx hurts. I've dictated it so many times and then had to go back and correct the mistakes I'm working on carpal tunnel as well. Anyway as you can tell I'm at that point of the day where I felt I should share but what's the point? I work in an industry where I'm a painter of sets and such for corporate events and plays and things like that. So out of the blue they decided when you get day to use isisyanite-based primers and paints and we did it over the weekend and I was exposed for close to 16 hours with only a 3M gas mask with a regular filter in it. The sprayed product was called chassis saver. If you want to look up the MSDS you're going to have to type in chassis saver MSDS. It's got a whole smorgasbord of fun like methyl diisocyanate mixed with aluminum flake? That was shot out of an HVLP gun under pressure in a closed Warehouse because it was seemed outside so there was no ventilation for 2 days. I had ... okay let's just quit trying to give anybody to benefit it out here and say I had no protection whatsoever. Cuz if I'm going to mention the 3M mask but not the fact that I need a full body suit gloves full face mask with supplied oxygen and I'm supposed to leave all of my clothes at work including my shoes and not get it on my skin along with proper ventilation? Well none of that was done. First off because we weren't worried about the danger secondly none of that stuff is available to us at work and thirdly I wasn't even the one using the stuff. Didn't matter I still became concerned when the room was a silvery cloud of toxins so after a couple weeks when I realized I was asthmatic and having reactions every time I went to work? My GM had me apply for workers comp and sent me home for 4 days. Then I was asked to come back to work to help and the symptoms started again. It took me a while to figure out what was going on by doing some reading on OSHA and the CDC. Plus all the other articles and case studies. It all lined up it was obvious that I didn't kind of get exposed... I was immersed in it. That includes breathing it having it in my eyes eating after using it no ventilation and wearing the same clothes home along with getting some on my skin when I was helping him clean up afterwards. Poured it on the side of my abdomen because it was in a mixing cup. It felt really good. Anyway, as soon as this hit corporate everything went s*** house crazy. I continue to go to work for 4 weeks and see the doctor that they had sent me to and since I've been self-employed my whole life as a portrait artist? That's my college degree it's a BFA and fine arts. Probably kiss my oil painting career goodbye. So they got rid of the job I had and any other talents I could fall back on. Anyway yeah this is going to be kind of a sarcastic post so enjoy it. What doctor was I send to that was an expert on chemical exposure with isocyanates and occupational acquired asthma? What was the name of that place it's famous like the Mayo Clinic but instead it's everywhere and oh yeah Concentra. You know the place you go to and the doctor runs a stethoscope all over you and says he doesn't hear anything to indicate asthma even though it sounds like there's a kitten stuck in your throat? Then he tricks your blood pressure and says it's normal even though it's rising quickly? He asks you why you're there and nods his head and you can tell in his mind he's going "well that's like a total s*** show. If I do what the insurance adjusters are telling me to do I'm basically sending this guy back to work to die. So let me get on that" I would come in and he would look at me and say so what do you want to do today and I would say I don't know maybe doctor stuff like check me see if I have asthma I don't know what the tests are for us to cyanide exposure? You're the doctor what do you want to do? Oh you want to go okay well be sure and sign that box telling me to return to work because he can't find any injury or evidence of exposure. Thanks. Oh this week you want to do blood work. But you only want to test for the most extreme exposure the kind that would cause neurological damage and okay. So he sends off the blood test tells me it'll be a week. And remind you I'm going back to work every day and getting re-exposed to all the stuff that I'm now allergic to and it's damaging my lungs and I'm coughing so hard my lungs are starting to separate from the wall my back. It's funny it's hilarious you know but at least they're saving money. They get to watch it and hear it but you know... buck up cowboy. You shouldn't smoke. Yeah y'all managed to do more damage to my lungs in 18 hours than I did in 47 years of light smoking. Seriously five cigarettes a day maybe. No history of asthma no history of allergies other than penicillin. I always watched other people just go through miserable seasons I mean just I swollen shut it's not running down their face and I thought how lucky I am. So my job decided that wasn't fair and locked me in the building with a chemical that destroyed a town in India. And they only used it that one time and decided they didn't like the properties of it. Probably cuz it's not meant to be put on wood but that's what the chassis saver was for was to give it sort of a metallic quality so they can roll the what yeah that's right bed truck liner on it that was day two and early the next day. When everybody was at work. When we were applying this stuff they were only two people there me and my supervisor. So if you look at the time clock it tells you when and who was there. If you look at when this stuff was purchased and under what project the stuff was charged to? what client? While we were doing a huge project for caterpillar that they were having out in Las Vegas. Don't know why one of our designers figured that bed liner would be a good idea for some of the staging when you can achieve that with paint and clear coat. But that's what he wanted. So so much for avoiding it just because it's not necessary. In the state of Texas you can't sue your employer for personal injury unless you can prove gross negligence. I would say that kind of falls where we're at. Unfortunately the other thing in Texas is that there aren't many workers comp attorneys because in 1993 they passed some laws that made being a workers comp attorney a tricky thing and you can lose your license really easy. In other words it was a very business friendly law to get companies to move here. Especially when you couldn't get sued for you know sending someone on fire or destroying their lungs and life. So a lot of people can get a worker's comp attorney even if they're a crappy one. But most of them that claim to be workers comp attorneys? They're actually just want to hear your stories so they can see if there's a personal injury lawsuit in there due to gross negligence cuz that's the only way they're going to make any money in this state and if it's a chemical exposure? I've been told by several attorneys who had extreme sympathy for my situation that they couldn't even refer me to an attorney that would take my case hey there's no attorney that's going to touch a chemical exposure case in Texas because it's already tough enough. Well I've been put the ringer lied to followed by a private investigator in the whole time I've been on represented and doing all the paperwork myself which they throw at me everyday usually it's fake stuff or stuff with the wrong date or deadline on it they mess with any attempts I get to find another diagnosis when they know damn well what happened on what day and with what products and who was there and when you know there's just no disputing the fact of what happened and when it happened and that we weren't protected because they don't have that kind of stuff there for PPE. we don't use that stuff so why would we need supplied oxygen masks. If I'm spraying something with metal paint mixed with silo I put on a 3M mask and use it organic filter and keep an eye on when it's starting to wear out even then? I'm not going to get leukemia or brain cancer for another 30 years well after I'm not working for them anymore so they've got that going for them and as do I. And this happened back in February 25th and I was sent home immediately because they were extremely concerned but they be suddenly became unconcerned about 4 days later I guess cuz corporate got involved and told me to come back into work and I spent another four weeks getting worse and worse and worse having the weekends to try and recover but not completely so I would start off at a level of irritation and asthma that was already underway when I returned on Monday. This was fun. Because even though they can see it they would just blame it on my smoking which is hilarious because you know life and for that weekend I wasn't allergic to anything in that building for two and a half years and I'm one of two people in the paint department so it's not a huge crew I'd say there's about 30 people that work there and probably too many people in the front office getting paid too much just sitting air conditioning. I mean they do work but you know if they had the chance they'd probably urinate on your face. That's not fair. They would wait till you run conscious from toxic exposure to gases anyway. Or they would but the workers comp adjusters do that for them. I mean they pay them for a reason and it's not help the employee so? Why am I talking to them again without an attorney oh yeah see above. So yeah they're just having a good old time they're beating me like a pinata making me run around like an idiot and freaking me out with letters and false deadlines that after a while I began to realize it being seriously gas lit I stopped playing nice guy and started recording phone calls and screenshotting text messages to make sure they got saved and save me everything in files and whenever they screwed up and intentionally put the wrong deadline on a Federal form like a FL la form from the Department of Labor anything like that? I would call him about that and record the response. One of my favorites was well that was just a suggested date because you know if you got it done sooner then you would get the paperwork done sooner and everything you get done sooner and you know just faster. Well yeah I understand how that works Einstein thanks I understand the whole concept and time and speed Mass velocity whatever. I swear to God they treat me like Chaka from Land of the Lost. They're all like 30 years younger than me and about to lose their jobs to AI but hey it'll be funny to watch. Won't need all those people running CAD machines and designing stuff after a few years. But let them enjoy it while they can anyway back to my career being ruined so they've just been having a good old time calling me and then they sent out a private investigator to harass me and want to talk to me until finally I just exploded and said what is it exactly you want to talk to me about.? I've been advised by everybody I know who is an attorney who may not be working in workers comp but they are an attorney? That I should never ever meet with a private investigator especially one that's a third party. You know one that's hired and not actually from the company. Cuz then he's not bound by the laws of an attorney or a police officer or an investigator he can do what he wants. Especially since he wanted to just talk to me and fill in the details of what happened that day. You know what caused the accident. I asked him what kind of forum is this going to occur in he said we could meet anywhere you want we can meet at McDonald's but I'm sure you don't want people here in your private information and I told him I don't like McDonald's anyway so I don't know I guess maybe after I get done with this doctor and have a solid diagnosis of asthma and something to stand on I'll be ready to comment. But until then I'm not meeting with you without an attorney in the room and probably even after I'm not going to meet with you without attorney in the room. So now it's come to this thing where I do have a doctor that's helping that was accidentally in their Network because I guess it slipped to the radar that they had an actual doctor that would do spirometry and asthma testing. of course they're messing with her a lot. I get your phone calls I get weird texts everybody has assured me that I'm obviously being observed surveilled. I don't see anything but I don't care either because nothing to see. I'm not at work. Why would I have asthma at home? I'm sure there's some triggers out there but I haven't discovered yet but that'll be fun and something to do in my free time. Anyway they seem to be kind of stuck in this rut where they won't go forward or approve anything unless I meet with the private investigator. Finally I blew my stack and said that I have no obligation to me the private investigator I've made my statement they were two people in the room y'all know what happened y'all know what I'm saying was the result you're not allowing me to explore that so I would think the best way for y'all to fill in the gaps and figure out what happened and what the situation this is letting me go to a f****** doctor that treats me and actually trust me for the things that I claim I have. That way instead of treating me like I'm lying you can prove that I'm lying which won't happen because I'm not lying which is obviously what you know so what is it he wants to ask me about again oh yeah he wants me to fill in the details is he a doctor? No okay well how about you get a doctor to do it instead of somebody who follows people husbands and wives around looking for infidelity. So I still don't have an attorney and I called OSHA reported the exposure and all they did was call my workplace and say "hey, did you have an exposure there?" and they said "yeah, but we got rid of that stuff" and they said "okay great" slow clap into a face palm. Which you know, kind of blew my mind. Because I thought calling OSHA was starting a nuclear war. That they would be in there with clip boards and chemical detectors and wanting to know just what the hell happened here. Because they've been really hard on this chemical and they've been trying to educate the public but evidently calling and just asking if it happened and them saying "well we got rid of that stuff" . That's enough for them. never mind the fact it was an "exposure to isocyanates in the workplace that I was reporting" which is what they told me they were going to check on. I wasn't calling them to tell them that they had harmful materials in a building, so evidently the guy I'm dealing with doesn't understand exactly what the law is or what law I was trying to get them to acknowledge. Cuz that would help my case if there were questions posed by government officials and they had to tell the truth. Either way, if they reported the exposure?great. They followed the law and I would have that an admission that an exposure occurred .....or they didn't report it and it would look really bad and probably cost them some money. But to my dismay, OSHA is obviously a joke. At least here in Dallas. So it's been real fun, yeah it's been one disappointment after the other of people just saying "I know this is my job, but I'm sorry. looking at your situation I'm just not good enough talented or educated enough to take it on. I'm just one of those people takes the easy cases and if something looks difficult? Even if it's a matter of you possibly dying or living on the streets and your whole family getting kicked out and never having a proper diagnosis to have on your medical records to show other employers or people in the situations that you can't be in in the future? I'm going to go over here and handle this easy money case." I'm sure there are some attorneys out there that if they knew about me and my situation it'll be all over it because they like a challenge and realize that there's not much left to do. All the information that I have and phone recordings, some documentation of b******* that has accumulated over the past months. Because normally you know you'd call a lawyer at the beginning of the case and there wouldn't be anything there. But since they figured I was never going to get an attorney? It was just "hey let's whack the pinata guy" . If an attorney were to walk in at this point? We've got enough acts of malfeasance and fraud and deliberate dishonesty, misleading statements and instructions, recordings and plenty of Doom and gloom documents meant to make me quit give up or go away out of fear or exhaustion.....and all I have to do is just hand you this stack and explain to you what's going on and we could probably even find a case that had nothing to do with workers compensation and had more to do with fraud and gross negligence and just have fun doing that. I mean they've had their fun why not? I didn't go into this looking for a cash settlement I just wanted to be taken care of and as the law states it should be. But I'm really just kind of f****** done with the whole f****** thing because everyone I talk to everyone I talk to doesn't want to touch it. When you have workers comp insurance that doesn't have ANY (ZERO) doctors in their Network to handle workplace asthma? which is one of the most common workers comp claims it pretty much leads the pack with all the saw dust and gas fumes out there to breathe in. But no we didn't have any doctors that would treat that or even know how to treat that at all. in fact the ONE that I did find? had retired about 5 years ago. That was funny. it was always a interesting thing to find out that when you finally had an aha moment leading to a hopeful situation? That turned out it was actually just a straw man. Even dealing with the Texas agencies help with people who are going through workers compensation or having difficulties? It depends on how you get on the line there's nothing more extremely helpful to the point where they'll even call the adjuster to make them call you back and help you fill out your forms whereas there were others that are just generally irritated by the fact that you're even calling and don't know what you're talking about. Well believe it or not there are some people in this world that don't do workers comp for living and don't spend their whole time having to deal with it. Especially people that are self-employed portrait artists for most of their lives. I guess this long-winded rambling stream of consciousness is just what's going on in my head and I can tell you right now it ain't a lot of good things and nothing really positive to say about working for anybody under any circumstances and I wouldn't take anything that anybody said they were going to do for you as a fact. It's all good on paper and everything but when it comes down to it it's all about saving money and if it involves an injury that doesn't look good on their records they got to get rid of that and they really don't f****** care what happens to you. You could be dissolving with sulfuric acid on your body and they would tell you to get out of the Sun and quit smoking. And they just watch it happen until you were just a pile of just steaming you know white powder on the ground or whatever happens. Do I sound frustrated? Flippant "whatever. Didn't see that coming". So I guess if you're in Texas and you're an attorney that this work is compensation and you want your entire case handed to you and you can say that you want a chemical exposure case in Texas I've got it right here for you if not fine. If you're from out of state that's fine too if you'd like to file a lawsuit that they beat me with clowns I don't give a carrot to a donkey whether you do that or not. As long as we win the case and they suffer for their behavior. It's not all vengeance. I want but is owed to me by law. And I didn't get that instead I got financial destitution cuz they have not paid me a dime and I'm the runaround which is basically we won't honor your claim until you prove that you were injured on the job. Okay I can't do that unless I prove that I have asthma. So they send me to a doctor that doesn't treat me for asthma now he's my pcp. Finally I find somebody that can treat me what do they do they immediately start pulling the plug on everything saying that my time's up sorry this show's over quick turn off the lights but hold up a minute they were too slow and I was able to get in there and she's doing spirometry tests and everything but you know I know it's not going to be enough because that's why I need to do the super serious testing the kind that definitively says whether you have asthma or not and there's no doubt there's no doubt that these people can try and split hairs and make excuses. Then I get to try and type for the workplace which wouldn't be hard if I had an attorney because this in front of a judge and argue it this is the guy before this is the guy after he's got occupational asthma he worked here for two and a half years and then after that weekend where was the only two days out of the year that that chemical was present and being sprayed? After that he developed severe occupational asthma and an insensitivity to isocyanide due to acute exposure with absolutely no PPE or guidance instruction and now no help no financial help and the guys that I work with here in town that run the show don't talk to me anymore it's all corporate people that were states away and have no idea and don't care what the facts are they just want the positive outcome which is the one that benefits them. But we all know that. We wouldn't be in this form if we didn't know that. Ask for all of y'all that have had better luck congratulations. I am truly happy for you. I don't know where I'm going to be I know obviously you can tell where I am mentally right now and that if another person involved with the adjuster or my employers handed me a form fill out to get the thing that I need that ain't going to happen that they say would happen that won't? I'd wad it up and throw it back in their face without reading it and not worrying about what they say will happen if I don't fill it out. Because they know if I fill it out and sign it or if I don't fill it out and sign it? It wouldn't do a f****** thing. Unless it was an attorney wanting to get with me and get a retainer and all that stuff set up .....and get going. Because nothing.....everything else is just a f****** waste of time, gas and mental energy. It's just that's what it's designed to do... wear you down. You know the truth and you can't prove it and you start feeling like you're living in bad movie like invasion of the body snatchers or something. like I said, it's the ultimate definition of gaslighting. So if you're going through the same thing with workers comp? I feel your pain. I definitely have sympathies if your injuries are more severe or debilitating than mine and you're being treated like this, but something needs to be done about the system because I'm quite aware of what it is now. I've had plenty of time to sit down and parse out what happened and watch videos listen to other attorneys talk read articles on the chemical and how not only companies and workers comp are reacting to it, but also the manufacturers themselves. For instance the CEO that wiped out that city in India? he showed up one day for court in India and then claimed he had to return to the states to take care of some business and never went back. India tried to extradite him for several decades. But instead? he was able to retire with a nice fat paycheck Savage whatever you want to call it and live out the rest of his days in Florida. And I guess he slept well at night knowing what he did. Union carbide. Bought by now Dow? Pretty sure they have never done anything wrong..... I'll have to double check that but I'm pretty sure on they are on up and up right? If they have the good attorney defend the behavior. I mean chemical companies they don't f*** around.... do they? anyway. whatever. I'm not too jaded to where I don't want to accept help or nail these f***. Or just get what I deserve. So take my post as a bit of Comedy or just a rant..... some venting. Maybe you feel the same way. Maybe it helps, maybe it doesn't. Just don't let it scare you cuz your case might be totally different than mine. I have an invisible injury and that's a s** place to be. Just like growing up in Texas. Well I guess it's time to lay down on the couch and play video games. How much is something like that pay?
My apologies if the punctuation spelling of what I've written up there (or actually dictated) has weird words that are completely out of contact in there somewhere. I dictated this because I'm so f****** tired of typing and I'm really tired of going back over what I wrote and fixing the grammar and trying to make it not look insane? It's just fatigue and I just thought I should get this out there in the Reddit forum. I'm a member of some other groups, but you know... first time listener first time caller

This is an outtake from the L.A. (Light Album) sessions. How do you feel about this song? What are some of your favorite lyrics? How would you rank it among the rest of the band’s discography? How would you rate it out of 10 (decimals allowed)?
Studio version
SUGGESTED SCALE: 1-4: Not good. Regularly skip. 5: It’s okay, but I might have to be in the right mood to listen to it. 6: Slightly better than average. I won’t skip it, but I wouldn’t choose to put it on. 7: This is a good song. I enjoy it quite a bit. 8-9: Really enjoyable songs. I rank them pretty high overall. 10: Masterpiece, magnum opus, or similar terminology.
Rating Results 1. Good Timin': 2. Lady Lynda: 3. Full Sail: 4. Angel Come Home: 5. Love Surrounds Me: 6. Sumahama: 7. Here Comes the Night: 3.43/10 8. Baby Blue: 9. Goin’ South: 10. Shortenin’ Bread: — 11. Brian’s Back:

Just completed the 1247km long Carreta Austral in Chilean Patagonia on my rigid steel frame Breezer Radar X running 29 x 2.25 inch tyres tubeless. The bike is about 14kg (31 pounds with pedals and a Brooks B17 special saddle) unloaded and when fully loaded with by bikepacking gear (tent, clothes, tools, water, sleeping system, food etc) is about between 28 to 30kgs (61 to 66 pounds). The bike was very supple and comfortable on most of the trip including the 500kms of gravel (el ripio) and no complaints on ride feel on the washboard and the worst of the ripio (tennisball sized rocks on gravel against strong headwinds) when running lower pressures on the i25 WTB rims.
However on this trip I found myself wanting a lower granny gear a lot of the time on the muchmore steeper gradients especially on rocky gravel. The gearing was stock with an FSA direct mount 38T chain ring and an SRAM 11x 42 cassette. The only times I used the 10th and 11th gear was on big downhill sections that were too fast (over 50kmph) to keep pedaling even at over 100 gear inches in highest gear. But some of those Patagonian climbs were so tough and steep that I had to walk the bike many times in order to save the quads and knees and my heart from getting into the dangerzone.
The stock gearing provides a granny gear of around 26 inches and the tallest gear was a bit over 100". Am considering doing the GDMBR and would love to get a lower gear to prevent having to walk and get off the bike. I have a 30T FSA direct mount chain ring as spare that came with the bike and that would get me almost two lower gears and bring the granny gear down to around 20.7 inches. I don't think I would miss the top end (because the bike would be loaded and it would be off-road). Because even on flat bitumen road and unloaded I find 9th gear (3rd smallest casette cog is where I stay the most can get a good cadence and speed that feels right and optimum for cruising for many hours. This is roughly about 80 gear inches as being perfect for high end under flat normal conditions.
Dropping to a 30T chainring would mean my highest gear is about 80 gear inches (a sacrfice), but this would be offroad (and loaded) and on lower pressure tyres and the lowest would be as mentioned before about 20.7".
Am I going to run into issues swapping out the direct mount FSA chain ring from 38T to 30T. Would it be as simple as changing the chain ring (with the right direct mount tool) and shortening the chain by a few links? Would there be any need to change spacing at the crank and chainring or it is just install and ride?
Forgive me for asking any silly questions but I am not that knowledgeable about derailleur setups after coming off a belt driven Alfine 11 IGH that I use as a commuter bike for last 10 years.
I have read about some people running 11 x 46 cassettes on the Apex 1 with no issues apart from adjusting the B screw (but that seems more complicated and expensive to just changing the chain ring. But obviously if I can get as low as 19 gear inches with a 30T chainring and a 11x 46 cassette I am all ears.
Basically I am really wanting to find a much lower gearing for my groupset without too many changes and without breaking the bank as this bike is not built for racing but is a pack mule loaded to get me to where I need to go without killing these 48 year old knees.
Has anyone had experience of lowering the gearing on an SRAM Apex 1 for steeper gradient climbs and how did you go about it?
All and any advice appreciated?

I just started shrimp keeping and have 2 blue dream shrimp right now, 1 came pregnant and the other i think is male but I'm not sure. I'm moving them to a 5 gallon tank soon and the pregnant one seems like it will give birth soon based on the eyes on the eggs and how she's been hiding. Would it be best to move her while pregnant, move her and the shrimplets soon after she gives birth, or something else? the tank they're currently in is 2 gallons, ph 7.7, and gh around 120ppm, the new one is ph 7.1 with a gh of about 140ppm

Two linked poems, the second one has paint colours from a local company...
Red
Finally the time to release the feelings I had long suppressed. I slowly sank the silver blade four inches into her chest.
Her eyes widened in surprise as she cried out in pain. She tried again to resist, her efforts all but vain.
Blood flowed freely from the gash, velvet snakes slipped to the floor. Her tears melted with blood as she fought to win the war.
The crimson streamed across her chest, her eyes lost their willful shine. Red was never her best colour, but it had always been mine.
Colour My World
Pink Ribbon I ambled up the path to my house, mind lost in the thoughts of the upcoming gymnastics competition. I hadn’t felt this happy since Granny... XOXO
“Lucy!” A voice sliced through my thoughts as Jojo raced towards me, arms wide, chubby legs pumping. The tutu she wore was victim to the mud that covered her, the earthy brown nearly covering the... Pink Lace
She placed a muddy hand on my cheek as I scooped her up into a hug, her dimpled cheeks freckled with spatters of mud. The purity of her soul calmed my thoughts, reminding me of... Elderflower
I dropped my bag by the door and placed an eager Jojo on the ground. She tore off down the hallway dragging me in hot persuit, stopping only to blow a kiss towards the now empty room my Grandmother had meticulously painted... Buttercup Yellow
I followed Jojo to discover her squatting on the ground next to a pile of mud with a barbie doll stuck in the middle. “Tadaa!” She exclaimed in pride, ushering me to her ‘cake’. I hugged her, breathing in her scent of... Fresh Lemon
I looked up as a shadow covered my baby sisters creation. “Go inside Jojo,” I say nudging her away. “Hello Uncle Keith,” I said to the emotionless man that had taken over the role of parenting my sister and I. He remained wordless, beckoning me to follow him as he sauntered to the shed, watching me through eyes of... Olive
I opened my mouth to cry out as he shoved me into the tin box. “If you scream, she is next,” said that cold, calculated voice, a finger pointing to the window where I could see two muddy hand prints and the worried face of a two year old. I closed my mouth, ready to... Surrender
He shoved me into the shed, up against the wall. For a long second, there was nothing. Then excruciating pain shot through my chest and I felt the blood begin to trickle. I gasped out devoid of all hope that Jojo would be ok. Suddenly there was... All Black
Everywhere I turned, the nothingness surrounded me. I lashed out desperately trying something, anything. I could feel it covering me completely, invading my very cells, burying me in utter darkness. Suddenly, I saw... Merino
It was faint, distant, but definitely there. I reached out to grab it and felt laughter and happiness shoot through me, the physical embodiment of joy. I felt it pull me tightly, not in a claustrophobic way but like the embrace of a mother. I was surrounded by... Kaleidoscope
The colours whirled around me like ducklings to their mother, each of them transforming into memories. I watched my Grandmother teaching me to knit, observed the first time I held Jojo, my first successful cartwheel in Gymnsatics. My happiest moments blanketed me in a feeling of... Tranquility
Each memory subsided into a peaceful blue, my favourite colour. My heart was filled with happiness and tranquility, an eternal escape from the loss that my life had become. I knew it would not be long before I saw my baby sister once more. With that thought in my head and the colours in my heart, I began to wait for Jojo

Hello, looking for help diagnosing an issue I've run into, my pc freezes and crashes 5 mins into fifa 23. The menus all run fine, but when i load into a division rivals match and play, it freezes, and then the pc restarts. (ingame settings all low, running at native 1080p)
Ive logged monitoring stats in HWinfo, and I can share the file, if someone could help me understand if anything's wrong.
PC specs -
Cpu - intel i5-12600kf with cooler master hyper 212 argb turbo fan- all core overclock to 4.8ghz, disabled c states and all e cores
Gpu - amd rx6600xt (msi mech 2x) - no oc, stock fans, on nimerzone drivers 23.4.1 (22.5.1 kernel)
Ram - 16gb ddr4 corsair vengeance 3200 (single stick)
Drives - Samsung 980 NVMe M.2 500 GB SSD (game root dir), 1tb WD Seagate hard drive
MOBO - MSI Pro Z690 A DDR4
PSU - Antec CSK 650W 80 Plus Bronze Series 650 Watt Power Supply
Case -Ant Esports ICE-280TG White Mid Tower Gaming Cabinet
This is the HWinfo log file. Where it ends is where the pc crashed.
[https://u.pcloud.link/publink/show?code=XZ5yiEVZh8PkYhzMwnSKWPhBKS36NyOSbqaV]
Ive tried reinstalling drivers, it hasn't helped. Im on the latest preview update of windows (KB5026443). Other drivers are up to date. I have the game installed on Steam. Also this only started happening after the latest update, i had no issues like 3 months ago. I stopped playing then because my controller had issues. I play apex legends (lowest settings, cap to 144) and the game runs fine. Ive also tried verifying integrity of files on steam for fifa 23.
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Hi there,
I've had some success in the past reaching out on here to meet people to game with; however, they generally fizzle out. Yet, here I am again!
TL;DR Bullet points
- Name: Sage (Gamer name)
- Age: 32
- Location: Northern SoCal
- Education: BA in Geology; Religious studies. MS in Counseling.
- Job: Higher Education/PhD Student
- Hobbies: PC gaming, horror movies, youtube, starting to get into anime, theatre (on- and off-stage).
- ISO: Looking generally for another guy who has similar interests or charisma to add to my introverted sensibilities. gay AF.
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Hi there, I go by Sage. I'm 32 and live in the super south Central Valley/super north SoCal area. I've been working in Higher Education for about a decade now and am senior management at a university. I'm currently working on my PhD in Education. I'm pretty run of the mill in my opinion. I enjoy PC gaming, horror movies, YouTube videos, and recently started looking into anime. I'm on season 2 of RWBY currently.
I'm ideally looking for someone to spend time with playing games or just co-existing, talking about our days or things in general. I am gay; however, that's not a requirement of who reaches out.
I would like to note that I'm not here to talk to straight guys looking to *experiment*. I don't have much interest in helping you in that way. Please only reach out if you have a genuine interest in connecting and talking/chatting.
Hope to talk soon! :)

If the reason is reflection, then how come so many blue stones? Got me confused because evasion seems to work great for me in terms of safety.

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I have read Isagi's light novel before so I decided to read others too. All of them are really good and give more depth to the characters.
When I read Rin's light novel I realised that he and Isagi were more similar than I thought.
From what I read I came to understand two things.
First, the team in which Rin and Sae played had sh*t players (just like Isagi's) and they simply can't handle the Itoshi's talents. They required someone to fully utilize them and as we know Sae is great a midfielder so even back then when he played as a striker he unconsciously played the role of a midfielder for them too. So I think he started realising that he was more fit to be a midfielder even before going to Spain.
Second, Rin's talent was not recognised. When Rin was younger he played on pure instinct and because Sae understood Rin's talent he knew how to give free reign to Rin. But after Sae left there was no one who could handle him. The team started loosing every game. The blame all went to rin because according to rin's teammates 'Rin was not as good as Sae' and they only lost because Rin could not replace Sae. So basically they now wanted Rin to coddle them just like sae had done before. With Sae it was possible because Sae was born to be a midfielder he had a talent for that. But how can you expect the same from Rin who was a pure striker.
Under all the pressure and insecurities Rin at last conceded. He fully changed his pure instinct play style which he had developed since he was like 6. He developed a new style so that his team could keep up with him. He stifled his talent with his own hands. This was the origin of Rin's puppeteer play style. The flow state we see today is nothing but Rin's original play style in full force.
It was also mentioned that because Rin couldn't play as a pure striker so he started loosing interest in it. But for the sake of the promise he made with Sae he still kept playing.
As a way to cope up with loosing the thrill in football he started watching horror movies.
Have you ever wondered while watching the second selection that if Rin is so good how come he was not well known like Kira? This was the reason. Basically, despite being one of the best strikers in Japan others thought he was sh*t because his team always lost the matches.
Isagi's ego was sealed because his team's environment was not suitable for a striker. Rin also sealed his talent because of his team.
They both weren't given the chance to grow fully. And now in Blue lock they have a second chance.
So I am really excited for the BM vs PXG match.

Alright, so I've been following a guide for the last few receptions/abno fights since I would've been stuck at purple tear forever otherwise, and the guide said something that caught my attention, something along the lines of "you don't actually need to do this but it's nice to get it anyways" when talking about chesed's realization. So, are the latter ones optional? Because i was just assuming that I needed to do all of them, like in LC. Im planning to do them anyways, but judging by the themes of the last two floors i can tell the realizations are going to be a pain in the ass (blue star is already bothering me enough).
The other thing i wanted to ask is... that was the hard part of the game, right? like, come on, 90% of the receptions in this part nearly gave me a panic attack (fuck you in particular rudolph), and it took me multiple weeks to get over them all. Surely, the rest of the game isn't as bad now that i have all of the cool key pages, is it?
...ill take any deck building tips

In terms of skills to practice before applying, level of knowledge needed, what the application process looks like. I'm graduating mid next year and very anxious about getting a job. These three are top of my list CommBank being no.1 and NAB being no.3
Any info, advice, and memes greatly appreciated.

Is anyone noticing the ai are cheating after playing for a few hours straight? I swear even with near perfect driving, just about an hour in suddenly so many red shells start appearing out of nowhere and back to back bloopers, blue shells and lightning in some races. This only seems to happen after a considerable play time, normally every time I boot up the game I play just fine and the ai are relatively easy for the first half hour or so. Just an hour later they start becoming much more aggressive on relatively simple tracks.

Sorry in advance if my spelling and grammar are incorrect cause english is not my main language
So here we go I 28(m) met with my 24(f) ex gf who left and ghosted me all this time in a birthday of one of my co-worker in a restaurant .She was there sitting in a corner with her long time friends that I recognize instantly.. My heart sank in that moment .it was all blur all of the sudden . When one of my co-worker friends said to me 'you look pale dude ,you alright ?'you're sweating too .I just said 'it's nothing' I immediately Pull my self together ,act like i didn't notice them .. I think they didn't notice me either, i guess it's because of how i dress now .. back when my ex and i are together i just wear casual t shirt and ripped jeans and my hair style is emo even when we're going on a date. My other co-workers who was waiting for us just shouts my name out of the blue and starts waving at us . I look back at the table where my ex and her friends are sitting.. They we're all staring at me that they look like they've seen a ghost or something .. I look away and sprinting to the table where my colleagues at ..as i sat on the table as i was not myself staring farther. Then i noticed my ex stand up from her sit and heading towards our table. Shit this is what i'm afraid of.For the past year after she left me i've been thinking even daydreaming of what i would say to her if we ever see each other again .And again i'm sweating, as she moves towards our table closer and closer she was staring at me .I can't even look back at her . Then she just past us and headed straight towards the women's bathroom. I felt relieved after that .. I immediately told my co-workers that i wasn't feeling too well and wanted to go home.. They said you really don't look that good .. and they said they understand .I grab my bag and apologize to my co-worker who was having his birthday there that invited me. one of my male co-workers insisted that he walk me through my motorcycle as we past through my exgf's friends I noticed they we're looking at me again .My colleague and I are at the parking lot , He said "becareful going home buddy,Dont rush and take a goodnight's rest" yeah i will (i replied) I saw my ex was coming out of the restaurant and was looking around .. i immediately full the throttle to rush out of there ..after 30min I was at my apartment.. i sat down in the couch connect my phone to the speaker and played worship songs .. I then prayed to god that the heavy feeling i'm having right now be lifted.. as i prayed I cried. I remember when my ex and i will go to the church ..and back then before we eat breakfast,lunch or dinner we prayed. All those memories of her and I are coming down like rain .The happy memories we shared together, the times we cuddled , the first time she kiss me. I cried and cried .. Then my phone rangs .. I pick up my phone to see who was calling it was just a number .. I already knew who it might be like most of you already know but out of curiosity i answered . I heard snobs at the other end she call me by my name .. I recognize her voice even after 6 years. She calls me to ask how am i doing. To which i replied 'I'm fine' ( mean tone ) "I ask her where the hell did you get my number?" I still ask that even though i know she got it from my colleagues at the restaurant .She said from your friends at the restaurant, she also said that they ask her of who she was, so she told them her name. And noticed that my co-workers was shock ..she tells me that they didn't want to give my number to her .well i know why cause my co-workers know about my past with her as i told them about it. And when my co-workers told her that they wouldn't give my phone number, she said she cried.. and one of my female co-workers gave it to her . I don't blame my co-worker for what she did maybe because i thought she took pity on her crying . She ask me if we could talk ..I replied 'yeah sure' i don't know why i said that maybe there's apart of me that want to know why she left me without saying goodbye and blocked me and ghosted me for 6years.. She then ask me when can i be available .. I told her the time,location and when ..Then she said goodnight . to be honest i don't know what i'm gonna do , i'm scared about this coming meeting with her . I don't know what i'm gonna say . I still love her even today .. i never again dated after she left me. After the conversation with her on the phone i lied in bed and didn't eat dinner .. I was just so exhausted both physically and mentally The next morning when i came in the office .. my co-workers ask if my exgf called . To which i replied "yes" my female co-workers where shrieking .. and ask about what we talked . I just said some other time .. my female co-workers and male co-workers was stunned and said my ex was very beautiful . I kinda bit shy after hearing that . And i said" i know , she still is after 6 years ". Well that's its for now .. I'll post again before and after we meet up .