I’d love to hear everyone’s opinions on Mac’s treatment of Donald MacDonald in S16 E2!
Yes, it could have just been a throwaway joke, like it is a funny way for Max to react upon being offered something he’s seemingly been searching for forever, and it also hurts someone outside of the gang, which is always a great way for them to go comedically, but it really seemed like something deeper to me.
My view of it is that Mac’s been acting like he wants parental figures for so long that that’s still how we (and Charlie) see him, but he’s 46 ish years old. He’s stubborn and set in his ways, and, deep down, knows that he’s found his own way in life by now and really doesn’t need parental figures anymore.
And, with the cigarette burn scene right before this scene, we’re reminded about how terrible all of his previous experiences with parental figures has been. So, while he acts like he wants his parents to act more parental, he pushes away an actual father figure because he is both afraid of how he might get hurt again, but he also knows deep down that he doesn’t need one anymore. The gang is his family now. (Or some sappy crap lol)
But again, I’m not positive at all and would love to hear more perspectives on this. I do think this could begin a really interesting arc for Mac, which I would love, as he’s my favorite character, and already had such a non-dialogue-y role in the first episode. It’d also be cool to see the characters of Mac’s Dad and his Uncle interact, I love how they’re still setting up new and old characters 16 seasons in!
(Was a bit confused by the lack of any cousins for Mac though, since we know of two gay ones, maybe Mac’s parents have even more siblings we’re yet to have revealed!)

I hope this note finds you well.
As we reach the second half of our milestone 150th year, I wanted to take this opportunity to provide our loyal members with an update on how we see ourselves tracking against our own expectations and goals for our future.
We are only at the beginning of implementing a long-term vision for our football program, but so far, we are pleased with what is transpiring on and off the field. Over the past eight months, there has been a cultural shift in the way we operate to ensure we are exhausting every avenue to improve as a football club and ultimately, achieve sustained success.
We want to build towards competing for flags before too long but, to do this, requires us to be clear about our processes and expectations.
In setting the tone for his first season, Ross Lyon emphasised that this is a year of exploration for our club. We’ve talked about accepting results as feedback and are looking beyond our win-loss tally, as we embrace new markers to judge our performance.
This is a year where we intend to find out about the capabilities of our list whilst trying to build our football brand and identity around the constant application of absolute effort above all else.
Positively, we are seeing initial signs that we are building something lasting. Among them player buy-in, consistent compliance to the game plan and a commitment across the club to prioritise football performance.
Early wins, despite the unavailability of key personnel, and the emergence of young players who have impressed despite their inexperience - coupled with a consistent display of effort from our senior core - are all strong indicators that the program is trending in the right direction.
We know this process will not be linear. Our recent form prior to the bye saw us deviate from our brand. This was subject to strong review from players and staff who believe they know what is needed to be done to move forward. We now have the perfect chance to begin the second leg of our season on the right note this evening against Sydney in the annual Pride Game.
Regardless of the result, we will stick the course and continue to focus on the process, and our commitment to becoming the best Saints we can possibly be. That is how we will reward our loyal members.
This extends to our women’s program who last week officially commenced their pre-season training, led competently by Head of AFLW Tessie McManus and Senior Coach Nick Dal Santo.
After two seasons in one calendar year, our group have a clean run at an exciting opportunity ahead. Bolstered by the additions through the trade period of former AFLW captain Steph Chiocci, All-Australian Jaimee Lambert, AFLW leading goalkicker Jesse Wardlaw and emerging leaders Natalie Plane and Serene Watson, we expect to take important strides forward as a program.
We anticipate the AFLW season to commence in August later this year and we urge our supporters to rally around the team as we continue our 150-year celebrations alongside our newest generation of players.
Last month, the club also officially completed Stage 2 construction of the Danny Frawley Centre (DFC) which now includes the addition of a community gym, yoga and pilates spaces, and mental health consulting suites, with a vision to launch DFC Psychology within the next 12 months.
It has been a successful first year of the DFC, led by Executive Director Kirstan Corben, and supported by CEO Simon Lethlean and the wider Frawley family, who have been instrumental on this journey.
The DFC has reached over 8,000 people with its mental health programs since its opening, and we expect this number to grow significantly as we widen our impact in the community.
To achieve this goal, we are once again calling on the faithful to help us raise funds for the DFC in the third iteration of Spud’s Game: A Match for Mental Health on Friday June 23 against Brisbane.
We would love as many Saints fans as possible to show up in solidarity of this important cause and in honour of club legend, Danny ‘Spud’ Frawley for who we are forever indebted to for his commitment to this club and this cause.
We hope to see you at the footy soon.
Take care,
Andrew Bassat

GALATIANS  
Chapter Four (https://esv.literalword.com/?q=Galatians+4)
 
-3. … we were enslaved [משעבדים, MeShoo`eBahDeeYM] to fundamentals [ליסודות, LeeYÇODOTh] [of] the world.  

“The word τα στοιχεια [ta stoikheia], the elements ... meant (a) the letters of the alphabet… (b) the elements of which a thing was composed, as the fire, air, earth, and water of which the world was thought to be constituted; (c) the elements of the universe, the larger cosmos, including the sun, moon, planets, and stars; and (d) the spirits, angels, and demons which were believed to ensoul the heavenly bodies, traverse all space, and inhabit every nook and cranny of earth, particularly tombs, desert places, and demented persons. These spirits were said to be organized like human governments. In Rom. [Romans] 8:38 Paul calls them ‘principalities’ and ‘powers.’ And vss. [verses] 9 and 10 of our present chapter indicate that he has them in mind in vs. [verse] 3. …  
Paul … includes in ‘the elements of the universe’ all sub-Christian ideas and observances, both Jewish and Gentile. He regards these ‘elements’ as slave drivers who frighten men with curses for not propitiating them by observance of special days and seasons, food taboos, dietary fads, and circumcision. In Christ he declared his independence of Fate, Fortune, Luck, and Chance, and from astrology, the counterfeit religion and bastard sister of astronomy, whose practitioners exploited the superstition that the stars controlled men’s lives from birth to death.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 521 & 522)  
“The elements of the world] A mere Jewish phrase, יסודי עולם הזה yasudey ‘olam hazzeh, ‘the principles of this world;’ that is, the rudiments or principles of the Jewish religion. The apostle intimates that the law was not the science of salvation; it was only the elements or alphabet of it.” (Clarke, 1831, vol. II p. 387)  

-4. But [אבל, ’ahBahL] as that was filled the time, sent forth, Gods, [את, ’ehTh (indicator of direct object; no English equivalent)] His son, born [of] woman, and subject [וכפוף, VeKhahPhOoPh] to instruction [Torah, Law].  

“The four words, το πληρωμα του χρονου [to pleroma tou khronou], the fullness of the time, express a whole philosophy of history. The Hebrew prophets and Jewish apocalyptists believed that their God was the creator of the universe and arbiter of the destinies of all men and nations. Nothing could happen that was not his doing, either directly or indirectly through angels and men. He had a time for everything, and everything happened exactly on time. … The completion of this present age would be marked by a blood-red revolution, in which all good men and good works would be ground under the heel of the tyrant, while the wicked reigned supreme. Then suddenly God would intervene with the lightning of judgment to snatch the world from the mouth of the bottomless pit and restore it to Paradise, whence it had fallen with the sin of Adam. Sorrow and sighing would flee away, and the Messiah would reign with the perfection of a theocratic king.  
At this juncture, says Paul, when the appointed period of history was ‘full,’ god sent his Son γενομενον εκ γυναικος, γενομενον υπο νομον [genomenon ek gunaikos, genomenon upο nomon], ‘born of woman, bοrn under law.’ … Jesus was not only born under law, but was subject to it all his life. ...The ‘yoke’ of the Torah demanded that he observe the customs of his forefathers, such as wearing phylactery and prayer fringes, ceremonial washing of hands before eating, giving thanks at mealtime, praying at stated times, bringing tithes and sacrifices, and obeying the Ten Commandments.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 522 & 523)  
Not to mention circumcision, kashrut, and the prohibition of associating with gentiles.  
“Sent forth refers to God’s sending of his Son from his pre-existent state in heaven (I Cor. [Corinthians] 8:6; Phil. [Philippians] 2:6-8; Col. [Colossians] 1:15-17). Yet this Son was born of woman. There is nothing in these words, or elsewhere in Paul’s letters, to prove or disprove that he knew the story of the miraculous conception. His point here is that the Christ, although he was the pre-existent Son of God, did not come into this world with a body composed of celestial substance, but was woman-born like all other human beings. … It was very different from the conception of royal sonship in Ps. 2, where the king is called God’s ‘Son; because he has been chosen to be the Messiah. In Paul, Jesus is God’s Son by nature, and his Christhood follows by virtue of this sonship. This belief was the fundamental cause of the split between the Jews and the Christians. The lowly birth, the obscurity of Nazareth, and the fact that Jesus was a common laborer, constituted a grievous scandal in the eyes of all who were expecting their Deliverer to come riding on a chariot of clouds wielding the lightning of judgment. Paul’s gospel contradicts every form of hyperspirituality that fixes a gulf between God and his material world. On the other hand, his conception of the coming of Jesus was poles removed from the pagan stories of the births of heroes, savior-gods, and kings, whose legends were freighted with illicit relationships and lawless conduct like the lives of the devotees who had created them in their own image.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 523-524)  
“Nothing is said explicitly about the Son’s preexistence, which is at most implied … born of a woman: … The phrase is derived from the OT [Old Testament, the Hebrew Bible] (Job 14:1 …). So born, Jesus submitted to the law by being circumcised and thus became capable of falling under its curse. But lest the Galatians draw a wrong conclusion, Paul [and The Interpreters’ Bible] does not mention Jesus’ circumcision. Instead of genomenon, ‘born,’ some patristic writers read gennomenon, and understood this ptc. [participle] as referring to Mary’s virginal conception; but this is anachronistic interpretation.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 787)  

-7. Accordingly [לפיכך, LePheeYKhahKh], you are not [אינך, ’aYNKhah] a slave anymore [אוד, ’OD], for if [כי אם, KeeY ’eeM] a son, and, if a son, then [אזי, ’ahZahY] also heir from favor [מטעם, MeeTah`ahM] [of] Gods.  

“This is Paul’s proclamation of emancipation.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 528)  

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Worry of Shah’OoL to Galatians
[verses 8–20]  

-8. In [the] past, in a time that you did not know [את, ’ehTh] Gods, you slaved [את, ’ehTh] who that in their nature [שבמנהותם, ShehBeMahHOoThahM] were not Gods.  

“The Jews never ceased to ridicule idols and denounce idolaters… They demoted the old gods to the rank of demons and made a list of detractive names for them: angels, shepherds, princes; kings, emperors, benefactors, heroes; demons, personifications, idols, nonentities. Some were living, some dead; some were good, but were not God. Most of them were bad, and their idols were but images of ‘things of nought.’ …  
Paul did not deny the existence of these beings whose ignorant worshipers called them gods, but he declared that they did not partake of the nature of God (I Cor. 8:4-6). God permitted them to plague mankind to punish sin, especially the sin of participating in the sacraments of the Gentile cults (I Cor. 10:19-22; 11:28-31). But Christ had conquered them and no Christian needed to fear them.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 529)  

-10. Behold, you are honoring days and new-[moons], seasons [מועדים, MO`ahDeeYM] and years.  

“Days like the Sabbath and Yom hakkippurim [“Day of Atonement”] are meant; months like the ‘new moon’; seasons like Passover and Pentecost; years like the sabbatical years… Paul can see no reason for a Gentile Christian to observe these.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  

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Two the covenants
[verses 21-26]  

-21. Say to me, you, the wanters to be subject to Instruction, have you not heard [את, ’ehTh] the Instruction?
-22. Is it not written that to ’ahBRahHahM there were two sons, the one from the maid [האמה, Hah’ahMaH] and the second from the woman the free [החפשיה, HahHahPhSheeYah]?
-23. But [אך, ’ahKh] [the] son [of] the maid was born according to [לפי, LePheeY] the flesh,
and however [ואילו, Ve’eeYLOo] [the] son [of] the free upon mouth of the promise.
-24. The words the these, they are a parable to two the covenants:
the one from Mount ÇeeNah-eeY [Sinai], the birther to slavery, and she is HahGahR [“The Sojourner”, Hagar].  

“It is well known how fond the Jews were of allegorizing; every thing in the law was with them an allegory: their Talmud [ancient commentary] is full of these; and one of their most sober and best educated writers Philo, abounds with them…  
It is very likely, therefore, that the allegory produced here; St. Paul had borrowed from the Jewish writings; and he brings it in to convict the Judaizing Galatians on their own principles: and neither he, nor we, have any thing farther to do with this allegory, than as it applies to the subject for which it is quoted; nor does it give any license to those men of vain and superficial minds, who endeavour to find out allegories in every portion of the Sacred Writings; and by what they term spiritualizing, which is more properly carnalizing, have brought the testimonies of God into disgrace. May the spirit of silence be poured out upon all such corrupters of the word of God!” (Clarke, 1831, vol. II p. 390)  
“Allegorical interpretation rests upon the belief that every word, figure of speech, and grammatical form in scripture has a special ‘spiritual’ significance besides its literal meaning. The theory is that the God who dictated it meant more than rests on the surface and that while he said one thing, he also meant something else in addition to the literal sense… The Greeks had long since applied the method to explain away the immoral things which the gods said and did in Homer… Then Greek-speaking Jews, like Philo Judaeus, employed it apologetically to read Greek philosophy into the O.T. [Old Testament, the Hebrew Bible], proclaiming that Moses had said all these good things long before and better than Homer and Plato.  
The wonder is that Paul has so little allegory. His restraint is explained partly by his training as a Pharisee. The rabbis were suspicious of any interpretation of scripture that tended to make Jews lax in their observance of the law. Jews with Gnostic leanings, and those who considered some of their ancestral customs outmoded, could resort to allegory to justify their philosophy and conduct, while maintaining that they were the spiritual superiors of the conservatives who held to the letter of the law … His argument, however, is never strengthened by allegorical symbolism and typology, for these are convincing only to those who by imagination can find them so. Rather, as in Rom. 9-11, he introduces unnecessary complications such as the moral difficulties involved in predestination. His gospel does not rest on the quicksands of allegory, a specious method of interpreting scripture. Its interpretations are of interest to the historian not as correct representations of what the writers and first readers of the Bible had in mind, but only as source materials for understanding the life and thought of the allegorists themselves.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 540)  

-25. Hagar signifies [מסמלת, MeÇahMehLeTh] [את, ’ehTh] Mount ÇeeNah-eeY, that is in Arabia, and parallels [ומקבילה,OoMahQBeeYLaH] to Jerusalem of our day, for she is in slavery with her sons.  

“… why does Paul mention Arabia…? Possibly because Mt. Sinai is in Arabia[?], which is Ishmaelite territory; he thus associates the Sinai pact with the eponymous patriarch of Arab tribes … Paul thus suggests that the law itself stems from a situation extrinsic to the promised land and to the real descendants of Abraham. Paul’s Jewish former co-religionists would not have been happy with this allegory.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  

-26. But [אבל, ’ahBahL] Jerusalem from ascended [מעלה, Mah`eLaH], [the] daughter [of] freedom [חורין, HOReeYN] is she, and she is mother to us.
 

“The Jerusalem which now is was a most unholy “Holy city”, full of injustice, violence and murder, and subject to the cruel and wicked rulers imposed by a Gentile empire. But over against this Jerusalem of slavery lay an ideal celestial city, unseen at present, but destined soon to supersede it. Paul called it the Jerusalem above. Sarah, the free-woman, was the ancestress of its citizens, who were the people of faith and of freedom in Christ…  
Paul speaks of Jerusalem above, because this new city of freedom already exists in heaven where Christ is, where dwell the souls of those who have died in Christ. But it also exists on earth as the church, the body of Christ, whose members are colonists from heaven sent to prepare men for the full establishment of God’s kingdom at Christ’s second coming (Phil. 3:20; Col. 3:1-3).  
The biblical root of this conception of an ideal future and heavenly Jerusalem is Isa. [Isaiah] 54. Other descriptions appear in Ezek. [Ezekiel] 40-48; Zech. [Zechariah] 2:1-13; Hag. [Haggai] 2:6-9; Tob. [Tobias] 13:9-18 Ecclus. [Ecclesiasticus] 36; Pss. Sol. [Psalms of Solomon] 17:33. Historically the expectation assumed three forms. According to the earliest hope, God would build the new Jerusalem in Palestine and make it the capital of his theocratic world government. The plan of this glorious city was graven upon the palms of his hands (Isa. 49:16). From this idea it was but a step, especially for those influenced by Greek ideas, to think of this ideal Jerusalem as already existing in heaven. According to the Apocalypse of Baruch, God had shown it to Adam in Paradise before he sinned; to Abraham on the night mentioned in Gen. 15:12-21; and to Moses on Sinai, when he gave him the heavenly pattern for an earthly tabernacle (II Baruch 4:1-6; cf. [compare with] Heb. [Hebrews]12:22). The third conception combined these two ideas. The Jerusalem which was ‘above’ would come down to earth to be established in Palestine in place of the city that ‘now is’ (cf. Rev. [Revelation] 3:12, 21:2; II Esdras 7:26; 13:36; 10:54).  
So the new Jerusalem belonged to both worlds and to both ages, to heaven and earth, to the present and the future. Its constitution was the new covenant, and its citizens were the men of faith in Christ, a new kind of freemen who traced their spiritual ancestry through the line of Isaac and his mother Sarah as heirs of God’s promise to Abraham. As for Ishmael and his tribe, they were the men of law, predestined to be slaves forever. Needless to say, the Judaizers found Paul’s allegorical exclusion of themselves utterly unacceptable. They believed that the Torah was God’s blueprint for all creation, and that it would be observed forever in the new Jerusalem. That, they said, was why God was going to purge the old city – to establish an order of life in which perfect obedience to his law would be possible.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 541-542)  
“…it was a maxim among the rabbins [rabbis], that, ‘Whatsoever was in the earth, the same was also found in heaven; for there is no matter, howsoever small, in this world, that has not something similar to it in the spiritual world.’ On this maxim, the Jews imagine that every earthly thing has its representative in heaven: and especially whatever concerns Jerusalem, the law, and its ordinances. Rab. ["Master", Rabbi] Kimchi, speaking of Melchisedec, king of Salem, says, זו ירושלים של מעלה Zu Yerushalem shel me’alah – ‘This is the Jerusalem that is from above.’…  
There is a spiritual Jerusalem, of which this is the type; and this Jerusalem, in which the souls of all the righteous are, is free from all bondage and sin: or by this, probably the kingdom of the Messiah was intended; and this certainly answers best to the apostle’s meaning, as the subsequent verse shows.” (Clarke, 1831, vol. II p. 391)  

-27. That see, is written:  
“Chant, barren, not birthing, [רני עקרה לא ילדה RahNeeY 'ahQRaH Lo’ YahLahDaH] burst chanting and shouting, not travailing, [פצחי רנה וצהלי לא-חלה PeeTsHeeY ReeNaH VeTsahHahLeeY Lo’-HahLaH] for multitudinous are sons of her deserted than [מי, MeeY] sons of her mistress [כי-רבים בני-שוממיה מבני בעולה KheeY-RahBeeYM BeNaY-ShoMahMeeYHah MeeBeNaY Be'ooLaH].”  

“A telling item in the counterpropaganda of the legalists was the argument that even among the Christians only a radical fringe consisting mainly of foreign Jews, of whom Paul was one, were proposing to abandon the law of Moses. …  
In one respect his quotation of Isa. 54:1 does not fit Paul’s allegory. It was Sarah, the mother of freemen, who possessed the husband, and Hagar, the slave, who was the deserted woman. As usual with Paul’s illustrations (cf. Rom. 7:1-4; 11:17-24), the details cannot be pressed without making them go lame …  
The Isaian figure to describe the plight of Jerusalem during the Babylonian exile grew out of a common experience in Hebrew family life. Childlessness, particularly the failure to bear sons, was great grief and disgrace. Such was the sorrow of Jerusalem; but the prophet bade her look forward with courage to the time when all her scattered children would come back to her (Isa. 54:3). God was her ‘husband,’ and he would treat his faithful remnant with everlasting lovingkindness, making them more numerous than the former population and giving them a heritage of great peace and prosperity (Isa. 54:13-17).” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 542)  
“The prophet’s words are addressed to deserted Zion, bidding it rejoice at the return of the exiles.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  

-28. But you, my brethren [τεχνα, tekhna, “children”], you are the sons of the promise, as was YeeTsHahQ [“He Laughed”, Isaac].  

“The Judaizers claimed that Abraham had obeyed the law of Moses by anticipation, and that God’s promise was his reward. Consequently the descendants of Isaac were children of promise only if they followed Abraham’s example in obeying the law. Paul turned it the other way about: the promise must be taken on faith, not as credit for obedience.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 542)  

-29. And just as [וכשם, OoKhShayM] that then pursued, [רדף, RahDahPh] the son that was born according to [לפי, LePheeY] flesh, [את, ’ehTh] the son that was born according to the spirit, yes, also now.  

“In Gen 21:10 Sarah, seeing Ishmael ‘playing’ with Isaac and viewing him as the potential rival to Isaac’s inheritance, drives him and his mother out. Nothing in Gen is said of Ishmael’s ‘persecution’ of Isaac, but Paul may be interpreting the ‘playing’ as did a Palestinian haggadic explanation of Gen 21:9 (see Josephus, ANT. [Antiquities] 1.12.3§215 …” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  
“A rabbinical tradition of the second century A.S. interprets the Hebrew participle מצחק [MeeTsHahQ, “play”] (LXX [Septuagient, the ancient Greek translation of the Hebrew Bible] παιζοντα [paizonta] in Gen. 21:9 to mean that Ishmael’s ‘playing’ became so rough that Isaac’s life was in danger. This son of a slave is said to have shot arrows at Isaac to kill him, and Paul’s statement shows that some such tradition was current in his day. He applied it to the Judaizers who were trying to force the Christians to observe the whole law of Moses, and to the unbelieving Jews who were excommunicating the Christians and their families and getting them into trouble with the civil authorities (1:5; 4:17; 5:10; I Thess. [Thessalonians] 2:14-16).” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 543)  

-30. But what says the Written [Scripture]?  
“Banish [גרש GahRaySh] the maid and [את, ’ehTh] her son,
for not will inheritI [יירש, YeeYRahSh], son [of] the maid [האמה, Hah’ahMaH], with son [of] the free.”  

“The quotation is from Gen. 21:10 … The speaker of these words is Sarah, who is filled with rage against Hagar and Ishmael. Abraham is represented as greatly grieved, but God is said to have sanctioned the demand of the cruel and jealous wife….  
This story was one of the effects and one of the causes of the perpetual feud between the Israelites and the tribes that descended from Ishmael. The Hebrews were so sure that God wanted them to have Palestine that they found no moral difficulty in saying that it was God himself who had overruled Abraham’s conscience (Gen. 17:18-21). They affirmed that Ishmael’s character and destiny had been predetermined (Gen. 16:12). Consequently, even his circumcision at the age of thirteen could not make him a member of God’s chosen people. However great this innocent victim of a family feud might become by virtue of the halfhearted blessing conceded by an uneasy conscience (Gen. 17:20-21), he and his descendants were barred forever from the higher blessing. Theirs was to submit to the religious imperialism of the most favored nation or die. Moreover, all Abraham’s other sons except Isaac were barred from the promise and sent away ‘unto the east country’ (Gen. 25:5-6). And yet while all this was said to be the Lord’s doing, it was in the same breath declared to be the doing of the human actors in this drama of the nations. Sarah herself was said to have suggested that Abraham become a father by her Egyptian slave girl. Then, too, it was explained that Hagar’s flight from the cruelty of her mistress was voluntary, making her, rather than the callous compliance of Abraham, responsible for her plight ‘in the wilderness, by the fountain in the way to Shur’ (Gen. 16:7).  
Paul’s use of Abraham’s expulsion of Hagar and her child has its parallel in the equally heartless treatment of Esau which he employs in Rom. 9-11 in his longer discussion of the divine process of selection. Here too it was assumed that the hatred generated by centuries of war for the possession of Palestine lay in the heart of God. “I hate Esau,” said Malachi (1:3), making God the speaker; and Rom. 9:6-13 presses it to the utmost limit of predestination. But the love of God in Christ Jesus made Paul’s heart better than his inherited doctrine … When the history of the struggle for the possession of “the Holy land” is allegorized to justify a doctrine of “election” which foredooms countless souls to an eternity of torment in a future hell, it becomes as morally atrocious as it is irreconcilable with Paul’s gospel.  
Nevertheless Paul’s allegory gives the historian an insight into Paul’s mind as he wrestled with the insoluble problem of God’s sovereignty and human freedom.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 543-544)  
“Paul bids the Galatians rid themselves of the Judaizers – and, ironically enough, obey the Torah itself.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)   An Amateur's Journey Through the Bible

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Fri 5 - 10 PM Car Show & Concert! EXPO NM Home of the New Mexico State Fair, 300 San Pedro Dr. NE Friday night fever Vol 2! CAR SHOW & AWARDs, RAP CONCERT, VENDORS, FOOD TRUCKS, GAMES, ROCK CLIMBING WALL. All Makes and Models welcome. FREE GENERAL ADMISSION. $7 Parking, $10 Car Show judging and awards (only if you want to register and compete) Event brought to you by Expo NM and Desert Sun Event Productions. Car show brought to you by Sins events and NM Lowrider Arte
Fri 6 PM Rugby is a Drag (Show)! Sidewinders Bar and Grill, 4200 Central Ave SE Get out your dancing cleats and trade in that eye black for eye liner! The very popular Rugby is a Drag (show!) and fundraiser, normally held earlier in the year, has moved to June 9th and Pride weekend in 2023! This year's event will be hosted by Miss Sidewinders 2023 Seliah Deleon and Le Femme Magnifique 2017 and fellow rugger SCRUMtious Cox! This year's show is returning to Sidewinders and, as in year's past, will benefit our friends at Casa Q, which provides safe living for LGBTQ+ youth through housing, services and advocacy. This year's event will also feature participation from members of Elevated Roller Derby, NM United and more! (tickets)
Fri 7 PM Movies in the Park - Puss in Boots: The Last Wish Athena Park, 778 Athena Ave, Bernalillo MOVIES IN THE PARK is back this SUMMER! We will feature a different movie at our local parks every FRIDAY night in June. Movies will begin at sundown and we will serve popcorn for free! Bring your lawn chairs, blankets, and beverages. All movies are FREE! In the case of inclement weather, movies will be cancelled
Fri 8 PM - 12 AM Pride Dance Party 505 Spirits, 105 Harvard Dr. SE DANCE WITH US TO CELEBRATE PRIDE UNDER THE STARS @ PRIDE ON THE PATIO! DJ Baby D & DJ Rebel (Rori the Rebel) will drop your favorite hits - Get your dance on and show of your Pride with your best Pride outfit &/or Pride colors! Try our special cocktail: Prickly Pear Pride Punch, plus other great drinks and delicious food! Come early for dinner before you dance, daNCE, DANCE!!! Delicious Value Menu Items: $2.95 - NEW Sliders! (beef & veg) $1.95 - local blue corn dog pops (minis) $5.95 waffle fries & full sized blue corn dogs (veg or beef) Plus our flaky meat & veg hand pies, chunky chicken salad, mushroom pate & more! 21 & over Free Entry!
Fri 9 PM Albuquerque Pride Afterparty Historic Lobo Theater, 3013 Central Ave NE Starring Headliner: Malaysia Babydoll Foxx, DJ: Justin Cristofer, HOST: Vanessa Patricks, MEET THE QUEENS! Avery Martini, Imani Martini, Nova Martini, Kardio Karbdashian, Divyne Intervention. Private Early Entrance Meet N Greet begins at 8:15 p.m. entrance with Meet N Greet starting 8:30 p.m. Champagne Provided (tickets)
Fri 9 PM Fierce Pride: Kandy Muse Effex, 420 Central Ave SW Special guest from RPDR All Stars S13 and AS8, LA, CA, Meet and Greet 10:30 PM, doors 9p, show 11:30p Lounge: DJ Chris de Jesus Patio: DJ Aquattro Side Effex: DJ Mitch
Fri 9:30 PM Salsa under the Stars After Party JUNO, 1501 1st St. NW DJ Pedro, one of Albuquerque’s most loved DJ’s (DJ Pedro, DJ Tony, SoloVino, DJ Louie, DJ Darly + Eli Mix) mixing your favorite dance mix of Salsa, Bachata, Merengue and more! This is one of Albuquerque’s favorite after party summer outdoor events and will begin June 9th following the opening of Son Como Son kicking off the Salsa under the Stars at the Albuquerque Museum followed by the after party at Juno. Free entry to Juno with your stamp from the museum
Fri 10:30 PM Twilight Zone: The Movie - 40th Anniversary Screening! One Night Only! The Guild Cinema, 3405 Central Ave NE Check out the trailer. Dir. Joe Dante, Steven Spielberg, John Landis & George Miller - 1983 - 102m - NO MATINEES. DOOR PRIZES COURTESY OF BUBONICON 54! Based on the popular television series, this film is a collection of four frightening tales of the supernatural, each by a different director--Joe Dante, Steven Spielberg, John Landis, and George Miller! The film opens with Dan Aykroyd and Albert Brooks as two hapless road-trippers who tell scary stories to pass the time. The four segments that follow include some updated re-creations of classic Twilight Zone episodes. In the first, racist Bill Connor (Vic Morrow) is transformed into a Jew in World War II. Next, Mr. Bloom (Scatman Crothers) comes to a retirement home to teach the residents that they are only as young as they feel. In the third, teacher Helen Foley (Kathleen Quinlan) meets Antony (Jeremy Licht), a boy who is not what he seems. In the final segment, panicky plane passenger John Valentine (John Lithgow) sees gremlins attacking his flight
** Sat 6/10 *\*
Sat 8 AM - 2 PM NMHRS Garage Sale 7903 Robin Ave NE Hosted by the New Mexico House Rabbit Society. All sales go into our vet fund so that we can continue to provide medical care to rabbits in need. This is a multi-family garage sale so there will be lots to browse through
Sat 8 AM - 10 PM All The Things: Craft Cocktail & Mixer Launch Tractor Brewing Company, 118 Tulane Dr. SE The next evolution in the craft cocktail experience is here and officially launch in Nob Hill for Pride! What is All The Things? Well, let me tell you. Imagine 100% fresh cold pressed juice, pure cane sugar, and Troubled Minds spirits all in one 1L bottle ready to pour over ice! That's right you can purchase these ready made bottle cocktails now at ANY of our locations! We have: Margarita with Tequila, Paloma with Tequila, Kentucky Mule with Bourbon, Ginger Lemonade with Vodka, Limeade with Vodka & Bloody Mary with Vodka! Grab you one to go for $16! We will be using mixers of these behind our bars so you can get a first hand taste! And offering non alcoholic lavender, ginger, and classic lemonades for you to sip on! These truly are All The Things in one bottle!
Sat 9 AM - 12 PM Family, Fit, Fun Fest Tiguex Park, 1800 Mountain Rd. NW Join us for the Girl Scouts of New Mexico Trails 2nd annual Family, Fit, Fun Fest. Bring your whole family to this free, all-ages event to learn about keeping fit and healthy - mentally, physically, and emotionally. Learn new skills and discover ways to keep your mind and body healthy and active, as you visit interactive booths led by community partners. Booths will include hands-on activities like games, puzzles, and brain teasers, as well as interactive lessons in martial arts, dance, mindfulness, and more. Booths will also include information on youth classes, clubs, and teams, as well as opportunities to meet local healthcare providers and learn more about mental health, nutrition, eye care, and dental care for your whole family. Climb to the top of a rock wall, make your way through an obstacle course, try the football toss or the baseball toss, shoot a hockey puck, or score a goal at interactive stations around the event! Meet and take photos with local sports teams and/or mascots and stop by Menchie's Froyo Mobile for a sweet treat. Girl Scout Members can participate in a special event scavenger hunt when they pre-purchase the 2023 GSNMT Family, Fit, Fun Fest patch
Sat 10 AM SOCH PRIDE '23 Albuquerque Social Club, 4021 Central Ave NE Come show your PRIDE at the ONLY place to be SOCHial! We are taking over the parking lot for a FREE ALL AGES event. We have multile bands, musicians and perfromers ready to give a PRIDE you wont forget. Food Truck, Vendors, Face Painting, Car Show, Games, Country Dancing and many other fun events!
Sat 10 - 11 AM Yoga with Kelsi Poulin Marketplace mezzanine, 8600 Pan American Fwy NE Enjoy guided yoga, from local yoga instructor, Kelsi! This will be a fun flow for all levels of yoga practice. $10 per person
Sat 10 AM - 12 PM Play Day For A Cause Kiddie Academy of Paradise Hills, 4590 Paradise Blvd. NW Join us for Play Day for a Cause! This free event has great games and fun activities for your kids while supporting Family Promise, the leading national nonprofit addressing family homelessness. Family Promise started in 1986 as local outreach in a single community and now has more than 200 Affiliates in 43 states. Since their founding, volunteers have helped more than a million family members in need. With a focus on empowering families and children, Kiddie Academy Educational Child Care and Family Promise are working together to give every child what they deserve: a chance to succeed. The event is free and open to the public. Donations are appreciated, but not required to attend
Sat 10 AM - 4 PM Foundational Wellness Grand Opening Party Los Ranchos Bakery, 6920 4th St. NW, Los Ranchos Celebrate our grand opening event by stopping by the B Side of Los Ranchos Bakery! Herbal tea blends, door prizes, free raffle, information on classes and events, and more! Win a free reiki session, teas, discounts on classes, or discounts on nutritional therapy! I will be teaching numerous classes at the bakery this summer. Some topics: How to make Herbal Vinegar Tinctures (aceta), Hormone Health, Healthy Habits for Life, Improve Your Digestion, Prioritizing Meal Prep, Blood Sugar Regulation, and my RESTART Program! You don’t want to miss out! Some of these classes will be free! So come on down and get some coffee and goodies from the bakery, then visit me next door and see what we’ve been up to
Sat 10 AM - 5 PM Pride Day Celebration! Quirky Used Books and More, 120 Jefferson NE Book sales, vendor pop ups, food truck, art, music, and more!
Sat 10:30 AM - 12 PM Wellness Schedule Casa Rondeña Winery, 733 Chavez Rd. NW, Los Ranchos Open to people of all skill levels, Wellness + Wine is a one-hour, outdoor practice, followed by a glass of wine or Sangria, and an invitation to stay and relax on the grounds of the beautiful Casa Rondeña Winery. This experience is $25, and includes glass of wine. Discounts apply for winery members. Reservations are required to participate
Sat 11 AM - 4 PM Papa Bear Market Boxing Bear Brewing, 10200 Corrales Rd. NW We couldn’t forget about our PAPA BEARS! Dads deserve some love and appreciation too! Spend the day celebrating Papa at our taproom. As always this FREE event will include local vendors, food trucks, photo booth, live music, paint your own pint, and, of course, BEER! (click link for full list of vendors)
Sat 11 AM - 5 PM June Used Book Sale Main Library, 501 Copper Ave NW Join us for the monthly book sale. There will be a variety of fiction, non-fiction, children and adults books, videos, DVDs, CDs, comic books, maps, and more available. Free for Members - $2 for Non-Members Free to all after noon. All Sales are held in the Lower Level, Main Library, Validated parking is available on 5th and Copper, kitty-corner to the library. The Friends of the Public Library is a non-profit organization. All proceeds go to supporting the Public Library of Albuquerque & Bernalillo County library programs
Sat 12 - 5 PM Summer Luau - Adoptables, Swag, Brews, and more! Lizard Tail Brewing Industrial, 3351 Columbia Dr. NE Hosted by Pitties and Kitties of New Mexico. We will have some PKR Tees, some PKR Pride gear, and best of all - our adoptabulls! Our booth will have a small auction set up… the prize being Tattoo Certificates with an ABQ tattoo artist! There will be a car show, other vendors, as well as water activities. Hope to see y’all there!
Sat 1 - 3 PM Family Field Day! Montgomery Park, Hosted by ABQ Family Chiropractic. A celebration of all the families who trust us with their care, and an opportunity for families who are considering our office to get to know our team in a fun, low-stakes environment. Food and family-friendly activities will be provided
Sat 1 - 4 PM Zouk with Jaime Arôxa! Alley Kats Tap Company, 222 Truman St. NE We will continue building on, and reviewing everything we have learned with Jamie Arôxa and Kiri Chapman thus far. We will continue to work on Zouk basics and building on the basics including connection and timing, musicality, lateral with variations, Yo-yo, viradinha, cambre, body, rolls, body, isolations, weight transfers, counterbalance, elástico, convergence & divergence, Wi-Fi, head, movement, styling, head movement, varying turns, and Chicote. Classes will be progressive and will be adjusted to the level of each class. Drop in anytime * All levels welcome * No partner needed * Cash preferred - can also accept Venmo and Cash App to $UWDstudios
Sat 1:30 - 4 PM Father's Day Tee Cabezon Park, 2307 Cabezon Blvd. SE, Rio Rancho Celebrate Father's Day with a round of miniature golf or two! Tee-off with dad at our Annual Father's Day "Tee". Enjoy some snacks, and an Arnold Palmer while making a craft with dad. Prizes awarded for the top 3 teams in miniature golf! Each child and parent must register individually. NO DROP-INS. Please contact the Cabezon Community Center at 505-892-4499 for more info
Sat 4 - 5 PM East Coast Swing Group Class Enchantment Dancing, 337 San Pedro Dr. NE Welcome to our Bronze American East Coast Swing Class! Whether you are a newbie stepping on to the dance floor for the first time or a seasoned professional wanting to brush up on basics, as well as anyone in-between, this class is for you! East Coast Swing is an exciting, up-beat dance that is endlessly versatile! No partner necessary, and dropping in is fine! Class cost is only $10, and a punch card for 6 classes is $50
Sat 6 - 10 PM Baddie Fest OT Circus, 709 Central Ave NW let's all have a fun summer night. Fairy Julz (crystals and more to raise your energy) will be at @ otcircus. Market, Music, Dance Performers, Crystal Pop Up Booth, Henna, Woman Vendors. Tag and invite your favorite baddies
Sat 6 - 11 PM Heights Summerfest North Domingo Baca Park, Celebrate warm weather and outdoor fun at a free community gathering during an Albuquerque Summerfest. This free concert series features local businesses with handcrafted products in The Shops, food trucks with freshly made cuisine in the Food Court, libations created by breweries, wineries and distilleries in The Cantina, entertainment by local talent, and a production by a national headliner all at a City park (click here for more info: live music, food trucks, kids' activities, drinks, vendors, parking)
Sat 7 PM Dancing Queens Sunshine Theater, 120 Central Ave SW Throw out your calendar! Buy a new calendar! Mark June 10th as the first and ONLY date in your calendar! Pride weekend, all the dancing queens are descending on the Sunshine Theater for the night of all nights. Juicee Früt presents Dancing Queens! Featuring performances by Red Light Cameras, ABBAquerque, Galaxy, Juicee Früt, Drag Performances from CoCo Caliente & Mr. Rusty Nutz, Forbidden Früt Market, & more! (tickets)
Sat 7 PM Death On The Beach: A Metalcore Beach Party Launchpad, 618 Central Ave SW Join us for a night filled with beach-going shenanigans and some of the best metalcore bands Albuquerque has to offer. Swimwear, flip flops, sunscreen and lais ENCOURAGED! Come out and rage with us, and let's make this a night to remember! Presale tickets are $10 and are available through any band. Just send them a message! Online tickets through Holdmyticket will be available soon. Inhuman Hands, EYE, Secure The Void, One Last Summer
Sat 9 PM Temple of Sound Presents Starry Night Juno, 1501 1st St. NW This event will feature our guest DJ Chris Losack! He's a longtime DJ who primarily spins house and techno but also has roots in industrial and dark music. He will be showing his dark side this time out! Join us for another spectacular event! Sparkly or night sky attire encouraged but not required! 21+ / No cover
Sat 9 PM Pride 2023 Effex, 420 Central Ave SW Spunjy Hicks Lounge: Malik Patio: DJ Chris de Jesus Side Effex: Xblyssid
Sat 10:30 PM Late Nite Comedy Jam The Guild Cinema, 3405 Central Ave NE Ristra Comedy and Chuck Parker Comedy present a stellar lineup of standup comedians! This month's headliner: Josh Fournier Featuring Chuck Parker & Sara Anne Myers and your host Alex Benton
** Sun 6/11 *\*
Sun 8 AM - 2 PM Hot Rods for Hunger Car Show and Poker Run 2801 Eubank Blvd NE Yes, our amazing car show fundraiser is happening again, thanks to Bell’s Brewery and the Mopar Most Wanted car club. This year, for early registration, we are having a Kickstart happy hour with Bells Brewery at O’Niell’s Heights location on Juan Tabo. Join us and register your car. All makes and models are welcome. Come out and see some of the coolest cars in Albuquerque. There will be raffles, food trucks, lots of awards for the cars, and a food drive for the Storehouse food pantry. Enter the Poker Run, the Car Show, or both today!
Sun 10 AM Rocketman Historic Lobo Theater, 3013 Central Ave NE THE HISTORIC LOBO THEATER along with Albuquerque Film & Music Experience is excited to bring Rocketman to the big screen! Showing Starts at 11:30 am Tickets are ONLY $10 for General Admission Come Early Brunch Starts at 10 am Full Buffet Available for only $21 The ticket price is for entry to the movie only. Pajama brunch and a movie. Exclusive Brunch Menu! Made to order pancakes, mimosas and more. 10% off if you come in your pajamas
Sun 10 AM - 2 PM STEAM DAY Rail Yards Market, 777 1st St. SW Science, Technology, Engineering, Art, and Math (STEAM) all put New Mexico on the Map as a unique place. Standing for over one hundred years, the historic Rail Yards of Albuquerque stand as an ode to a period of extreme innovation for the Rio Grande basin area. Albuquerque literally rose and became what it is around the Rail Yards, and railroad era that brought so much innovation. In these industrial cathedrals, we hum with innovation again.. Activating the space for community use, the Rail Yards Market is non-profit (certified 501c3), bringing together small businesses in agriculture, food, and artisan manufacturing on a local scale. Our STEAM stands for Sustainable, Traditional, Educational and Artistic Modalities. In this area we host interactive demonstrations. Mini-Makers Unite! Learn about what makes a laser light up, a 3D printer build, and so much more! Bring out your tech, geek, and inquisitive minds to the Rail Yards Market and visit makers from Quelab. Free for all! Everyone is welcome! EBT doubled with Double-Up-Food-Bucks, ADA Accessible, Senior and WIC programs welcome, Fresh & local produce, Breakfast & lunch prepared food options, 120+ local food, healing, and art businesses, Parking & restrooms, FREE :: LOCAL :: FAMILY FRIENDLY :: PET FRIENDLY
Sun 10:30 - 11:30 AM Mindful Movement - Yoga in the Park Academy Hills Park, 9709 Layton Ave NE Meet us on the southwest side of the park, just southwest of the playground, under the large trees. Looks for the Aumies sign! Bring your mat, block, strap and water!
Sun 2 - 4 PM Lumberyard Jazz Trio Sawmill Market, 1909 Bellamah Ave NW The Lumberyard Jazz Trio is back to bring exciting jazz melodies to Sawmill Market. They use an interchanging group of New Mexican instrumentalists who have traveled nationwide to perform, lead by saxophonist Sean Johnson
Sun 3 PM Pride Tea Dance on the Patio Effex, 420 Central Ave SW 3 - 6 PM: DJ Mike Demarco 6 - 9 PM: DJ Spunjy Hicks Featuring performances by Avery Martini, Jessica K. Daniels, Imani Martini
Sun 4 - 7 PM Music on the Patio: Squash Blossom Boys Canteen Brewhouse, 2381 Aztec Rd NE Based in Albuquerque, The Squash Blossom Boys have played southwestern stages for over ten years. With beginnings as a garage band, they have explored a variety of musical genres including rock, jazz, reggae and more to find the hard driving, high lonesome sound of Bluegrass music. The current central players include Dustin Orbesen (Dobro, Mandolin, Vocals), Kit Murray (Banjo, Vocals), Kyle Malone (Guitar), Peter Lisignoli (Bass)
Sun 5 - 8 PM Mack 'n Cheese Sunday Variety Show Juno, 1501 1st St. NW Variety show with Mack 'n Cheese (Indy Hip Hop), Cali Shaw (Americana), Basilaris Trio (Jazz), Sol de la Noche, Melissa Prada (spoken word) Monthly variety show with Mack 'n Cheese (Indy Hip Hop), Cali Shaw (Americana), Basilaris Trio (Jazz), Sol de la Noche, Melissa Prada (spoken word), vendors. Family-friendly (if your kids already know the F-word). Food available for purchase. On the patio, weather permitting, or in the Gallery
Sun 7 - 10 PM S.O.S - Salsa On Sunday Dance Social 505 Spirits, 105 Harvard Dr. SE Salsa On Sunday Dance Social *With guest DJ's *Latin Dance Performances *The Occasional LIVE Music Performance *And Always... Social Dancing! salsa timba bachata merengue *What is it about a Social* The essence of a Social is for the dance community to get together and dance. Socials offer a relaxed night of dancing. Socials continue to draw dance enthusiasts who get lost in their salsa “addiction” by dancing and enjoying the music. Socials offer something for every level of dancer at any age. Bands and DJs have more freedom to play sets which appeal to the dance-centric crowd. It's about the music. It's about the dance. If you want to have an alternative to the club, are underage, or simply want to get in some good dancing - check out a Social, you might be surprised at how much fun you have
Sun 7:30 PM Brit Floyd Revel ABQ, 4720 Alexander Blvd. NE Brit Floyd returns to the stage in 2023 to perform a brand-new production celebrating 50 years of the ground-breaking and iconic musical masterpiece The Dark Side of the Moon. The show will feature classic tracks from the album such as Time, Money, Us and Them and The Great Gig in the Sky. The 2 and a half hours plus set list will also include other highlights from Pink Floyd’s magnificent catalogue of albums, including tracks from The Wall, Wish You Were Here, Animals, The Division Bell, Medal and much more (tickets)

So I just took my first run alone with an ems officer on my dept. I don’t think i could have done too much differently except for shorten the 23 minute scene time. I got there and pt was pale and what’s seemed to be a vertigo episode. Family said udududu and got a set of vitals and then the pt vomited( i have a fear of vomit ) and i kinda just like froze for a second. Then we loaded and left and i got 2 more sets and opqrst sample. Ems officer said it was just a shitty situation and that i needed more competency. I don’t know if I need advice, affirmation, or just to rant idk.

Self Explanatory. Is there a specific option I need to change to make my grass look sharper? Is this an anti-aliasing thing? Some help would be appreciated. Here is a link to what my grass looks like in game. I am using Ominous ENB and Northern Grass.
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Mod List/INI - https://loadorderlibrary.com/lists/mod-list-25032027
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Intel(R) Core(TM) i9-10900K CPU
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BACKGROUND
Long story short I spent 8 years on the West Coast holding increasingly important positions in the energy industry, but I hated it with every fiber of my being. I started taking nursing prerequisite courses in January of 2020. Family trauma happened. I moved home to Texas to be closer to my family, quit my job (was making ~$130k with bonus), and took the plunge and went to back to school for nursing at 31. I am half way done with an accelerated BSN program and I have a 4.0 GPA. I love it so much despite it being very difficult. I have externship currently and I have an ICU internship lined up for my final semester, which is basically a guaranteed new grad job.
I currently live with my mom and brother. We are remodeling our house so we are in an apartment for a bit. Very tight quarters but thankful to be with them. Boyfriend just successfully made a big career move and is now a superintendent for an important and well respected organization in town making $60k annually with a 8% bonus. Very proud of him and very excited for our future - we are talking about getting engaged in the next year. He is getting an apartment in the next couple months after living at home with his family due to some major family health issues he has been helping out with so you will see some of the apartment search start to happen in this diary!
Currently boyfriend and I split going out expenses pretty much down the line, but with this new job we had a discussion last week about how he will pay for the majority of our going out costs moving forward once he gets his first paycheck this month until I start working full time again in January!
Previous money diary from August 2022 here.
ASSETS (comparing last money diary to now):
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	August 2022	June 2023	Difference
401k	$156,400	$158,600	$2,200
Roth IRA	$68,000	$68,500	(500)
Saving's account	$41,001.43	$26,572.63	($14,428.81)
Checking Account	$3,024.58	$915.41	($2,109)
HSA	$8,800	$7,100	($1,700)
Brokerage	$440	$444	$4
UGMA	$85,000	$84,000	($1,000)
Pension	forgot to include	$27,000	N/A

NET WORTH: $373k
**I don’t carry any credit card debt / no student loan debt / no equity in any kind of home. I was lucky enough to be in a position where I saved up over $40k cash to pay for living expenses when in school. My UGMA account will be used as part of a down payment for a house in the next couple years. My current BSN degree is being covered through family. Also, trying to figure out what to do with my pension - depending how finances go the next 8 months I am in school / if I have any emergencies (I have 2 senior pets) I could cash part of it out or completely roll it over into an IRA.
INCOME
Income Progression: I worked in the energy industry for 8 years; my starting salary was $35,000.
I worked in the Seattle area starting out at $35k in 2014. Moved to a new job in 2016 for $65k and then another new job in 2018 for $85k +12% bonus. Got up to $104k + 20% bonus before I quit. Also worked as a CNA on the weekends for about 6 months for $15 an hour during COVID to make sure I really wanted to go to nursing school.
Main Job Monthly Take Home: It varies but the average so far this year it is $535. I have an incredibly flexible externship at a hospital very close to where I live where my director literally just lets me show up whenever I want to work. I make $17 an hour. I met a couple incredible mentors but I think I am going to quit soon since it just won’t be feasible to work this semester and I already have my ICU internship lined up for September. Trying to be easier on myself and put myself first and I feel very lucky that I don’t need to work. Don’t get me wrong the extra money is SO NICE but I want to concentrate on school, myself, family, partner, and friends. Work on top of an accelerated nursing program is too much. I am actually the only one working in my cohort currently.
Any Other Monthly Income Here: I live with my mom right now and she pays for most of the groceries, utilities, etc. I feel incredibly privileged and lucky that I can live with her and that she is able to support me in this way while I transition careers. I do lots for her to support her such as chores, errands, paying for big Costco runs, etc. My boyfriend also helps out with pet expenses and other things I want / need.
MONTHLY EXPENSES

• Rent: $400 to my mom for a very discounted rate at our current apartment. I don’t pay rent when we are at the house. I will not be paying rent when I semi-move in with my boyfriend in the next couple months. Our goal is to get our own luxury apartment next year close to both of our places of employment after a year lease at a cheaper place. Between now and then I’ll split my time with him and my mom.
• Cellphone: $15 (on family plan & I just pay for additional data)
• Spotify: $5.40 (student plan)
• iCloud: $2.99
• Prime: $8.11
• Gym membership: $20
• Regular therapy: $5 a session and I go biweekly
• Health insurance: $122.54 monthly
• Costco: $60 annually

I allocate the following to my biggest expense categories monthly:

• Gas: $120
• Groceries: $300
• Eating out: $400
• Pet expenses: $200
• Other discretionary spending: $400

WEDNESDAY - DAY 1
8:45: I slept 10 hours last night and it was glorious. I worked a 12 hour shift at the hospital yesterday and our patient acuity was very high.
9:30: Make a coffee and walk and feed my pup. I walk over to the pool for a morning swim. I love a quiet morning swim so much.
11:30: I had a nice 500 yd swim, drank a Premier Protein shake & ate overnight oats with blueberries for breakfast, had a relaxing shower, and started some laundry. Feeling anxious about everything I have on my plate currently. Also I feel hungover from work yesterday. I was going to work another 12 hour shift tomorrow but now I don’t know if I can handle it with school also starting on Friday and a very busy social weekend coming up. Luckily, my director literally lets me show up whenever I want so I may do 7 or 8 hours tomorrow instead of a full 12. Try to table my feelings to discuss in therapy this afternoon.
11:40: Sit down to finish some online orientation for my internship that is coming up my final semester.
13:03: Orientation stuff only took about 20 minutes thank god. I ran to the grocery store and grab a 4 pack of watermelon Celsius, frozen veggies, Eggo waffles, tea bags, string cheese, coffee filters, Wheat Thins, and lean ground beef ($37.01). Head up to the rooftop lounge at the apartment complex to FaceTime a friend that lives across the country since there is zero privacy in the apartment.
14:15: Get off FaceTime, work on some more laundry, and head out to therapy.
16:15: Good, productive, fun, and validating therapy session and I make it over to my friend’s condo to check on her kitties. I had set up a reoccurring biweekly therapy appointment now that I know my school schedule for the upcoming semester too. We talked about money fixation and anxiety and trying to let that go. We agree that I should sleep in a bit tomorrow, walk my dog, go for a swim, and then go to work. I don’t ~need~ the money so working 12 hours vs 7 or 8 is not an issue. My mental health is more important. Also the work hangover from yesterday is real.
17:00: Boyfriend comes over after work and jumps in the shower while I’m a couch potato (Disclaimer: he’s friends with my friend too and she’s 100% comfortable with him hanging out too.) We relax and hang with the kitties and catch up on our days.
18:45: We head to dinner. We grab burritos at one of our favorite local spots and I pay ($25.88). We look at houses for fun on Zillow and discuss what apartments we want to tour in the next couple weeks.
20:00: I make it home and have a long talk with my mom about her friend who ended up in the hospital today with a compound fracture. Long story short I’ll need to stay up until midnight to hand off the house keys, garage door opener, etc. to a friend who is driving into town that can take care of her dog. Her dog is a pit bull that is vicious to strangers so no one else can go over to the house other than this friend who pet sits and knows the dog.
23:30: The friend makes it and we hand him the keys and everything he needs. I had spent the evening tidying up and meal prepping and looking at more apartments. It’s amazing to me how much time goes into keeping a clean and tidy home.
12:08: I spent a half hour setting up my June budget and then pass out.
TOTAL: $62.89
THURSDAY - DAY 2
9:05: I finally wake up to a bunch of texts from multiple different friends / friend groups. Ugh. I’m just feeling really anxious about school starting tomorrow, my mom being very distraught over her colleague / friend, working today, and a busy weekend coming up. I make some coffee and walk my pup.
9:33: I call my mom while feeding my pup breakfast and tell her how I’m feeling and we both agreed I ran around too much last semester and I told her I am setting firm boundaries with myself to basically not do anything social during the school week once clinical start (Monday - Thursday) unless it’s like a super casual dinner and I truly have the capacity for it. I burned myself out at the end of last semester and spent weeks putting the pieces back together.
9:55: I make another cup of coffee and take myself for a morning swim. It brings me so much joy and grounds me. I swim 500 yards and then jump into the shower, throw my scrubs on, kiss my pup goodbye and head to the hospital. I drink a chocolate Primer Protein shake and call my friend L on the way to hear how her trip has been going so far. It was nice to catch up even though we saw each other over the weekend lol.
10:54: Ate my overnight oats made with half and half and some blueberries, clocked in, and headed out to the floor. Immediately get asked to be a sitter which literally never happens. Thank you universe. Feeling a little less anxious now that I’m here and feeling thankful for the little bit of extra money I’m making and being here for my community.
14:04: Maybe not thank you universe - the patient slept for a while then got extremely combative and was trying to punch me. I switch off with a coworker and head to the break room to eat a bowl I made with frozen veggies + rotisserie chicken from Costco + cheddar cheese on top.
19:09: I finally clock out. I had a snack of 2 rice cakes and some almonds at one point. Rest of work was wild (i.e. a psychotic patient that pulled out his IV and was throwing things everywhere, someone screaming in pain for hours nonstop, etc.) and had me questioning what I am doing making this career change. I am tired.
19:49: I make it home after swinging by L’s to check on her kitties. Jump in the shower. My mom has dinner ready and I scarf down this gorgeous basil, mozzarella, peppers, tomatoes, avocados, and olive salad + a couple Trader Joe’s dolmas + a couple pieces of fresh bread. Delicious. I force myself to get my food and my school bag ready for tomorrow and lay my scrubs out before I crawl into bed a little after 9.
TOTAL: $0
FRIDAY - DAY 3
06:22: Alarm goes off and I roll out of bed and take my pup for a nice walk. Give him breakfast / shower / throw on my scrubs / pack my lunch / give the pup a big kiss goodbye and I am out the door a little after 7:00.
07:47: I get to school and I am NOT feeling it lol. I stopped at Costco for gas on my way ($20.67) and I also swung by a very Texas niche store that sells all kinds of beef jerky my brother really likes to grab some for his birthday coming up ($17.98).
10:00: Class is boring - it’s tough getting back into it with an 8 hour cardiac lecture. It’s good to see my friends but struggle is real. I run into my favorite professor and she makes my morning. I tell her all about my upcoming internship and my boyfriend’s new job and she was stoked and told me to “lock him down” hahaha. I also make 2 phone calls to apartment complexes we are interested in cause my boyfriend doesn’t get great reception at work during business hours. One place doesn’t have any current availability but the lady was so nice and will be sending me a virtual tour later today. Schedule another tour on Monday afternoon.
11:30: We break for lunch and I eat the same thing as yesterday - rotisserie chicken + frozen veggies + cheddar cheese.
12:30: Spend the afternoon in class completely unable to concentrate. The professor is throwing ECG rhythms around left and right. 8 hours of ECG lecture is NOT a productive way to learn the material. I work on a couple study guides during class cause I cannot.
3:30: We get out a little early and I rush to meet my mom for a walk through of the house. I follow her back to her office because I sent a big Chewy order there. Pick up the box along with a Diet Coke, order us Cava for dinner, pick up Cava, check on my friends cats on my way home real quick, and then have a shower and relax. Mom pays for Cava and I thank her multiple times.
7:00: We eat dinner all together when everyone is eventually home (harissa avocado bowl for me!) and then my boyfriend calls right when I head out to walk my dog. Perfect. I miss him and have been having anxiety around our new schedules. We have a good 30 minute chat about our days before I spend the evening basically doing nothing. I chat with my family and mess around on my phone. Text boyfriend about different apartments.
22:44: Bed time after I brush and floss my teeth. I’m zonked from the week.
TOTAL: $38.65
SATURDAY - DAY 4
08:30: I’m awake! Did not sleep well at all cause thunderstorms. My pup is deathly afraid and will not stop shaking for hours so I end up sleeping on the couch on and off. We were up and down all night but somehow I feel okay. We go for a quick walk, feed him, and start a load of whites in the washer.
09:08: I have a shower, and then I head out to get my family coffee from one of our favorite spots.
10:45: Make it back home with 2 cold brews for my brother and I and a latte for mom. I also picked up 5 breakfast tacos and a German chocolate cake for Sunday dinner tomorrow ($56.24). I eat a bean and cheese taco and a potato and egg taco, start some laundry, and put air in my tires with my home compressor since my low air light has been on in my car for an embarrassing amount of time. Brother needs air in his tires too so turns into a production lol.
12:18: Spent a couple hours putzing around dealing with the tires and more laundry and packing a bag for tonight. We are headed to the lake for a friend’s bday party and I have no clue what I want to wear so I pack a lot of options and clothes for church tomorrow morning too. Now it’s time to drive around for a little bit and check out some potential apartments and do a small Target run.
14:02: I make it home from apartment cruising and my Target run. I bought a 3 subject notebook, tire pressure gauge with valve caps included, two bags of frozen veggies, mini coke zeros, and a bag of Lesser Evil popcorn ($21.50). I was so tempted to stop for lunch on my way home but lines were long everywhere so I made myself some cheesy eggs + 2 Eggo waffles when I got home. Put the valve cap on my tire that is missing one.
14:36: Make it to L’s condo and clean up after the cats and start the Roomba. Boyfriend texts that he is out of work and on his way over! He’s been up since 4 am this morning for work and I am feeling some type of way with everything on my plate / anxiety so we will see how long we make it tonight lol.
15:30: S is showered and we are out the door!
16:30: We make it to the rental, change into our bathing suits, and walk down to the river.
19:00: We hang out in the river for a good 2.5 hours. It was a good time - nice to chat with my school friends and their partners. Boyfriend and I head out before the real partying starts lol.
20:00: We eat dinner at this cute Tex Mex place. Boyfriend has some kind of alcoholic mixed drink and we share a fajita for 2 plate. Boyfriend pays - it was $70.56 with tip. I drive us back because he does not like to drive even after one drink which I am 100% here for. We are so tired lol.
21:15: Make it back to L’s condo and we take a hot shower and get into bed in the guest bedroom. It takes forever for us to both fall asleep.
TOTAL: $77.74
SUNDAY - DAY 5
6:50: Oh boy neither of us slept well. There was another thunderstorm. One of the cats was yowling nonstop outside our door. The ceiling fan was clanking on and off. The bed was way too soft. Up and down again all night for a second night in a row for me lol.
8:11: I’m showered and we are both dressed and we head out to one of our favorite taquerias for breakfast. I get 2 bean and cheese tacos and one machacado + egg taco. Boyfriend also gets 3 tacos and we both get coffee. We sit and chat for a while until it was time to go to church. I pay on the way out ($22.98 with tip).
11:40: After an hour of church and an hour meeting for a committee I’m on - I’m wiped out. Still have a house walk through to do with my family and boyfriend so I head over there and we are there for about an hour.
13:10: Finally made it home, walked my pup, and made myself a late lunch of Dave’s Killer bread toast + peanut butter + banana.
13:54: A girlfriend calls and asks if I want to get a pedicure this afternoon. We decide to get dinner together on Thursday instead. I’m actually very touched she called me because we are friends through another friend and normally don’t get together just the two of us. I’m really happy she reached out. I also invite one of my friends from school - I have been wanting them to meet for a while.
14:30: Nap timeeeee! I knock out for an hour then realize how thirsty I am and how badly I need to get out of the apartment. I get up, take the pup for a spin with my brother, and head to Sonic to get a large diet cherry limeade and then head to L’s condo to check on the kitties and chill ($3.34).
18:00: I spent a couple hours chilling on the internet - working on my google calendar, school organization, church emails, reviewing some apartments we may drive by tomorrow, and I download the remaining episodes of season 1 of Nurse Jackie to watch tonight. I had bought the complete first season over a month ago and still haven’t watched it all lol. That’s how little I watch tv.
20:00: We had bibimbap for dinner and German chocolate cake for dessert. Delicious. I clean up the dishes and do more laundry because that’s my life between school, work, working out, having 2 hairy pets, etc. Unpack my bags from the river day and sleepover last night too. Chat with my family.
22:00: Crawl into bed and watch some Nurse Jackie before passing out.
TOTAL: $26.32
MONDAY - DAY 6
7:33: I slept better but still tossed and turned. Still just anxious with everything going on, especially the start of another intense semester.
8:47: Pup is fed and walked. I open the windows because it is 68 degrees which is unheard of in June in south Texas.
10:06: I ended up doing a deep clean of my room hahah. Wiped down and vacuumed every surface. So much hair. My pup is shedding so bad. I change my bedding and toss my comforter in the wash. Thank goodness I have 2 sets of sheets now. I had only 1 for the longest time lol. I take a break and eat some Greek yogurt + pecans + banana + drizzle of honey.
11:03: I vacuumed the common areas in the apartment, took a long shower, and I’m dressed and ready for my boyfriend to pick me up. I felt like being cute today so I put on this new leather skirt from Alice + Olivia my boyfriend got me as a present that I haven’t worn yet + a white crop top + my cheetah old skool Vans. I’m so tired though lololol. This is one of the only Mondays we both have off for the foreseeable future so I am gonna rally and make the most of it!
11:15: Boyfriend is so tired too bahah. We go grab coffees at this cute little coffee shop I’ve been wanting to check out. I get a cortado. Boyfriend gets an iced caramel almond milk latte and I treat ($11.82 with tip). We sit and chill and map out what apartments we want to check out today.
12:30: Walk across the street to grab Tex Mex for lunch at a pretty famous place in town. I get the enchilada plate and boyfriend gets a chicken quesadilla plate. He pays and it is $27.89 with tip.
1:30: Go for our first apartment tour of the day and it is depressing. We drive around and check out the other apartments we are I interested in and then go on one more tour at a place that we are really impressed by. It’s $1.3k or so for a 500 sq ft one bedroom and that’s a stretch. Ideally he wants the base rent to be $1,000 or less which is quite doable. Yet again - south Texas prices for the win. He is looking at older buildings, but they are well kept up and in good neighborhoods. They are not in the hottest places to be in town, but definitely still nice.
16:00: We go back to L’s condo and chill and take care of the kitties. Discuss the apartments and ask my brother if he wants to get dinner with us and he agrees.
18:00: We head back to my apartment, pick up my brother, and head to dinner. We order a large caesar salad, an arugula and sausage pizza, and a mushroom and pepperoni pizza. This spot does $10 two topping pizzas on Monday and it slaps. I treat my boyfriend and brother to dinner ($48.01 with tip).
20:00: Home and boyfriend walks my pup with me. Brother makes us both tea and we have a nice cup of tea and chat until boyfriend heads home. I put together my breakfast and lunch tomorrow and then lay down to chill and have some quiet time.
22:30: Bed time! First day of critical care didactic is tomorrow and I am feeling mostly excited.
TOTAL: $59.82
TUESDAY - DAY 7
6:22: My alarm goes off and wakes me from a deep sleep. I finally slept a good 8 hours though!
7:10: I am showered and throw on some black Lululemon Align leggings and a swiftly tech tee. I was gonna wear real pants but screw that haha. I am really dragging this morning.
7:50: Make it to school and lecture starts at 8. Honestly - that lecture could have been given in 45 minutes but we spent the first 2 hours simply going over the schedule and clarifying assignments since everything is such a disorganized hot mess at the beginning of the semester.
10:05: We take a break and call a fellow church congregation member to see if we want to meet today to tour an organization that supports people immigrating. We are debating if we want to allocate church donation funds to them. We agree to meet at the location at 1:30.
12:41: We are done with class and I stayed a bit after to start making my study guide for our first test even though it isn’t for 5 weeks. I realize the time and quickly pack up and go heat up my lunch. Chat with an MSN student who I had met in orientation for my internship a couple weeks ago and he expressed his frustration about how the start of this semester is rough for him too.
2:38: We finish our tour and we are very impressed at the clean and organized operation. We agree to each write our own follow up email to the rest of the group before the end of the day supplying the church donating.
3:30: I make some jasmine tea and have some quiet time when I get home before starting on some dosage calculation problems that are due on Friday.
5:45: I end up spending almost 2.5 hours on homework - dosage calculations, an article summary, and start on a medication sheet. Ouch. I lay down for 20 minutes, take my pup out, and then head out to meet my friend for dinner at Cava.
6:30: I get the lemon chicken bowl and pita chips ($13.69) and we sit and chat for a 1.5 hours. We just saw each other a couple weeks ago, but so much to catch up on.
20:00: We agree to go on a double date in the next couple weeks and I head home. I walk my pup with my mom and brother, pack my gym bag and my food for tomorrow, write my follow up emails from today’s visit to the church committee, and relax in bed.
TOTAL: $13.69
TALLY OF DAILY EXPENSES:

• Food + Drink: $240.36
• Fun / Entertainment: $0
• Home + Health: $0
• Clothes + Beauty: $0
• Transport: $30.67
• Other: $17.98

TOTAL EXPENSES: $279.11
REFLECTION
I spent quite a bit on going out to eat this week with my boyfriend, family, and friends. It was the end of my school break and boyfriend is transitioning to a new job so we were a bit out of whack with spending on food. Usually we eat at home with our families more, but it was nice to go out and enjoy ourselves too. It was a super busy week for me too - which is the norm lately. I have a great community and social life here compared to the West Coast and I do not take that for granted. Trying to make myself more of a priority so I don’t burn out again, which is difficult for me.

Orioles @ Brewers - Wed, Jun 07

Game Status: Final - Score: 10-2 Brewers

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	Orioles Batters	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	K	LOB	AVG	OBP	SLG
1	Frazier - 2B	3	0	0	0	0	1	1	.236	.299	.390
	Urías, R - 2B	1	1	1	0	0	0	0	.244	.331	.341
2	Rutschman - C	3	0	0	0	1	1	0	.281	.399	.425
3	Hays - LF	4	0	1	1	0	1	0	.303	.343	.488
4	Santander - RF	3	0	0	0	0	1	0	.251	.325	.456
	McKenna - RF	1	0	0	0	0	0	2	.242	.282	.364
5	Hicks, A - CF	4	0	1	0	0	2	1	.227	.306	.341
6	Henderson - 3B	3	0	1	0	0	0	1	.204	.328	.383
7	O'Hearn - 1B	3	0	0	0	0	2	1	.286	.328	.536
8	Lester - DH	3	0	0	0	0	1	2	.143	.143	.143
9	Mateo - SS	3	1	1	0	0	0	1	.230	.271	.379
	Totals	31	2	5	1	1	9	9

Orioles
BATTING: TB: Hays; Henderson; Hicks, A; Mateo; Urías, R. RBI: Hays (25). Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Hicks, A. GIDP: McKenna. Team RISP: 1-for-3. Team LOB: 3.
FIELDING: E: Zimmermann (1, fielding).

	Brewers Batters	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	K	LOB	AVG	OBP	SLG
1	Yelich - LF	5	0	1	0	0	3	4	.257	.352	.394
	1-Perkins, B - LF	0	0	0	0	0	0	0	.130	.167	.261
2	Adames - SS	5	1	2	1	0	2	3	.211	.295	.405
3	Tellez - 1B	5	0	0	0	0	0	3	.233	.313	.455
4	Miller, O - 3B	5	1	1	0	0	1	2	.309	.346	.454
5	Singleton - DH	3	1	1	1	0	0	0	.143	.200	.214
	a-Contreras, Wm - DH	2	1	2	0	0	0	0	.240	.340	.409
6	Anderson, B - RF	4	2	2	1	0	1	2	.235	.336	.402
7	Monasterio - 2B	5	1	1	1	0	2	4	.320	.393	.520
8	Caratini - C	2	1	2	1	0	0	0	.237	.322	.355
9	Wiemer - CF	4	2	4	5	0	0	0	.231	.299	.429
	Totals	40	10	16	10	0	9	18

Brewers
a-Singled for Singleton in the 7th. 1-Ran for Yelich in the 7th.
BATTING: 2B: Adames (7, Kremer); Singleton (1, Kremer); Wiemer (12, Zimmermann); Monasterio (2, Zimmermann). HR: Adames (10, 1st inning off Kremer, 0 on, 1 out); Wiemer 2 (8, 3rd inning off Kremer, 1 on, 0 out, 7th inning off Zimmermann, 1 on, 2 out). TB: Adames 6; Anderson, B 2; Caratini 2; Contreras, Wm 2; Miller, O; Monasterio 2; Singleton 2; Wiemer 11; Yelich. RBI: Adames (28); Anderson, B (32); Caratini (11); Monasterio (4); Singleton (1); Wiemer 5 (23). 2-out RBI: Singleton; Wiemer 3; Anderson, B. Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Miller, O; Yelich; Tellez 2; Monasterio. SF: Caratini. Team RISP: 4-for-12. Team LOB: 9.
FIELDING: DP: 2 (Adames-Tellez; Adames-Monasterio-Tellez).

Orioles Pitchers	IP	H	R	ER	BB	K	HR	P-S	ERA
Kremer (L, 6-3)	5.0	9	6	6	0	5	2	93-58	4.89
Zimmermann	3.0	7	4	4	0	4	1	61-39	7.20
Totals	8.0	16	10	10	0	9	3

Brewers Pitchers	IP	H	R	ER	BB	K	HR	P-S	ERA
Burnes (W, 5-4)	8.0	2	0	0	0	9	0	96-72	3.36
Sousa	1.0	3	2	2	1	0	0	25-15	13.50
Totals	9.0	5	2	2	1	9	0

Game Info
WP: Burnes.
HBP: Anderson, B (by Kremer); Caratini (by Zimmermann).
Pitches-strikes: Kremer 93-58; Zimmermann 61-39; Burnes 96-72; Sousa 25-15.
Groundouts-flyouts: Kremer 6-3; Zimmermann 3-3; Burnes 8-3; Sousa 2-0.
Batters faced: Kremer 25; Zimmermann 18; Burnes 26; Sousa 6.
Ejections: Orioles manager Brandon Hyde ejected by HP umpire Hunter Wendelstedt (5th).
Umpires: HP: Hunter Wendelstedt. 1B: Brian Walsh. 2B: Ryan Blakney. 3B: Marvin Hudson.
Weather: 70 degrees, Roof Closed.
Wind: 16 mph, L To R.
First pitch: 6:41 PM.
T: 2:31.
Att: 22,320.
Venue: American Family Field.
June 7, 2023

Inning	Scoring Play	Score
Bottom 1	Willy Adames homers (10) on a fly ball to center field.	1-0 MIL
Bottom 3	Joey Wiemer homers (7) on a fly ball to right center field. Victor Caratini scores.	3-0 MIL
Bottom 4	Joey Wiemer singles on a fly ball to right fielder Anthony Santander. Brian Anderson scores. Victor Caratini to 3rd.	4-0 MIL
Bottom 5	Jon Singleton doubles (1) on a line drive to left fielder Austin Hays. Owen Miller scores.	5-0 MIL
Bottom 5	Brian Anderson singles on a ground ball to center fielder Aaron Hicks. Jon Singleton scores.	6-0 MIL
Bottom 7	Andruw Monasterio doubles (2) on a line drive to right fielder Anthony Santander. William Contreras scores. Brian Anderson to 3rd.	7-0 MIL
Bottom 7	Victor Caratini out on a sacrifice fly to right fielder Anthony Santander. Brian Anderson scores. Andruw Monasterio to 3rd.	8-0 MIL
Bottom 7	Joey Wiemer homers (8) on a fly ball to left field. Andruw Monasterio scores.	10-0 MIL
Top 9	Austin Hays singles on a line drive to center fielder Joey Wiemer. Jorge Mateo scores. Ramon Urias to 3rd. Adley Rutschman to 2nd.	10-1 MIL
Top 9	Ryan McKenna grounds into a double play, shortstop Willy Adames to second baseman Andruw Monasterio to first baseman Rowdy Tellez. Ramon Urias scores. Adley Rutschman to 3rd. Austin Hays out at 2nd. Ryan McKenna out at 1st.	10-2 MIL

Team	Highlight
MIL	Bullpen availability for Milwaukee, June 7 vs Orioles (00:00:07)
BAL	Bullpen availability for Baltimore, June 7 vs Brewers (00:00:07)
MIL	Fielding alignment for Milwaukee, June 7 vs Orioles (00:00:11)
MIL	Starting lineups for Orioles at Brewers - June 7, 2023 (00:00:09)
MIL	Corbin Burnes's outing against the Orioles (00:00:22)
MIL	Willy Adames rips solo homer (10) (00:00:29)
MIL	Joey Wiemer's two-run homer (7) (00:00:29)
MIL	Joey Wiemer's RBI single (00:00:22)
MIL	Jon Singleton's RBI double (00:00:26)
BAL	Brandon Hyde's ejection (00:00:20)
MIL	Brian Anderson's RBI single (00:00:20)
BAL	Dean Kremer's five strikeouts (00:00:36)
BAL	Zimmermann gets out of a jam (00:00:24)
MIL	Andruw Monasterio's RBI double (00:00:28)
MIL	Victor Caratini's sacrifice fly (00:00:27)
MIL	Joey Wiemer's 2nd home run (8) (00:00:26)
MIL	Joey Wiemer's sliding catch (00:00:23)
MIL	Brewers overturn call at first (00:00:27)
MIL	Joey Wiemer's first multi-HR game (00:00:55)
BAL	Austin Hays' RBI single (00:00:24)
BAL	Ramón Urías scores (00:00:30)
MIL	Brewers secure 10-2 victory (00:00:20)
MIL	Corbin Burnes' dominant outing (00:01:15)
MIL	Joey Wiemer's four-hit game (00:01:48)

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7	8	9		R	H	E	LOB
Orioles	0	0	0	0	0	0	0	0	2		2	5	1	3
Brewers	1	0	2	1	2	0	4	0			10	16	0	9

Decisions

• Winner: Corbin Burnes (5-4, 3.36)
• Loser: Dean Kremer (6-3, 4.89)

Division Scoreboard

MIN 1 @ TB 2 - Final
HOU 2 @ TOR 3 - Final
BOS 2 @ CLE 5 - Final
CWS 0 @ NYY 0 - Postponed
Next Orioles Game: Thu, Jun 08, 02:10 PM EDT @ Brewers
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okay, i don't know how to post a video and would LOVE if someone wanted to do captions, I may after I finish eating. anyways I went back to early season 9 because that seems like the most likely bombshell theory (longer timeline from confessional.)
Raquel is with James, and has just been asked to give a toast, and totally freaks out. Then she is outside with James, which begins around 21:23
Basically, she goes super deep into her own psychology. She explains that she has never felt important, or confident (which to her goes to important). She says "Even growing up, I would never raise my hand in class" in the surest, saddest voice you can imagine. Like this issue HAUNTS her, and then she starts talking about Lala.
She envies Lala's confidence; she doesn't understand how she can think she is important enough to be able to speak her mind, which again seems to be an essential equation to her: you must be Important to say and do what you want. Otherwise, you must be silent and stay in your box.
I think in Raquel's mind, since she has always been 'good', she truly didn't believe she was capable of doing something Wrong. she thought she was being confident, a girl boss, and also must have believed that by being with Tom behind Ariana's back, that in some way she was being the most confident; she was 'taking' the man of the most confident woman on the show.
I think the response has shocked her. I love the way that they've shot Raquel as an observer in the first reunion episodes, watching the drama unfold from a screen just like us. In a way, I feel like she is a kind of living canvas of the values the show portrays, and of the values and ways we deem someone Important; the way it has become the arbiter of validation. I truly feel bad for her, because I feel like I know a million girls who would have fallen for Tom's bullshit, especially in a world (and LA in particular) where image is everything and people have totally lost hold of a grip on anything 'real'. I legitimately feel like this is the Shakespearean drama of our times and has like broken new boundaries in television and I'm fucking obsessed
Edit: to clarify, I think Raquel is 100% accountable for her actions, and the responsibility lays with her to grow from this. BUT I do feel bad for her in that I have been a server and lived in LA and it's just dark, dark shit. & it seems so clear to me as a vieweBravo lover that as the audience, we are also implicated in this because: we love it. we LOVE it. this did make her Important to the show. this is something we won't ever forget. I think it's very complex and very like "I had to carry out my doomed aim" and I just think it's fucking wild

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So, to cut a long tale short, I'm 28 years old, didn't technically graduate from high school approximately 4 years ago, and have been avoiding employment ever since.
After high school, my family would constantly remind me that I needed to get employment. I would ignore them and claim that I would eventually do so, although making no attempt to do so. I'm NEET due to social anxiety and some past trauma, so finding a job is a pretty daunting prospect for me.
I ultimately heard that I had to have a job or else I would be homeless, so I reluctantly applied for government assistance. I really didn't want to do this because it would have required me to report to a job agency and actively seek employment in order to maintain my benefits. I would have nothing to show for myself week after week, and my agent would make an effort to humiliate me for not having any work leads. I detested observing them.
Covid-19 eventually arrived and saved my life. I was now receiving three times as many benefits without having to look for a job. Everything was going well. I got takeaway every night and bought a load of Valorant skins. I was content:)
Nevertheless, this did not endure, and despite receiving over $20,000 in compensation, I had nothing left. I had to meet my employment agent every other week once more when my benefits eventually returned to what they had been, or did I? You see, I had a brilliant idea that I termed "operation sink or swim" in which I had to choose between going without a place to live and finding a job.
I was reasonably optimistic that I had time to get my stuff together because I had enough money for my living expenses to last around six weeks. However, I didn't. At this point, my anxiety about being around people and my trauma-related problems were less severe than they had been when I first became a NEET, but I had developed some pretty bad habits, like waking up, eating, and drinking coffee before spending the rest of the day watching YouTube, porn, and playing video games. I was unable to end the loop.
After a while, my mother observed that I wasn't buying groceries as frequently, that I would wait until I was out of food before buying more, and that I was constantly late with my rent payments. The game was over since I could no longer even hold my own weight and everyone in my family realized how much of a failure I was. My mother's expression of dismay devastated me, and my emotions of shame deepened. It was agreed that my only value was as a helper for errands and housework, which is understandable given that I wasn't paying for it myself, but it was really embarrassing to essentially be everyone's slave.
At this time, I realized I had to take action. I had felt I could handle getting a job until I had to confront the fact that I had to do it. But the reality of it was just too overwhelming; worrying about what my coworkers would think of me and that they would hold me accountable if I made a mistake was embarrassing. I also worried that this would be seen as my first step into complete independence and that I would no longer have the luxury of living off my family and instead would be a wage slave for the rest of my life.
Other options had to exist, and they did. I've always been passionate about YouTube, and even though I hadn't posted much previously, I was sure I could build a popular channel. I identified a market gap and added podcast episodes from a YouTuber's podcast. Unexpectedly, after constantly doing this for a month, it ended up working, and I ended up with 15,000 subscribers and over 350k views. I joined the YouTube partner program, and my first month's earnings were $600. Unfortunately, nothing wonderful lasts forever, and when YouTube learned about this, they removed me from the YPP and shut down my channel. At this time, I genuinely felt hopeless.
After some time had gone, I was scrolling through Tik Tok when I came across someone boasting about how they had made $300 in a week by only spending two hours a day taking surveys. I wasn't exactly convinced and thought I wasn't the kind of person who would be foolish enough to download some dubious survey app, but it lingered with me. I searched for it in the app store and downloaded the first app I came across out of desperation and curiosity.
I chose to dedicate an hour to see how much money I could make from the surveys, which ranged in price from 80 cents to $3 for surveys lasting 5 to 20 minutes. After an hour, I had earned a meager $11.23. It wasn't much money, and I'm pretty sure it's less than half the minimum wage where I live, but it still felt odd to me. When I deposited it to PayPal and subsequently my bank account, I saw real money for the first time in months.
After performing some quick arithmetic, I estimated that if I could make $10 per hour and spend 5 hours per day taking surveys, I could easily make $300 to $400 per week. Again, not a lot of money, but if I did this, I'd be making the same amount of money I was receiving in government assistance when COVID hit. However, this time I didn't have to worry about seeking work or even having a job; instead, I could just sit at home and complete surveys while watching Twitch streams.
This marked the beginning of my six-month journey towards a survey-only existence. There have been some additional benefits to doing this, notwithstanding the increased money. While earning money via surveys is a pretty dismal endeavor, it has given me structure and a measure of self-respect. Now that I don't have to perform all the housework, my days seem longer and happier.
I get out of bed and cycle to the nearest coffee shop, where I spend $3.85 on a medium double espresso shot latte. I then ride back to my house and settle down, feeling all cozy, filling out surveys while watching YouTube videos and Twitch broadcasts. I feel more productive and can sleep better at night knowing that I'm not letting each day pass me by totally.
I think I've made good progress toward regaining my ability to function as a normal human. Oddly enough, I can picture a time in the future when I am contently working a 9–5 job or, even better, founding a business to free myself from wage labor. Now that they are aware of my condition and my willingness to make an effort to carry my own weight, my family appears to be much more understanding of it. Speaking with individuals at my neighborhood coffee shop and getting to know them by name has developed into a pretty simple approach to engaging in social interaction each day, which has greatly reduced my social anxiety. Life feels happy once more:)
I figured that some people here might be interested in also doing surveys so i'll leave a link to the two survey apps that I use.
https://www.probrandreviews.com/

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Figured I'd post here about my baby daddy because honestly I'm so tired of him being awful and getting away with it, and decided to share what I've dealt with for 9 years. This post is going to be long af so hold on to your butts. So I've actually known my youngests dad, let's call him nick (he's 5 days younger than me) since highschool, we never ran in the same crowds so we weren't close. Years later he messaged me on fb, we went on one date and spent the night with nick in his gmas basement. (At this point I was 23 and he had never had his own place) It was on from there, he moved in with me within three weeks in my two bedroom apartment and I was pregnant within three months. The first pregnancy was unplanned but ended in a miscarriage with the first 6 weeks which I'll be honest was a huge relief (I was a single mom of two other children and just went thro losing a child at three months old two years before) but somehow I ended up pregnant a month later which I'm still confused how that happen since I took steps to make sure I wouldn't be pregnant again. But first few months everything was great, I thought nick was amazing and I was happy. Well once my lease was up, we started looking for a new apartment while.i was around 4 months pregnant. We found a new place about 45 minutes away from the town I lived in. I wasn't thrilled about that but it was a better place and a block from my parents house so we moved in. This is the point where I realized he was just making the person he was so for sake of the post I'll try and just bullet point things over the years. While we were living in that apartment he would scream at me for no reason or things that weren't my fault. He was using meth on and off the entirety of our relationship (found that out later). One night he woke me up at 1 am when I'm 6 months pregnant screaming at me and throwing my phone at me because he found dirty texts is my phone... FROM 2 YEARS BEFORE WE DATED. He isolated me to the extent that I didn't have my own phone, bank account or job. He controlled wat I wore, who I talked to, where I went and even seeing my family. There was lots of emotional and verbal abuse and he would trigger me on purpose then call me crazy when I had a PTSD episode because I would hide in closets. I decided enough was enough 5 months after my son was born. One day I packed up my stuff and left no real plan or resources. He said he would help me by letting me keep the apartment until I got on my feet and stay in the area. 1.5.weeks later informs me he is no longer doing that and tells me I have three days to get me, my kids and my stuff out or he's going to burn it. This led to me spending a year getting back on my feet and during this year was non stop verball abuse (In front of our son till he cried), bringing my son to his meth headed dads house and living in his jeep. We went on and off for a few of the months and things when this was happening were ok, very little abuse or controlling behavior. Finally i decided I was done.amd.started dating again. This is where things got worse. He would stalk me when I didn't have my son, dragging our son out at.all hours to see what I was doing. He would force me to have sex with or send nudes for grocery or diaper money for his child. It escalated until he SAed me on his dirty trailer floor with my son in another room. Realizing this post is getting long af so let's just bullet point. He took me to court for custody after I tried to file a restraining order (his gma bankrolls him.) After I filed 22 police reports of harassment and court order violations. I finally gave up and ran with my son after his gf attacked me in front of my son because she thought I wanted him while she was in jail and he kept sending me dick pics. and he filed a court order that I never received because I was in hiding which resulted in my son being taken away with no explanation or information for days since they did it on a Friday evening. We've had joint custody which he continues to ignore whenever it's convenient for him. He forces me to drive 6 hours a day just to pick my son up and drop off simply because our court order is outdated and he knows I can't afford to fight him in court. He still verbally abusing me, and he physically beats his wife. (She sent pics and I'm who she called wen he went to jail, her and I have a very good relationship) and has done so in front of our son. He constantly bad mouths me to our son and flat out lies about things that our son shouldn't know anything about. I've offered to even move closer if he could compromise on a new mediated court agreement. He refused. I truly believe he is verbally abusing my son panics whenever he gets in trouble. Hes denied things that our in court order simply because he's ignorant and it's expensive to file court papers and so are lawyers. He doesn't even see his son more than twice a week. After he beat his wife I fought for an OFP (he only beat it on a case precedent from 2012, even the judge told him this wasn't a win) he cried about how much he missed his son but wouldn't come to the exchange (which I never cause problems at not now or the past) and he picks a job he works nights so he never sees our son. he only speaks to me wen he wants to flex control and I'll b honest I am still scared of him. I coparent with his wife not him. This is a rambling post but I had to vent this all these years of taking the high road, not talking bad about him, not blasting him over social media simply because I don't want to do that to my son, and when/if my son sees him for what he is I don't want him to be able to say I influenced it any way and he has no one else to blame but himself.

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On November 5, 2021, President Dallin H. Oaks, First Counselor in the First Presidency of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, delivered the seventh annual Joseph Smith Lecture on Religious Liberty titled "Going Forward with Religious Freedom & Nondiscrimination." The lecture can be listened to on Buzzsprout.
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Stephen Betts interviews Professor Adam Miller about his book "Original Grace: An Experiment in Restoration Thinking," in which Miller proposes that Latter-day Saint scripture's rejection of original sin allows for a rethinking of the relationship between grace and justice, suggesting that grace is not separate but rather integral to divine justice. listen to the podcast here.
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In the podcast episode, "The Last Mormon Liberal," Stephen Betts interviews Kristine Haglund about her recent book on Eugene England and his impact as a Mormon thinker. They discuss England's intellectual influences, methods, and theology within the context of Mormon thought. Listen to the podcast here.
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In this episode of the Arts of Language Podcast, Stephen Betts interviews Professor Nathan Rees, author of "Mormon Visual Culture and the American West," to discuss the role visual art played in shaping and interpreting the experiences of Latter-day Saints in the 19th century American frontier. They delve into topics such as C.C.A. Christensen, settler colonialism, race, and gender. Listen to the full episode here.
Stephen Betts interviews Dr. Bruce Worthen about his book "Mormon Envoy: The Diplomatic Legacy of Dr. John Milton Bernhisel," where they discuss the forgotten contributions of Bernhisel to early Mormon history, including his role during the 1857 Utah War and his status as a confidant to several important figures in the early Church. Listen to the full podcast episode here.
Stephen Betts summarizes Yale Law School Professor William N. Eskridge's presentation at the eighth annual Joseph Smith Lecture on Religious Liberty at the University of Virginia, where Eskridge discussed "LGBTQ+ Equality & Religious Liberty: Statutory Principles & The Golden Rule" and identified principles for cooperation between the LGBTQ+ community and religious institutions based on principles similar to those in the Utah statute. read more here.
In a recent episode of the Stephen Smoots Show, Stephen Betts interviews Dr. James Faulconer, a Latter-day Saint philosopher and theologian, about "performative" or "scriptural" theology and how it illuminates Latter-day Saint scripture. Faulconer argues that Joseph Smith's revelations addressed philosophical dilemmas inherited from classical Christian theism and dates back to the Presocratic philosopher Parmenides and his doctrine of the One. Listen to the full episode here.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints shares an update on Elder Jeffrey R. Holland's health, announcing his return to limited public ministry. Read more here.
The Yigo Guam Temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has been working to clean up damages after Typhoon Mawar hit the island on May 24, 2023. Read more here.
The Saints Unscripted team interviews Derek and Denise Galanis about Derek's conversion to the gospel while serving time for fraud, and how reconnecting with Denise led him to read the Book of Mormon four times and ultimately join the Church. Watch the video here.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Argentina partnered with 14 non-profit organizations to assemble and distribute 23,000 school supply kits to children in need. Read more here.
Rachel J. Trotter shares how her dad witnessed JFK the morning he was assassinated and other significant moments from history, emphasizing the importance of collecting and preserving family history. She encourages readers to ask their family members about their experiences and write down their stories to pass on to future generations. Read more on Meridian Magazine.
The Church News shares the text to the prayer offered by President M. Russell Ballard to rededicate the Columbus Ohio Temple, which pays homage to past prophets and emphasizes the blessings of temple worship. Read more here.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints shares an interview with Elder Soares on the name of the Church, his calling as an Apostle, and the Church's humanitarian and genealogical efforts. Read more here.
The BYU Cougarettes have won 22 national titles and dancers on the team attribute their success to their spiritual preparation, including reciting a team scripture, setting spiritual goals, and watching conference together between rehearsals. Read more here.
In her podcast episode titled "1161: Love is the Answer, John 14-17," Cali Black discusses the powerful doctrine found in John 14:15 about keeping the commandments even when life doesn't go as planned. She also provides resources for daily devotions and scripture study. Read more here.
In his latest podcast episode, Breck England discusses the opening of the seventh seal in the book of Revelation and why there is silence in heaven, highlighting its significance for Latter-day Saints. Listen to the episode on Spotify or on the Breck England Podbean page. Read more here.
Jeff Teichert, co-author of Intentional Courtship: A Mid-Singles Guide to Peace, Progress and Pairing Up in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, discusses the importance of seeking divine guidance when making life choices, particularly in the context of mid-singles who may have experienced hurt and disappointment in relationships. He encourages individuals to trust in the Lord and his plan for each person. Read more here.
In his article "Most Parenting Programs are at Odds with the Gospel," H. Wallace Goddard argues that many popular parenting programs, like behaviorism and natural consequences, do not align with the teachings of the Gospel and instead suggest that parents should focus on the core principles of love and reasoned persuasion. He cautions against adopting any parenting book or program that is not consistent with the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Read more here.
FAIR presents "By Study and Faith - Episode 1: What is Critical Thinking?" on their website. The author describes critical thinking as ensuring one has good reasons for their beliefs and gives a brief summary of the series, which will explore basic principles behind critical thinking and practice critical thinking about LDS theology and history. The post concludes with an invitation to join the author on this journey of learning. Read more here.
In his blog post titled “William McGonagall, Poet and Tragedian”, author Dan Peterson discusses the infamous William McGonagall, a Scottish poet known for his terrible poems and earnest delivery. Peterson argues that there is something admirable about McGonagall’s persistent enthusiasm and willingness to share his art with the world, despite its lack of quality. Peterson also suggests that there may be a spiritual lesson to be learned from McGonagall’s example. Read more here.
In a recent blog post by FAIR, Jennifer Roach addresses the common topic of Grace vs. Works as part of the "Come, Follow Me with FAIR: Faithful Answers to New Testament Questions" series. After briefly outlining the traditional debate, Roach highlights that recent discussions in the Evangelical press may offer a better framework to approach the topic. She also introduces one of the speakers, Stephen Smoot, who will be speaking at the FAIR Conference this August in Provo, Utah. Read the full blog post at FAIR.
In her "Letter for my Wife Rebuttal" series, Sarah Allen addresses FAIR Mormon critic Ryan Faulk's claim that Joseph Smith had an unusually high number of wives and practiced polygamy differently than later members of the Church, pointing out that sealings and marriages were treated differently at that time and that the sealing power is intended to bind families together in the next life. She also reminds readers that none of Smith's wives were married to him against their will and notes the importance of asking God for personal revelation and understanding. Read more here.
The Leading Saints blog interviews Ben Thatcher, a city manager and current bishop of his ward, about his experiences with leadership, focusing on the concept of extended ward councils, a yearly, 90-minute council in a new environment, and the principles of focus and engagement in leadership. Read more here.
The Interpreter Foundation shares a conference talk called “Astronomy, God, and the Search for Elegance,” emphasizing that science and Mormonism can coexist. Read more here.

Hey folks, first time trading here, no rep to speak of, but if you check my profile i have done giveaways in the past, feel free to check after any of them. Gotta start somewhere, though, to trade, and im starting here.

Heres what ive got steam codes for:

tacoma
tacoma
youtuber's life
my big sister
yesterday origins
yesterday origins
call of juarez
call of jaurez gunslinger
fallout 3
omen exito
omen exito
train valley 2
train valley 2
train valley 2
lethal league blaze
lethal league blaze
grey goo def edition
grey goo def edition
grey goo def edition
among the sleep -enhanced edition
Among the Sleep - Enhanced Edition
golden light
the town of light
iconoclasts
iconoclasts
vambrace: cold soul
vambrace: cold soul
outbuddies dx
overclocked history of violence
the inner world
silver chains
doom 3
astronarch
slain back from hell
slain back from hell
wayout2: hex
biped
mini thief
kingdom rush
return to mysterious island
recon control
through the woods
lovecraft untold stories +artbook +ost
geometric sniper
3000th duel
NUTS
hollow knight
rain world
blasphemous
destiny 3 beyond light (dlc, needs game)
midnight ghost hunt
strider
ace attorney
ghostwire tokyo
grime

Heres what i want steam codes for

8 DOORS
9 Years of Shadows
Afterimage
Amanda the Adventurer
Anchorhead
Anemoiapolis: Chapter 1
Angry Video Game Nerd Adventures
Angry Video Game Nerd I & II Deluxe
Angry Video Game Nerd II: ASSimilation
Apotheon
Aragami 2
Arto
At Dead Of Night
Autopsy Simulator
Birth
Bleak Faith: Forsaken
Bloodwash
Bramble: The Mountain King
Brewmaster
Bugsnax
Cannibal Abduction
Capsized
Cathedral
Chivalry 2
Christmas Massacre
Colossal Cave
Conrad Stevenson's Paranormal P.I.
Crimson Snow
CULTIC
Dark Light
Dark Souls II: Scholar of the First Sin
Dark Souls Remastered
Dead Estate
Deadly Night
Death Trash
Death's Door
Death's Gambit
Deep Rock Galactic
Dinkum
Dragon Age
Dread X Collection 5
Dreams in the Witch House
Dredge
Duck Season PC
ENDER LILIES: Quietus of the Knights
Environmental Station Alpha
Escape the Backrooms
Fable Anniversary
Fabledom
Family curse
FATAL FRAME / PROJECT ZERO: Mask of the Lunar Eclipse Digital Deluxe Upgrade Pack
FATAL FRAME / PROJECT ZERO: MOBW - FATAL FRAME / PROJECT ZERO 20th Anniversary Celebration
Fear & Hunger 2: Termina
FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE INTERGRADE
Fobia O Jogo
Forager
From Darkness
G String
Gehinnom
Ghost Exile
Ghost Watchers
Ghosts Of Tabor
Harvestella
Have a Nice Death
Haven
Havendock
Heartworm
Hellscreen
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home EP2
House on the Hill
HYPERVIOLENT
I Did Not Buy This Ticket
illWill
Inmost
Interior Worlds
Judgment
KILLBUG
Kynseed
Legacy of Kain: Soul Reaver
Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
Life is Strange 2 - Episode 2
Life is Strange 2 - Episode 3
Life is Strange 2 - Episode 4
Life is Strange 2 - Episode 5
Life is Strange Remastered
Life is Strange: True Colors
Like a Dragon: Ishin!
Lost Judgment
Love, Sam
MADiSON
Mail Time
Martha is dead
Medieval Dynasty
Minoria
Mortal Sin
Mose
Mr. Sun's Hatbox
Murder House
My Work Is Not Yet Done
Night At the Gates of Hell
Night In The Woods
NightCry
OMORI
On Your Hands
Opus Magnum
Owlboy
OXENFREE II: Lost Signals
PARANOIA PLACE
Paranormal
PARANORMASIGHT: The Seven Mysteries of Honjo
Photographs
Pocket Mirror ~ GoldenerTraum
Post Trauma
Prodeus
Prognostic
Project Warlock II
Propagation: Paradise Hotel
Return of the Obra Dinn
Rewind Or Die
Roadwarden
Rogue Legacy 2
Roots of Pacha
S.W.A.N.
Sanitarium
Schizm 3: Nemezis
Schizm: Mysterious Journey
SEARCH PARTY: Director's Cut
Serious Sam 4
Serious Sam: Siberian Mayhem
Shadows of Doubt
Shadows Over Loathing
Shark Slayer
Sherlock Holmes - The Awakened
SIFU
Slime Rancher 2
Song Of The Prairie
Spectator
Start Over
Stay Out of the House
Stray
Substance 3D Painter 2023
Sun Haven
Supplice
Survival: Fountain of Youth
Tainted Grail: The Fall of Avalon
Terra Nil
The Case of the Golden Idol
The Dark Pictures Anthology: The Devil in Me
The Enigma Of Salazar House
The Entropy Centre
The House of Da Vinci 2
The House of Da Vinci 3
The Knight Witch
The Last Case of Benedict Fox
The Last of Us Part I
The Lighthouse
The Lost Legends of Redwall : The Scout
The Night of the Scissors
The Outer Worlds
The Subject
The Voidness - LIDAR Horror Survival Game
The Wild At Heart
The Witch of Fern Island
This is a Ghost
Trek to Yomi
Trenches - World War 1 Horror Survival Game
Trinity Fusion
Unboxing the Cryptic Killer
Viewfinder
Vigil: The Longest Night
Wanted: Dead
Wick
Windmills
WORLD OF HORROR
Zero Punctuation: Hatfall - Hatters Gonna Hat Edition
ParanormalHK
I'll check approximate values of games as trades are offered. I dont need to make every cent ive spent back, but id like them to be somewhat close in value. If you see something that might fit in my list but isnt there, feel free to take a shot in the dark.
Hope youre all doing well, im pulling a few back to back 20 hour shifts this week so im not sure how long im gonna be in responding but i will do my best.

You get one episode to convince someone who’s never seen the show to start watching it. What episode do you pick and why?
My Picks:
And Then There Were 10 -This is an obvious choice because it’s the first episode. You get introduced to the characters, the premise, and the concept of the Omnitrix. You can’t spoil anything with it. However, the show is still learning the Tennyson family dynamic, and Ben is inexperienced with his powers. It takes a while to get into the action.
Washington BC -The closest we have to the unaired pilot, this is the earliest episode where Ben already has the Omnitrix. Animo is a recurring villain.
Hunted -You get to see Ben with some mastery over Diamondhead, and you get introduced to the idea of Vilgax without too much being spoiled. Only risk here is that the focus is shared heavily by Tetrax, who only gets one other appearance.
Secrets -The viewer can gather that the Tennysons are on a road trip, and that Grandpa Max isn’t telling the whole truth. You get to learn all 10 of Ben’s aliens because of the quick changes, and you get introduced to Vilgax. The visual of the Mount Rushmore fight is really cool. Watching this only spoils a couple of foreshadowing moments from throughout the first season.
Framed -You get to see most of Ben’s aliens, and are introduced to Kevin and his mutated form. A lot of action here! The Tennysons interacting with Steel and SACT show you the Men in Black vibes I get from the show sometimes. You get spoiled for Kevin 11, and the opening shot of Four Arms robbing the game store would be confusing.
Under Wraps -Great moments with the Tennysons, you get a great montage with most of the current aliens. You get introduced to Gwen’s magic and Max’s tech. Max gets a lot of personality, and Gwen and Ben aren’t constantly bickering.
Monster Weather -A kind of forgettable filler episode, but that’s why it’s perfect. No new aliens used. Ben is especially a jerk, however.
From Omniverse: Ben Again -Has young Ben, teen Ben, Paradox, Eon, Rook, Gwen, and Max.

All the new horror movies (and some thrillers, and some shows) releasing throughout June 2023. Enjoy
I’ll continue editing and adding to this list frequently, as new info comes out.
What horror releases this month look interesting? .
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Releases	Notes	Date	Link	Location
◇ Horror Releases:
Subspecies V: Bloodrise (horror)	prequel; vampires; supernatural; castle; the dark ages; bloodline	June 2	IMDB	Screambox; Full Moon Features
The Boogeyman (horrothriller)	supernatural; haunted house	June 2	IMDB	Theaters
Follow Her (thrillehorror)	struggling live streamer; isolated luxury cabin; strange host	June 2	IMDB	VOD
Pollen (horror)	supernatural; eco-horror; creature	June 6	IMDB	VOD
The Devil Comes at Night (horror)	trapped; farmhouse; cannibalistic cult	June 6	IMDB	VOD
The Angry Black Girl and Her Monster (horrofantasy/drama)	teen girl; quest to cure death	June 9	IMDB	VOD
Brooklyn 45 (horrohistory/drama)	supernatural; friend group; veterans; seance	June 9	IMDB	Shudder; AMC+
Devilreaux (horrothriller)	supernatural; 1800’s; voodoo	June 9	IMDB	VOD
Beau is Afraid (horrocomedy/mystery/drama)	‘embarks on epic, Kafkaesque odyssey back home’	June 13	IMDB	VOD
Scream of the Wolf (horror)	supernatural; werewolf; abandoned mansion; movie crew	June 13	IMDB	VOD
Cannibal Cabin (horror)	friend group; lost; cannibals	June 13	IMDB	VOD
The Hopewell Haunting (horror)	paranormal	June 13	IMDB	VOD
Jagged Mind (horror)	blackouts; strange visions; time disturbance; strange girlfriend	June 15	IMDB	Hulu
The Walking Dead: Dead City (mini series; horrothrilleadventure)	spinoff; zombies; Manhattan	June 15	IMDB	AMC
Aged (horrothriller)	supernatural; caregiver; haunted house; B-horror	June 15	IMDB	VOD
The Blackening (horrothrillecomedy)	killer; friend group; cabin	June 16	IMDB	Theaters
Seire (S.Korean; horrodrama)	supernatural; folk-lore; newborn baby; bad luck	June 16	IMDB	VOD
Peppergrass (horrothriller)	restauranteur; attempts robbery from veteran; B-movie	June 16	IMDB	VOD
God is a Bullet (crime/drama/horror)	cult; ex-member + ex-cop; revenge	June 23	IMDB	VOD
Quicksand (thrillehorror)	couple; hiking; quicksand; wilderness survival	June 23	IMDB	Shudder; AMC+
The Gates (horrothriller)	supernatural; 1890’s; London; haunted prison	June 27	IMDB	VOD
Run Rabbit Run (horror)	strange daughter; past-life memories; family secrets; psychological	June 28	IMDB	Netflix
The Unseen (horrodrama/thriller)	supernatural; law student; madness	June 30	IMDB	VOD
◇ Dark and Strange Honorable Mentions (thrillers, etc.):
The Days (Japanese mini series; history/thriller)	Fukushima Daiichi nuclear power plant disaster	June 1	IMDB	Netflix
Simulant (sci-fi/thrillefantasy)	near-future; humanoid; A.I. uprising; gov manhunt	June 2	IMDB	VOD
Esme, My Love (thriller)	mother; child; terminal illness; abandoned farm	June 2	IMDB	VOD
The Lazarus Project (series; thrilleaction/fantasy)	top secret organization; time loops	June 4	IMDB	TNT; CBS
A Crowded Room (mini series; thrillemystery)	biography; Danny Sullivan; crime; 1979; interrogation; mysterious past	June 9	IMDB	AppleTV+
Fear the Invisible Man (thriller)	supernatural; strange guest; invisible man	June 13	IMDB	VOD
Black Mirror (series; S06; sci-fi/mystery/thriller)	anthology	June 15	IMDB	Netflix
Delete (Thai series; thriller)	phone can erase people; psychological; romance	June 28	IMDB	Netflix
The Witcher (series; S03; adventure/fantasy/mystery/action)	creatures; witchcraft	June 29	IMDB	Netflix
◇ Documentaries:
Hollywood Dreams and Nightmares: The Robert Englund Story (documentary)	VFX character actor	June 6	IMDB	Screambox
True Crime Story: Look Into My Eyes (docu-series)	hypnosis; disgraced principal	June 15	IMDB	AMC+; SundanceTV
◇ Recent releases, now streaming:
She Came From the Woods (horrocomedy)	summer camp; supernatural	June 10	IMDB	Tubi
Play Dead (horrothriller)	killers; sadistic coroner; sells body parts	June 17	IMDB	Tubi

*It’s decent work tracking down all the horror films across the internet, and checking up on their ever changing release schedules. These sites help a lot. Sources: Allhorror.com Bloody-disgusting.com Horrorsociety.com Moviesandmania.com Upcominghorrormovies.com Zombiegrrlz.com

I'M SORRY, I'M DRUNK. To be fair, I'm still sober enough to know that I am definitely writing this and that my brain is still functional enough. But oh my god, guys, I'm sorry, I'm not kidding when I say I DESPERATELY NEEDED SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND MY EMOTIONS, I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE FOR THIS AND NO ONE ELSE IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW HAS FINISHED IT TO MY KNOWLEDGE.
BUT MY GOD. I don't. What. Oh my god. Did anyone bawl and literally sob-cry at the second last episode? I don't know what to say, yet I have to let out some of my emotions or I'm gonna collapse like a supernova on the verge of becoming a blackhole I swear to God.
I started watching this randomly nearly 6-7 years ago. Things were so different back then. I ran out of steam and just never ended up finishing it when the last season came out. Yeah, it was a unique anime (imo, anyway, the premise itself is so fascinating, especially what the story grew into), but hey, there are a lot of unique shows I guess. But in general, as it tends to happen, life gets in the way and we all got shit to do.
Recently I thought, shit, why the fuck not finish this shit. I was supposed to watch it with a buddy, we finished the first season (again), but she got busy, I got busy, life happens.
Even more recently I thought, shit, fuck it, I'm gonna finish this goddamn thing. My friend was okay with it, we live drastically different lives and it's hard to get things in order for both of us to watch simultaneously, but she wouldn't mind and I'm fairly certain I did ask her if she's chill with me finishing it.
So again, I decided to finish it. I don't even know what to say. I don't binge, or at least I try not to binge as a result of preserving the emotions you may want to feel when going through any series. I had a relatively bad night last night, I had about 6 episodes left and half a bottle of whiskey (which is not empty because I'm not insane) and I decided to just finish it.
MY GOD. THE LAST BATTLE?!?!?!?! KAYANO'S POSSIBLE DEATH [hey hey, calm down put ur panties back on, I know there's the whole miracle of bringing her back, but I didn't know it would happen, and why the hell ruin the experience by being a smartass and going "oh hurr durr they're gonna bring her back" I decided I genuinely didn't know] THEM HOLDING KORO-SENSEI DOWN, HIM STILL EDUCATING AND THE FINAL ROLE CALL. Oh my god. I cried the whole fucking time, I'm not ashamed to admit it. THE WHOLE TIME, GUYS, I CRIED THE WHOLE TIME, I DON'T CARE. I cried. My god, that hurt. I don't. Fuck man, especially after the reveal of his backstory? and Kayano's backstory? and how far everyone got? The whole concept of E class being the underdog? The backstory of Principal Asano? The change in the entire school's behaviour with respect to E class? Everyone's hopes and dreams? I'm sorry, but Episode 24 almost destroyed me. Oh my god, Nagisa's ugly crying once the blow was dealt? The entire class, EVEN KARMA AND ITONA CRYING?!?!?!? I'm sorry I know this is probably a little extra, but I swear I'm aware of all these emotions and I'm feeling them all. It's so beautiful. This anime is so fucking beautiful. All the lessons. All the funny moments. All the solemn moments. All the moments of bonding. Those plot twists. The unique set up. The growth EVERYONE went through. No, I have 0 shame in admitting that a 25 year old man was just sitting here, drunk, crying and crying and crying. If I didn't have roommates, I would have cried just as hard as the entire E class. I would have shamelessly bawled like a fucking baby. No, I have 0 shame in admitting that.
I am a firm believer in learning of emotional intelligence through stories. I spent 20 years not being able to learn this from my family (a result of abuse and neglect, kudos to being a south asian I suppose), so the way I learned all this were through stories.
This takes the fucking cake. As soon as ep 24 was over, I immediately told my younger brother to watch it. I can't explain how much this anime means to me right now. My god. It's fucking beautiful. It's so fucking beautiful. It's almost perfect. I'm sorry, I dont. Fcuk. Holy shit.
IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED THIS GODDAMN THING, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WAITING FOR YOU STUPID FUCK?????? GO WATCH IT, YOU GONNA WATCH DUMBASS SHIT ANYWAY, WATCH SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN LEARN FROM. AND DON'T BE A FUCKING DOLT AND BINGE IT LIKE SOME NORMIE ASSHOLE I'm sorry please don't take any offense my drunken self may be dealing out to you. For real. This anime is amazing. It's not perfect, obviously, but it doesn't matter. It's so good. It will teach you so many things.
Rest in Power, Koro-sensei. You don't even really exist, but thank you sir, for everything, for all your wisdom, for all your sorrows, for all your pain, for all your mistakes, for all the things you wish you had done differently. When I watch your story again, and I know I will, I will try to remember every single goddamn lesson you taught us. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you so much.

GALATIANS  
Chapter Four (https://esv.literalword.com/?q=Galatians+4)
 
-3. … we were enslaved [משעבדים, MeShoo`eBahDeeYM] to fundamentals [ליסודות, LeeYÇODOTh] [of] the world.  

“The word τα στοιχεια [ta stoikheia], the elements ... meant (a) the letters of the alphabet… (b) the elements of which a thing was composed, as the fire, air, earth, and water of which the world was thought to be constituted; (c) the elements of the universe, the larger cosmos, including the sun, moon, planets, and stars; and (d) the spirits, angels, and demons which were believed to ensoul the heavenly bodies, traverse all space, and inhabit every nook and cranny of earth, particularly tombs, desert places, and demented persons. These spirits were said to be organized like human governments. In Rom. [Romans] 8:38 Paul calls them ‘principalities’ and ‘powers.’ And vss. [verses] 9 and 10 of our present chapter indicate that he has them in mind in vs. [verse] 3. …  
Paul … includes in ‘the elements of the universe’ all sub-Christian ideas and observances, both Jewish and Gentile. He regards these ‘elements’ as slave drivers who frighten men with curses for not propitiating them by observance of special days and seasons, food taboos, dietary fads, and circumcision. In Christ he declared his independence of Fate, Fortune, Luck, and Chance, and from astrology, the counterfeit religion and bastard sister of astronomy, whose practitioners exploited the superstition that the stars controlled men’s lives from birth to death.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 521 & 522)  
“The elements of the world] A mere Jewish phrase, יסודי עולם הזה yasudey ‘olam hazzeh, ‘the principles of this world;’ that is, the rudiments or principles of the Jewish religion. The apostle intimates that the law was not the science of salvation; it was only the elements or alphabet of it.” (Clarke, 1831, vol. II p. 387)  

-4. But [אבל, ’ahBahL] as that was filled the time, sent forth, Gods, [את, ’ehTh (indicator of direct object; no English equivalent)] His son, born [of] woman, and subject [וכפוף, VeKhahPhOoPh] to instruction [Torah, Law].  

“The four words, το πληρωμα του χρονου [to pleroma tou khronou], the fullness of the time, express a whole philosophy of history. The Hebrew prophets and Jewish apocalyptists believed that their God was the creator of the universe and arbiter of the destinies of all men and nations. Nothing could happen that was not his doing, either directly or indirectly through angels and men. He had a time for everything, and everything happened exactly on time. … The completion of this present age would be marked by a blood-red revolution, in which all good men and good works would be ground under the heel of the tyrant, while the wicked reigned supreme. Then suddenly God would intervene with the lightning of judgment to snatch the world from the mouth of the bottomless pit and restore it to Paradise, whence it had fallen with the sin of Adam. Sorrow and sighing would flee away, and the Messiah would reign with the perfection of a theocratic king.  
At this juncture, says Paul, when the appointed period of history was ‘full,’ god sent his Son γενομενον εκ γυναικος, γενομενον υπο νομον [genomenon ek gunaikos, genomenon upο nomon], ‘born of woman, bοrn under law.’ … Jesus was not only born under law, but was subject to it all his life. ...The ‘yoke’ of the Torah demanded that he observe the customs of his forefathers, such as wearing phylactery and prayer fringes, ceremonial washing of hands before eating, giving thanks at mealtime, praying at stated times, bringing tithes and sacrifices, and obeying the Ten Commandments.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 522 & 523)  
Not to mention circumcision, kashrut, and the prohibition of associating with gentiles.  
“Sent forth refers to God’s sending of his Son from his pre-existent state in heaven (I Cor. [Corinthians] 8:6; Phil. [Philippians] 2:6-8; Col. [Colossians] 1:15-17). Yet this Son was born of woman. There is nothing in these words, or elsewhere in Paul’s letters, to prove or disprove that he knew the story of the miraculous conception. His point here is that the Christ, although he was the pre-existent Son of God, did not come into this world with a body composed of celestial substance, but was woman-born like all other human beings. … It was very different from the conception of royal sonship in Ps. 2, where the king is called God’s ‘Son; because he has been chosen to be the Messiah. In Paul, Jesus is God’s Son by nature, and his Christhood follows by virtue of this sonship. This belief was the fundamental cause of the split between the Jews and the Christians. The lowly birth, the obscurity of Nazareth, and the fact that Jesus was a common laborer, constituted a grievous scandal in the eyes of all who were expecting their Deliverer to come riding on a chariot of clouds wielding the lightning of judgment. Paul’s gospel contradicts every form of hyperspirituality that fixes a gulf between God and his material world. On the other hand, his conception of the coming of Jesus was poles removed from the pagan stories of the births of heroes, savior-gods, and kings, whose legends were freighted with illicit relationships and lawless conduct like the lives of the devotees who had created them in their own image.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 523-524)  
“Nothing is said explicitly about the Son’s preexistence, which is at most implied … born of a woman: … The phrase is derived from the OT [Old Testament, the Hebrew Bible] (Job 14:1 …). So born, Jesus submitted to the law by being circumcised and thus became capable of falling under its curse. But lest the Galatians draw a wrong conclusion, Paul [and The Interpreters’ Bible] does not mention Jesus’ circumcision. Instead of genomenon, ‘born,’ some patristic writers read gennomenon, and understood this ptc. [participle] as referring to Mary’s virginal conception; but this is anachronistic interpretation.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 787)  

-7. Accordingly [לפיכך, LePheeYKhahKh], you are not [אינך, ’aYNKhah] a slave anymore [אוד, ’OD], for if [כי אם, KeeY ’eeM] a son, and, if a son, then [אזי, ’ahZahY] also heir from favor [מטעם, MeeTah`ahM] [of] Gods.  

“This is Paul’s proclamation of emancipation.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 528)  

…………………………………………  
Worry of Shah’OoL to Galatians
[verses 8–20]  

-8. In [the] past, in a time that you did not know [את, ’ehTh] Gods, you slaved [את, ’ehTh] who that in their nature [שבמנהותם, ShehBeMahHOoThahM] were not Gods.  

“The Jews never ceased to ridicule idols and denounce idolaters… They demoted the old gods to the rank of demons and made a list of detractive names for them: angels, shepherds, princes; kings, emperors, benefactors, heroes; demons, personifications, idols, nonentities. Some were living, some dead; some were good, but were not God. Most of them were bad, and their idols were but images of ‘things of nought.’ …  
Paul did not deny the existence of these beings whose ignorant worshipers called them gods, but he declared that they did not partake of the nature of God (I Cor. 8:4-6). God permitted them to plague mankind to punish sin, especially the sin of participating in the sacraments of the Gentile cults (I Cor. 10:19-22; 11:28-31). But Christ had conquered them and no Christian needed to fear them.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 529)  

-10. Behold, you are honoring days and new-[moons], seasons [מועדים, MO`ahDeeYM] and years.  

“Days like the Sabbath and Yom hakkippurim [“Day of Atonement”] are meant; months like the ‘new moon’; seasons like Passover and Pentecost; years like the sabbatical years… Paul can see no reason for a Gentile Christian to observe these.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  

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Two the covenants
[verses 21-26]  

-21. Say to me, you, the wanters to be subject to Instruction, have you not heard [את, ’ehTh] the Instruction?
-22. Is it not written that to ’ahBRahHahM there were two sons, the one from the maid [האמה, Hah’ahMaH] and the second from the woman the free [החפשיה, HahHahPhSheeYah]?
-23. But [אך, ’ahKh] [the] son [of] the maid was born according to [לפי, LePheeY] the flesh,
and however [ואילו, Ve’eeYLOo] [the] son [of] the free upon mouth of the promise.
-24. The words the these, they are a parable to two the covenants:
the one from Mount ÇeeNah-eeY [Sinai], the birther to slavery, and she is HahGahR [“The Sojourner”, Hagar].  

“It is well known how fond the Jews were of allegorizing; every thing in the law was with them an allegory: their Talmud [ancient commentary] is full of these; and one of their most sober and best educated writers Philo, abounds with them…  
It is very likely, therefore, that the allegory produced here; St. Paul had borrowed from the Jewish writings; and he brings it in to convict the Judaizing Galatians on their own principles: and neither he, nor we, have any thing farther to do with this allegory, than as it applies to the subject for which it is quoted; nor does it give any license to those men of vain and superficial minds, who endeavour to find out allegories in every portion of the Sacred Writings; and by what they term spiritualizing, which is more properly carnalizing, have brought the testimonies of God into disgrace. May the spirit of silence be poured out upon all such corrupters of the word of God!” (Clarke, 1831, vol. II p. 390)  
“Allegorical interpretation rests upon the belief that every word, figure of speech, and grammatical form in scripture has a special ‘spiritual’ significance besides its literal meaning. The theory is that the God who dictated it meant more than rests on the surface and that while he said one thing, he also meant something else in addition to the literal sense… The Greeks had long since applied the method to explain away the immoral things which the gods said and did in Homer… Then Greek-speaking Jews, like Philo Judaeus, employed it apologetically to read Greek philosophy into the O.T. [Old Testament, the Hebrew Bible], proclaiming that Moses had said all these good things long before and better than Homer and Plato.  
The wonder is that Paul has so little allegory. His restraint is explained partly by his training as a Pharisee. The rabbis were suspicious of any interpretation of scripture that tended to make Jews lax in their observance of the law. Jews with Gnostic leanings, and those who considered some of their ancestral customs outmoded, could resort to allegory to justify their philosophy and conduct, while maintaining that they were the spiritual superiors of the conservatives who held to the letter of the law … His argument, however, is never strengthened by allegorical symbolism and typology, for these are convincing only to those who by imagination can find them so. Rather, as in Rom. 9-11, he introduces unnecessary complications such as the moral difficulties involved in predestination. His gospel does not rest on the quicksands of allegory, a specious method of interpreting scripture. Its interpretations are of interest to the historian not as correct representations of what the writers and first readers of the Bible had in mind, but only as source materials for understanding the life and thought of the allegorists themselves.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 540)  

-25. Hagar signifies [מסמלת, MeÇahMehLeTh] [את, ’ehTh] Mount ÇeeNah-eeY, that is in Arabia, and parallels [ומקבילה,OoMahQBeeYLaH] to Jerusalem of our day, for she is in slavery with her sons.  

“… why does Paul mention Arabia…? Possibly because Mt. Sinai is in Arabia[?], which is Ishmaelite territory; he thus associates the Sinai pact with the eponymous patriarch of Arab tribes … Paul thus suggests that the law itself stems from a situation extrinsic to the promised land and to the real descendants of Abraham. Paul’s Jewish former co-religionists would not have been happy with this allegory.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  

-26. But [אבל, ’ahBahL] Jerusalem from ascended [מעלה, Mah`eLaH], [the] daughter [of] freedom [חורין, HOReeYN] is she, and she is mother to us.
 

“The Jerusalem which now is was a most unholy “Holy city”, full of injustice, violence and murder, and subject to the cruel and wicked rulers imposed by a Gentile empire. But over against this Jerusalem of slavery lay an ideal celestial city, unseen at present, but destined soon to supersede it. Paul called it the Jerusalem above. Sarah, the free-woman, was the ancestress of its citizens, who were the people of faith and of freedom in Christ…  
Paul speaks of Jerusalem above, because this new city of freedom already exists in heaven where Christ is, where dwell the souls of those who have died in Christ. But it also exists on earth as the church, the body of Christ, whose members are colonists from heaven sent to prepare men for the full establishment of God’s kingdom at Christ’s second coming (Phil. 3:20; Col. 3:1-3).  
The biblical root of this conception of an ideal future and heavenly Jerusalem is Isa. [Isaiah] 54. Other descriptions appear in Ezek. [Ezekiel] 40-48; Zech. [Zechariah] 2:1-13; Hag. [Haggai] 2:6-9; Tob. [Tobias] 13:9-18 Ecclus. [Ecclesiasticus] 36; Pss. Sol. [Psalms of Solomon] 17:33. Historically the expectation assumed three forms. According to the earliest hope, God would build the new Jerusalem in Palestine and make it the capital of his theocratic world government. The plan of this glorious city was graven upon the palms of his hands (Isa. 49:16). From this idea it was but a step, especially for those influenced by Greek ideas, to think of this ideal Jerusalem as already existing in heaven. According to the Apocalypse of Baruch, God had shown it to Adam in Paradise before he sinned; to Abraham on the night mentioned in Gen. 15:12-21; and to Moses on Sinai, when he gave him the heavenly pattern for an earthly tabernacle (II Baruch 4:1-6; cf. [compare with] Heb. [Hebrews]12:22). The third conception combined these two ideas. The Jerusalem which was ‘above’ would come down to earth to be established in Palestine in place of the city that ‘now is’ (cf. Rev. [Revelation] 3:12, 21:2; II Esdras 7:26; 13:36; 10:54).  
So the new Jerusalem belonged to both worlds and to both ages, to heaven and earth, to the present and the future. Its constitution was the new covenant, and its citizens were the men of faith in Christ, a new kind of freemen who traced their spiritual ancestry through the line of Isaac and his mother Sarah as heirs of God’s promise to Abraham. As for Ishmael and his tribe, they were the men of law, predestined to be slaves forever. Needless to say, the Judaizers found Paul’s allegorical exclusion of themselves utterly unacceptable. They believed that the Torah was God’s blueprint for all creation, and that it would be observed forever in the new Jerusalem. That, they said, was why God was going to purge the old city – to establish an order of life in which perfect obedience to his law would be possible.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 541-542)  
“…it was a maxim among the rabbins [rabbis], that, ‘Whatsoever was in the earth, the same was also found in heaven; for there is no matter, howsoever small, in this world, that has not something similar to it in the spiritual world.’ On this maxim, the Jews imagine that every earthly thing has its representative in heaven: and especially whatever concerns Jerusalem, the law, and its ordinances. Rab. ["Master", Rabbi] Kimchi, speaking of Melchisedec, king of Salem, says, זו ירושלים של מעלה Zu Yerushalem shel me’alah – ‘This is the Jerusalem that is from above.’…  
There is a spiritual Jerusalem, of which this is the type; and this Jerusalem, in which the souls of all the righteous are, is free from all bondage and sin: or by this, probably the kingdom of the Messiah was intended; and this certainly answers best to the apostle’s meaning, as the subsequent verse shows.” (Clarke, 1831, vol. II p. 391)  

-27. That see, is written:  
“Chant, barren, not birthing, [רני עקרה לא ילדה RahNeeY 'ahQRaH Lo’ YahLahDaH] burst chanting and shouting, not travailing, [פצחי רנה וצהלי לא-חלה PeeTsHeeY ReeNaH VeTsahHahLeeY Lo’-HahLaH] for multitudinous are sons of her deserted than [מי, MeeY] sons of her mistress [כי-רבים בני-שוממיה מבני בעולה KheeY-RahBeeYM BeNaY-ShoMahMeeYHah MeeBeNaY Be'ooLaH].”  

“A telling item in the counterpropaganda of the legalists was the argument that even among the Christians only a radical fringe consisting mainly of foreign Jews, of whom Paul was one, were proposing to abandon the law of Moses. …  
In one respect his quotation of Isa. 54:1 does not fit Paul’s allegory. It was Sarah, the mother of freemen, who possessed the husband, and Hagar, the slave, who was the deserted woman. As usual with Paul’s illustrations (cf. Rom. 7:1-4; 11:17-24), the details cannot be pressed without making them go lame …  
The Isaian figure to describe the plight of Jerusalem during the Babylonian exile grew out of a common experience in Hebrew family life. Childlessness, particularly the failure to bear sons, was great grief and disgrace. Such was the sorrow of Jerusalem; but the prophet bade her look forward with courage to the time when all her scattered children would come back to her (Isa. 54:3). God was her ‘husband,’ and he would treat his faithful remnant with everlasting lovingkindness, making them more numerous than the former population and giving them a heritage of great peace and prosperity (Isa. 54:13-17).” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 542)  
“The prophet’s words are addressed to deserted Zion, bidding it rejoice at the return of the exiles.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  

-28. But you, my brethren [τεχνα, tekhna, “children”], you are the sons of the promise, as was YeeTsHahQ [“He Laughed”, Isaac].  

“The Judaizers claimed that Abraham had obeyed the law of Moses by anticipation, and that God’s promise was his reward. Consequently the descendants of Isaac were children of promise only if they followed Abraham’s example in obeying the law. Paul turned it the other way about: the promise must be taken on faith, not as credit for obedience.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 542)  

-29. And just as [וכשם, OoKhShayM] that then pursued, [רדף, RahDahPh] the son that was born according to [לפי, LePheeY] flesh, [את, ’ehTh] the son that was born according to the spirit, yes, also now.  

“In Gen 21:10 Sarah, seeing Ishmael ‘playing’ with Isaac and viewing him as the potential rival to Isaac’s inheritance, drives him and his mother out. Nothing in Gen is said of Ishmael’s ‘persecution’ of Isaac, but Paul may be interpreting the ‘playing’ as did a Palestinian haggadic explanation of Gen 21:9 (see Josephus, ANT. [Antiquities] 1.12.3§215 …” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)  
“A rabbinical tradition of the second century A.S. interprets the Hebrew participle מצחק [MeeTsHahQ, “play”] (LXX [Septuagient, the ancient Greek translation of the Hebrew Bible] παιζοντα [paizonta] in Gen. 21:9 to mean that Ishmael’s ‘playing’ became so rough that Isaac’s life was in danger. This son of a slave is said to have shot arrows at Isaac to kill him, and Paul’s statement shows that some such tradition was current in his day. He applied it to the Judaizers who were trying to force the Christians to observe the whole law of Moses, and to the unbelieving Jews who were excommunicating the Christians and their families and getting them into trouble with the civil authorities (1:5; 4:17; 5:10; I Thess. [Thessalonians] 2:14-16).” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X p. 543)  

-30. But what says the Written [Scripture]?  
“Banish [גרש GahRaySh] the maid and [את, ’ehTh] her son,
for not will inheritI [יירש, YeeYRahSh], son [of] the maid [האמה, Hah’ahMaH], with son [of] the free.”  

“The quotation is from Gen. 21:10 … The speaker of these words is Sarah, who is filled with rage against Hagar and Ishmael. Abraham is represented as greatly grieved, but God is said to have sanctioned the demand of the cruel and jealous wife….  
This story was one of the effects and one of the causes of the perpetual feud between the Israelites and the tribes that descended from Ishmael. The Hebrews were so sure that God wanted them to have Palestine that they found no moral difficulty in saying that it was God himself who had overruled Abraham’s conscience (Gen. 17:18-21). They affirmed that Ishmael’s character and destiny had been predetermined (Gen. 16:12). Consequently, even his circumcision at the age of thirteen could not make him a member of God’s chosen people. However great this innocent victim of a family feud might become by virtue of the halfhearted blessing conceded by an uneasy conscience (Gen. 17:20-21), he and his descendants were barred forever from the higher blessing. Theirs was to submit to the religious imperialism of the most favored nation or die. Moreover, all Abraham’s other sons except Isaac were barred from the promise and sent away ‘unto the east country’ (Gen. 25:5-6). And yet while all this was said to be the Lord’s doing, it was in the same breath declared to be the doing of the human actors in this drama of the nations. Sarah herself was said to have suggested that Abraham become a father by her Egyptian slave girl. Then, too, it was explained that Hagar’s flight from the cruelty of her mistress was voluntary, making her, rather than the callous compliance of Abraham, responsible for her plight ‘in the wilderness, by the fountain in the way to Shur’ (Gen. 16:7).  
Paul’s use of Abraham’s expulsion of Hagar and her child has its parallel in the equally heartless treatment of Esau which he employs in Rom. 9-11 in his longer discussion of the divine process of selection. Here too it was assumed that the hatred generated by centuries of war for the possession of Palestine lay in the heart of God. “I hate Esau,” said Malachi (1:3), making God the speaker; and Rom. 9:6-13 presses it to the utmost limit of predestination. But the love of God in Christ Jesus made Paul’s heart better than his inherited doctrine … When the history of the struggle for the possession of “the Holy land” is allegorized to justify a doctrine of “election” which foredooms countless souls to an eternity of torment in a future hell, it becomes as morally atrocious as it is irreconcilable with Paul’s gospel.  
Nevertheless Paul’s allegory gives the historian an insight into Paul’s mind as he wrestled with the insoluble problem of God’s sovereignty and human freedom.” (Stamm, 1953, TIB vol. X pp. 543-544)  
“Paul bids the Galatians rid themselves of the Judaizers – and, ironically enough, obey the Torah itself.” (Joseph A. Fitzmyer, 1990, TNJBC p. 788)   An Amateur's Journey Through the Bible

Title Update 18

 

Introduction

TU18 is the first update of Year 5 and it is a full package. A new game mode, a new manhunt, XP reward overhaul and many more smaller and bigger changes.
 
=> Trailer
 

Maintenance

To release the new Season 1: Broken Wings, we'll be taking The Division 2 servers down for a scheduled maintenance Thursday, June 8th at
 

• 9:30 AM CEST,
• 3:30 AM EDT,
• 12:30 AM PDT.

 
» Worldtime
The estimated downtime is 3 hours.
 
» Source

The story so far

When you have missed the last seasons, you can read a story summary here:
 
=> Summary
 

Title Update 18

 
Release Date: June 8th 2023
 

Content

• 1 Game Mode
  • Descent
• 1 Manhunt
  • Broken Wings
• 1 Gear Brand Set
  • Electrique
• 1 Gear Set
  • The Cavalier
• 2 Exotics
  • St. Elmo's Engine – Exotic AR
  • Shocker Punch – Exotic Holster
• 2 Named Items
  • Cabaret – MP5 ST
  • Big Show – MG5 LMG
• 1 New Talent
  • Thunder Strike
• Expertise increase
• Quality of Life
  • Directives for Raids
  • Conflict adds to SHD progression
  • Open World activities XP revamp
  • Mission difficulty no longer connected to Global Difficulty
  • Added quick grenade selection menu
  • Season Blueperints to Control Points

 

Descent

Descent is a free, 1-to-4 player game mode with semi-infinite and randomized progression, versus an infinite difficulty curve. Warlords of New York ownership is not required to access the mode.
Agents are stripped of all their gear, specializations and perks when starting the game mode. The mode is a playground where you can experiment with builds not feasible in the regular game, challenging them tactically and encouraging deeper understanding of the build meta.
 
You don't need to own Warlords of New York to play Descent.
 
=> Descent Summary
 

Season 1: Broken Wings

=> Manhunt Targets
=> Manhunt Roadmap
 
In the wake of the attack at the White House, The Division has discovered that 11 people are unaccounted for and considered missing.
You will be tasked to go on a high-stakes rescue mission to find the missing civilians, as they have valuable intel on the White House and The Castle Settlement.
Year 5 Season 1 prime Target is Mari Singh, the former Director of the DC Aquarium. She moved into The Castle and set up a fish farm to support the settlement and build a sustainable and secure place to raise their growing family.
Agents must locate and rescue Mari and 4 other hostages before further damage can be done in Washington DC. Securing the people will help rebuild The Castle and restore vital services for The Division.
Once we rescue these people, they will help us rebuild the Castle Settlement and unlock additional facilities there.
Good luck, Agents!
 
=> Broken Wings Overview
 

Castle Settlement Rebuild

For each hostage that you rescue, one of the facilities of the Castle Settlement will open up until you have a fully operational settlement.
 

Apparel Event

As part of Season 1: Broken Wings, you will be able to unlock apparel items inspired by SHD tech and the Black Tusk.
 
These are the so far previewed outfits:

• Overview
• Dunne
• Conley
• Ward
• Espinoza
• Johnson

 

New Gear

Gear Brand Set

• Electrique

=> Brand Sets

Gear Set

• The Cavalier

=> Image
=> Gear Sets

Exotic Gear

• Shocker Punch – Exotic Holster

=> Image
=> Exotic Gear
 

New Weapons and Talents

Exotic Weapons

• St. Elmo's Engine – Exotic AR

=> Image
=> Exotic Weapons

Named Weapons

• Cabaret – MP5 ST
• Big Show – MG5 LMG

Talent

• Thunder Strike

 

Increase Expertise

With the new Items in the pool, the maximal Expertise Level increases to 23
=> Expertise Overview
 

Quality of Life

New Directives for Activities

With TU18 the Raids officially got Directives that you can select and add to the activity.
 

XP Revamp

=> Overview
 

• Overall, the XP gains were increased by 12%.
• The goal is that all activities grant the same XP per hour – that includes NPC kills.
• Convoys have been adjusted to be on par with the others.
• The goal is that you can enjoy a variety of activities and still get a good amount of progression and not just chasing convoys.

 

Blueprints From Season 9-11 / 3

When you did not get the blueprints from the season 9-11, after TU18 you can earn them from Level 4 Control Points. The Season 3 blueprints will be added a bit later.
 

Easy Access / Menu Updates

• Added the Grants Tab to make the compensations process more streamlined and items easy to obtain
  • Grants Tab can be found in the Store
• Added an option to allow players to change mission difficulty regardless of the world difficulty setting
• Added quick grenade selection menu
  • Hold G for PC
  • Hold D-pad Left for the consoles
• Added an option to mark Apparel Items as favorite
• Added the option to Show selected mission Directives on the Mega Map
• Added the possibility to hold ESC/SPACE to skip videos and epilepsy warnings
  • Equivalent of Space button is X (PS) and A (XB)
  • Equivalent of Escape button is Options (PS) and Map/Hide Map (XB)
• Added a new "In Loadouts" section at the bottom of the Item Details window in the Inventory (under a gear piece's talent and mod slots) to display the current loadouts where the selected item is present
• Added the Hide/Show Mask’ and ‘Hide/Show Signature Weapon’ buttons in the Inventory when hovering over the specific tiles/tabs
  • Currently present in the cross Options layout
• Added a notification widget for modding Primary, Secondary and Sidearm weapons' skin slot, which appears if the player has any custom skin available for that weapon in the Store. The notification also has a quick button that redirects to the Weapon Skins Store tab
• Added visual feedback for locked Grenades
  • When browsing through the Grenades menu in the Inventory, players will see a notification which lets them know if the selected Grenade can be equipped or not

 

Important Links

=> PTS Patch Notes
=> PTS Phase 2 Patch Notes
=> Division Day
=> Reveal Stream
 

Patch Notes

=> Link
 

Resources

This is a collection of already created Community Resources that should help you get going.
=> Community Resources
 

Roadmap

Check out The Division 2 Roadmap here:
=> Link
 

Looking for Group?

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LFG Sub

=> The Division LFG
 

The Division Community Discord

=> The Division Discord
 

The Division Official Discord

=> The Division Discord
 

Bug Reports

We have a dedicated bug-report forum and post for that.
 
=> Bug Report Megathread